2015 Killua Birthday Celebration: If You and I Had Never Met in This World

I'm so touched that I can express everyone's thoughts! Actually, I didn't fall in love with Killua at first sight. I was originally a fan of Ryoma and then climbed up the wall [guilty face] But that doesn't mean you don't like Ryoma! It's just that Killua became the first! Maybe there are factors of Shotacon at work. I used to be surprised to hear people say they would dream about Killua, but now I can dream about it too! I guess it's because I'm thinking about it day by day, dreaming about it at night, or something else. I only dreamed about hunters 4 times, and 3 of them were about Killua! Although the first time was when I dreamed about having my heart ripped out, the second time I was filled with happiness, but I still didn't tell him to avoid being burned to death. The third time was when I dreamed about him but it didn't trigger the plot, just like a stranger who just met him once... I feel so excited to be able to dream about him! It feels like I'm finally a little closer to him. Although dreaming all the time is not good for the body, and the brain is always unable to get enough rest and is prone to sudden death, but so what? Sometimes I really think sadly that if I could see him, I would be willing to do so even if my body and brain were too tired and would be ruined. Even though it was in a dream, it was much more real than being in another dimension. Gay friends often say that I am sick for caring so much about a two-dimensional person. But I think this is normal, because among so many people who like him as much as me, I am just an ordinary one. Everyone feels the same, and we all like him the same. But it's different after all. I'm very happy that so many people like Killua, but sometimes I don't want so many people to like him out of selfish motives. This mentality is really annoying. I painstakingly carved his name, Romanized Japanese, and birthday on the desk. Because I didn't have a knife and a compass, the handwriting was crooked, but I was still very satisfied. I feel very happy when I look at and touch him in class. I can draw what he looks like. When the drawing looks a bit ugly, I tear it up and get sulky. How could my big brother be so ugly?! (╯>д<)╯