Hand in Hand Forever

It integrates some analysis and reflections on the novel "Holding Hands for Forever" over the past four years. ·Analysis of Tao Qian's character ·Analysis of Jiang Yiyuan's character and their relationship ·Research branch of Qianxue ·Xiaodan Linmu ·Analysis of the cover of the first physical book ·Tao Taoyuan's birth date and Tao Tao's death date speculation ·Music and flowers suitable for holding hands ·Analysis of Tao Qian's character Tao Qian is my favorite heroine in novels. Her character is very attractive to me. This is one of the reasons why I have always been obsessed with her. In the comment areas of various platforms, I often see comments saying that the heroine is pretentious and pretentious. I never feel that way. I previously wrote a fanfic from Tao Qian's perspective - "Girl's Prayer", about her heart when she was young. In fact, at the beginning, the title I thought of was "Girl's Sacrifice". Here is the original text of "Girl's Prayer", and I will talk about Tao Qian in detail later. The 19-year-old girl's shoulders were too thin to bear her own weight, so she was destined to die young. After her first illness when she was young, Tao Qian, who struggled to return from the line of life and death, finally truly felt what death was. The countdown of life rang in her ears day after day. The fear of death struck her overwhelmingly. The day she returned to campus, the sun shone on her body, but she felt no warmth at all. Walking on campus, she was surrounded by young and lively lives. The age of around 20 was the best time in life, and too many expectations emerged and grew at this time. She was also young and full of expectations, but she had already begun to wither. In the lively crowd, he seemed to be a ghost wandering outside the world, walking alone and retrograde towards the abyss of death. An ordinary girl who died young. After passing away with the wind, the shallow footprints left in the world will soon be covered by the wind and snow of the years, and she will not leave any traces in the world. She looked at herself in the mirror in silence. In the past, when she looked in the mirror, she would think expectantly and confidently, how far can I go? She felt that she was a pretty good person, she worked hard and was smart, and she was pretty good at studying. She thought that she would do better in the future, she would have her own career, and she would bring a good life to her mother. There was a young man from far away who made a promise to her. Now, when she faced the mirror again, she felt that there was a dead air on her face, as if she could never smile again. Such thoughts made her terrified. She quickly patted her face and forced a smile, but her face in the mirror was still pale. She bit her lip hard and twisted her face a few times. There was finally a little blush on her face despite the pain, and she seemed to look much better. But... But... The heavy emotions in her throat made her unable to breathe, and her eyes turned red uncontrollably. How far can I go? How far can I go? She turned on the faucet and splashed water on her face, and the tears seemed to disappear. She always knew that she had some heart problems, but she never thought that she might not live to be 30 years old. The panic of no tomorrow was about to overwhelm her. She was so small and powerless in front of death and the world. Will anyone remember me? My mother can do it, and she will be very painful and sad for the rest of her life. Sister Xiaodan can do it, but she also... Where are my friends? What about the people I know? The window was wide open, the mirror was facing the window, and the parallel world in the mirror extended into the distance, but she seemed to have seen the end of herself, as if she could foresee that ten years later, or less than ten years at all, five years, three years, those classmates who had shared a moment of memory with her would only have a faint word of regret when they recalled her. With a sigh as soft as the wind, the traces she left in the world were blown away, and there was no longer any proof of her existence in this world. Like all the people who have passed away, spring passes and autumn comes, time flies, and no one remembers it. But what does she have that makes everyone remember her? She is just an ordinary person, born in an ordinary family, with ordinary intelligence, appearance, and ordinary emotional intelligence. Just at T University, she is surrounded by talented people. The little excellence she has worked hard for is simply not enough in the big environment. Are some people destined to die young? While drowning, she raised her head and saw a young man who attracted much attention, and saw the light in him. Such vivid vitality, such dazzling light. Amid the cheers of everyone on the court, she heard her heartbeat beating violently, the blood in her chest boiling inch by inch, and a strong desire burst out of her body. Obsessed, she made a crazy decision. She was indeed crazy. With a self-destructive burning, she broke her own bottom line and broke the eyes of others. The heart that was born with a defect in her chest made a broken sound, but this sound also caused her soul to tremble. The moment of breakaway and madness brought a moment of reality, a real feeling, a feeling of living, and the shadow of death was also covered by this moment of freedom. The light on the blade was dangerous and crazy, and a thin edge seemed to be spinning and dancing on the edge of the cliff. The taut burning of the string of life gave her a real and boiling feeling of living, as if the trapped life had another