"Big brother, I love you." The rest of the words could only ever be spoken silently in my heart. I knew you would never accept these feelings, yet I still couldn't bear to let go of this warmth. I wanted to keep you all to myself, but I was powerless to hold on to your retreating figure.
When I grow up and become stronger, will you be willing to make this tenderness mine alone?
But even if you aren't willing, it doesn't matter. As long as I love you for even one second, you'll never be able to escape.
"Xiao Yu?" When did those eyes, once so full of innocence, become tainted by darkness? By the time I wanted to make things right, it was already too late. The time I was gone had become a vast black hole, swallowing that innocent child and leaving behind nothing but a filthy adult.
Even so, I have to change him, because I am the older brother he adores, and he is my beloved younger brother.
But these feelings had changed. Between them, or perhaps only within him, feelings that should never have been there had begun to grow. He wanted to possess him, so he had to destroy everything first.
To monopolize the only voice that made him feel warm, he decided to do whatever it took.
Author, why don't you update it - it's been seven years
Looks good, looks better.