I deleted the synopsis word by word because leaving it up felt like I was really misleading everyone.
This story has been on hiatus since winter break. Then I went quiet, until I popped up again a week ago. After saving up chapters for so long, I finally had twelve ready to post. I thought I might manage to save up fifteen in a week, then replace the old chapters.
But... that really came back to bite me.
I have an outline, but whenever I sit down at my computer, my mind is still blank. I force out one word, then delete it, then another. It might sound melodramatic, but I really feel like what I'm forcing myself to write is an insult to such a lovely outline.
My writing is too childish, my thinking is sloppy, and my chronic laziness is terminal. It takes me ages just to convince myself to turn on the computer. Before, I could say writing gave me a headache, but now I've broken my promise again and kept my little angels waiting for nothing. All I can say is that I have no credibility and no self-control whatsoever.
I did consider posting the twelve chapters without waiting until I had fifteen. But after thinking it over, I decided not to get my hopes up about myself. I'm afraid this will end up like my two completed stories before, with updates stopping every now and then or a rushed ending.
I also considered quietly abandoning the story without saying anything, or locking it away. But then I thought, I've already lost my credibility and half my reputation. I can't throw away the other half, too, so here I am again.
I saw the messages from my little angels today. I wanted to reply, but then I couldn't think of what to say. Whatever I said felt wrong, too light and insubstantial.
There's a lot I want to say, but now that I've written this much, I don't know what to say anymore. I'm rambling a bit. So many of you little angels have been commenting since my first story. It's really not right to keep disappointing you.
I'm truly sorry.
I'll leave this story here for now. If you're unhappy or feeling upset, vent here. It's my fault.
It's okay, don't deny yourself in a hurry. Although we always choose to give up from time to time and get extremely low, as long as the final result shows that we are still persisting, even if we have stopped countless times in the middle
Come on, your writing is really good.
I love your writing, so much! ! ! [Rose][Poor]
Don't be sad, just write articles, just be happy. The purpose is to share happiness with people who have the same hobbies. Don't worry about other messy things. If you are really unhappy, just throw them away. The main reason is to be happy. I will still save the articles and wait for you to come back.
New to the pit, wait in line!
Come back soon Come back soon (ー`?ー)
It doesn't matter, we are waiting for you!
The most important thing when writing is to have fun!
Dad, come back quickly! I've been whetted...
It's been one year and seven months since the last update, and I'm still waiting for the big comeback
It's okay, don't deny yourself in a hurry. Although we always choose to give up from time to time and get extremely low, as long as the final result shows that we are still persisting, even if we have stopped countless times in the middle Come on, your writing is really good.
I love your writing, so much! ! ! [Rose][Poor]
Don't be sad, just write articles, just be happy. The purpose is to share happiness with people who have the same hobbies. Don't worry about other messy things. If you are really unhappy, just throw them away. The main reason is to be happy. I will still save the articles and wait for you to come back.
New to the pit, wait in line!
Come back soon Come back soon (ー`?ー)
It doesn't matter, we are waiting for you!
The most important thing when writing is to have fun!
Dad, come back quickly! I've been whetted...
It's been one year and seven months since the last update, and I'm still waiting for the big comeback
It's very well written, keep it up~