possibility for her to open up. The fear of death seemed to be relieved and vented, but while the fire burned others, it used herself as fuel. There are times when I wake up while burning, feeling sad about the loneliness and helplessness of not being able to look up at the stars. There is also a sense of guilt and guilt in the crazy background. She feels guilty about the boy she chose. She knew that it wouldn't help, but she would still do some things silently, hoping to make up for the trouble she caused him. For example, she secretly opened the water for him, or... Swam across the swollen lake to deliver medicine to him. Why would she make such a desperate move? She was obviously so afraid of death. Die. Most young people do not know the true meaning behind this word. Death and youth are two naturally separated words. For them, they are something too distant and ethereal. But she has experienced it. She has seen empty hospital beds one after another. She has struggled on the edge of death and touched the door of hell. The certainty of early death has been beating the countdown of life by her eardrums day after day. The shadow of death dragged her limbs like swamp paralysis. She fell and sank but refused to give in, so she made her first rebellion. It is breaking and also self-destruction. The world was turned upside down, and the sky she looked up to became another abyss. Only on the edge of pain could she find some real solace. And Jiang Yiyuan was completely different from her. He is the most vivid and powerful life she has ever seen. He is like a plant that always faces the sun, growing in a wild and vast wilderness. His body and mind are equally bright and beautiful. His life has not been subject to any shackles. It is a truly free and complete life. How could such a person die, with the vitality that she longed for and couldn't desire the most? So why would she act like that? Can't bear the instinctive longing for the ultimate vitality in your heart? Apology and compensation for him? What unexplainable feelings? Or has the self-destructive madness burned into her sanity and become her intuition? In the dark and cold lake, she achieved the ultimate goal of living toward death. Her heart was one step faster than her brain, and she couldn't even think about it. When the heaviness is at its heaviest, can the soul rise with lightness? She was afraid of death, very afraid, but she seemed... Not afraid of death. It later proved that such a sacrificial impulse once again brought her to the edge of death, but she had no regrets. One day, she blocked Jiang Yiyuan outside the piano room as usual. Listening to the sound of the piano coming from the room, she quickly recognized it - "Girl's Prayer" A cheerful and light tone, a girl's carefree and romantic thoughts. What is her prayer? Tao Qian lowered her head and looked at the love letter in her hand, which had a big heart drawn on it and her signature that was conspicuous and exaggerated. "Is this it..." She raised her head again and looked at the sky outside the window. Her body leaning on the door panel suddenly felt a little weak. The December sky was pure ice blue, like a mirror, making her heart feel cold inch by inch. Later, many things were flowing in uncontrollable directions, and she got closer and closer to the light. She saw clearly the young man's heart in the light, which was sincere, kind, soft, and a living heart. From then on, she could no longer regard it as a monotonous symbol. This melodious piece of music was finally struck to the correct chord unexpectedly. The complicated and chaotic notes on the score returned to their original positions, and the music flowing out became clear and moving. She was timid and looking forward to reaching out. She wanted to be a fish that would no longer swim against the current, and wanted to adapt to the beauty of life. But soon, the wave of fate frustrated her again. Like the daughter of the sea, she turned into foam in the end, and all the burning finally became the silent starlight in her memory. Looking at the cold and pale surgical lamp in a foreign country, she thought, maybe Jiang Yiyuan was just a fake spring when she walked alone in the endless snow and was dying, and looking up alone was her original destiny. But who would have thought that the river of time would flow forward, and suddenly one day, waves would come from the distant sea, and the fallen tide would come back again - it turns out that life is a tide. Liveliness, kindness, and humor are the sunny side of her character. This is the background of her life formed since childhood. However, when the scythe of fate is in effect, and she is desperate and extreme, I think the dark side of her character can be summarized in two words, "loneliness" and "self-destruction." The latter is a summary that I suddenly found out after a long time. In the darkest side of her character, there is a tendency to self-destruction. Life before the age of 19 seemed to be sunny without much haze. Even though she was born with a weak body and was not rich from a wealthy background, she had the most sincere love and care from her parents. Even though her father later passed away, her mother who loved her held up the sky for her. She was optimistic, cheerful, kind and lively. The foundation of her life had taken shape. She has always had a smooth academic life, with both intelligence and hard work going hand in hand. She has been admitted to a good university, and the future seems to be bright. As long as she works hard steadily, she will have her own career and bring a good life to her mother. There is a promise made to her by