We are children, we sit on the lotus
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He immediately realized that his affairs were bound to go all the way to the dark side, selling himself to bars, doing stripteases, being raped, etc. Nothing could be changed, so why should he expect to like her? Everything he had already seen clearly, Zhang Ao, Wang Lu, and Li Si had made him understand himself more deeply and identify himself, why not be even crazier? Why not be more slutty?
All I want is tobacco, alcohol, or sex. One night in Beijing, I have been confused ever since. . .