her childhood sweetheart in the distance. When she was a freshman, she followed the teacher to work on projects without paying any attention to what was going on. (It was mentioned in the article that Tao Tao didn't know about the famous campus celebrity Jiang Jiang at all. She only learned about it from the girls next to her during a basketball league in her freshman year, which shows that she was really immersed in studying.) But she also got sick because of working too hard. From then on, her body did not allow her to work hard. She worked hard, and her mind was tortured by the countdown to death. At this time, she was just a little girl who had just entered college. All her dreams for the future came to an abrupt end. She didn't know which one would come first, tomorrow or death. In the midst of chaos, panic and despair, and when her mind was suffering and tortured and almost collapsed, she finally saw a spiritual exit. I have always felt that Tao Qian has some self-destructive impulse, or is crazy. What is the purpose of pursuing Jiang Yiyuan? I feel that "being remembered" is only the surface layer of her purpose. The middle layer is to relieve the fear and panic of death in her heart, and the most fundamental background is the envy and yearning for her strong vitality. Those absurd and crazy entanglements carried a self-destructive mentality, which seemed to be a bit of resistance to the established destiny. She could not choose an upward life, so she chose the downward freedom, and her bottom line was broken bit by bit, as if a trapped life had Another possibility was opened, and the fear of death seemed to be relieved and vented. A bit of twisted desire for destruction and pleasure sprouted in the process. However, while the fire burned others, it used itself as fuel. The sky you looked up at was actually another abyss. There is also a sense of guilt and guilt in the background of madness. The kind nature accumulated in her past life makes her feel guilty, and she will silently do some things for him, such as secretly opening the water for her, or swimming across a lake where the water level has skyrocketed to deliver medicine to him. I think the plot design of delivering medicine is a bit fierce and unreasonable, but it can be said to be the most concentrated expression of Tao Tao's complex feelings for Yiyuan in the early stage. Can't bear the instinctive longing for the ultimate vitality in your heart? Apology and compensation for him? What unexplainable feelings? Or has the self-destructive madness burned into her sanity and become her intuition? It's too complicated, everything gets mixed up, and in the end the heart is one step ahead of the brain. The last point is a summary that I suddenly figured out after a long time. The darkest side of her character is a bit self-destructive. She sees some things very clearly, because her life is limited, so she will not worry too much about some things, such as Xu Yan's hostility, Jiang's replacement, and the time when Jiang's best friend made things difficult for her in the fruit shop... But this is not a kind of loneliness outside the lively group, a kind of sobriety of being an outside observer. The loneliness and sadness of a girl who has no tomorrow and is racing against time, and the helplessness of looking up at the stars. This is most obvious at Seo Yan's birthday party, when she and Jiang Yiyuan are facing each other in the bathroom. Outside the crowd, the girl's lonely figure, fragile morbidity, and confused soul. She wants to be remembered, but is afraid of entering anyone's life. In the past, Zhong Qing later faced Jiang Yiyuan's hesitation and retreat, and then left twice. She was too kind and afraid that she would become a burden. She was timid and afraid to face the future. She was lost in the maze of her own heart. Fate has given her too many setbacks, the conclusion of early death, unsolvable illness, being forced to separate from her first love when she was young, and being tortured by four years of loneliness in a foreign country. Every time she thinks of Tao Tao's four years, she is very sad. A lonely girl, four years, too painful. When she was young, Jiang Yiyuan seemed like a little gift given to her by fate. She finally moved from chaos to the right track, but this beauty The good, short-lived first love slipped away quickly and heartbreakingly, and the next four years were filled with endless illness and loneliness. There is a deeply impressive plot in the later part of the novel. Tao Tao woke up in the hospital after coma, and listened to the depressive conversation between Yi Yuan and Dr. Chen through the bed curtain. In order not to make Yi Yuan sad, he tried hard to control his emotions and pretend to be sleeping peacefully. Son, I feel very sad every time I see this. How can I restrain myself? When I think about it carefully, I feel so sad. Taotao has suffered too much in the past, and she has to endure too much because of too much suffering. If it were not for these illnesses, she would be such a free and happy, outstanding and lovely girl. Later, there were also the waste of society. Once upon a time, she was an ivory tower eggshell. The innocent, lively, and noisy nature in the book gradually subsided. The article once said that she felt that she was almost a dutiful but boring adult. Life seemed to be as dull as white water, with accumulated rust on the bottom of the bowl. The dust and dust of this world seemed to dim her. There was still a fire burning in her bones. The fire dimmed, but never went out. (Tao Tao has not lived a long life as a walking dead. The tenacity and optimism formed in her youth have long been the foundation of her life. She still ignites her own little flame under the pressure of life. For example, there is a very detailed example. Zhao, a popular relation person who pestered Tao Tao, once mentioned that Tao Qian posted the dishes he cooked in the circle of friends. Side evidence. Ming Taotao has his own little life~ Moreover, when he was fired and packed up, it was mentioned that Taotao won the best employee award at the end of last year. Calculating the time, 4 years in the United States + 1 year as a senior + 1 year at work, Taotao was nominated for the best employee after only one year of work. Taotao has always been a hard-working and outstanding person~) Later, Tao Qian was not lonely in the end, and died prematurely with the regrets in her life. Just like what she feared most when she was young, this life finally came to perfection after a half-circle, and as time passed, her new understanding of life also made the fire of life brighter than when she was a teenager. Thinking about the past, in those days when she was stumbling, noisy, absurd, sad and helpless, there were actually many flowers in bloom, and the scenery along the way was moving and beautiful. And on this road, she also encountered her most unexpected and precious treasure. Youth has never been wasted, and life is not barren. In Jiang Yiyuan's heart, Tao Qian loved him so simply, straightforwardly and passionately from beginning to end. He would never know that her motives were impure. In his heart, Tao Qian loved him from the age of 19 until the end of her life. He occupied one-third of her life. Jiang Yiyuan, from the age of 20, had loved Tao Qian for the rest of his life. I think, maybe it's like the ending of the movie "Titanic", when the old Jiang Yiyuan came to the end of his life, in the depths of time, he once again saw the woman he had loved all his life. She was still so young and lovely, and he also changed back to his young self. She smiled and stretched out her hand to him, and the two held hands together towards the end of time and towards eternity. (I have always felt that the scene painted on the cover of the original volume has this meaning) But selfishly, I still hope that they can have a long and happy life, and the lifelong commitment of love will no longer be separated by the boundary between life and death. They can hold hands forever, and finally walk towards the eternity of the universe together. I want Tao Tao to remain innocent and innocent, I want those who have been helplessly lost to come back to her, and I want her to live a long and happy life. If she could live long enough to have grandchildren, on a sunny afternoon, she would hold them on her knees and tell them the story of her youth, how she went on a rampage to offer the only cabbage in the world, and how the cabbage bloomed around her for a lifetime. Maybe one day, she would also mention the helplessness she felt when looking up at the stars, but she would also tell them that the tide of life is so wonderful and beautiful. Then, much later, on an ordinary afternoon, facing the lover who had been with her all her life, she suddenly felt that she could tell her a little secret that had been as light as dust many years ago. ·Analysis of Jiang Yiyuan's character and love path Nowadays, analysts have to talk about their original family first. Regarding Jiang Yiyuan's original family, they can still talk about it. The article does not give much information, but it can be roughly inferred. The following is a piece of childhood speculation (this section is more divergent). The article clearly states that he grew up in the United States when he was a child. He and Zhou Yawen have been friends since childhood. They probably grew up playing together in the United States. I guess Yiyuan returned to the country when he was in the first grade of elementary school (because Yiyuan was (There is no obvious sense of ABC), Tao Tao said that Yiyuan's name was given by his grandfather, and attached a paragraph of origin: when Jiang Yiyuan was born, his company had just gone public, and the quarterly financial report made a profit of 100 million US dollars, so he named it "Yiyuan", which is homophonic to "100 million yuan". The 100 million U. S. Dollars was probably Tao Tao's joke to Xiao Dan. Tao Tao 100 million dollars was probably born around 1991 (there will be time to deduce this, so I won't go into details here). The net income of 100 million U. S. Dollars in the first quarter of 1990... Well... It can't be the income of domestic listed companies in that era... I feel that his family should The main position was overseas, and then it developed domestically in response to the wave of reform, and then gradually shifted its focus. Later in the novel, when Zhong Qing talked about his life experience, he said that Jiang's mother discovered the flaws in the listing report and threatened to break up his parents. Moreover, his father still lives in the villa on the other side of Zhouxie Road. It can be seen that the main battlefield of his parents' career has always been the country. The two business batches probably seldom flew to see him. Yiyuan was most likely raised by his grandparents. It is said that his name was given by his grandfather. The article also said that his grandmother had some European ancestry, so there is a possibility that the older generation will settle abroad. The love across generations is more close and companionship, and the environment was more lively since childhood. He is open-minded and has the best elite education. He is well-versed in culture and sports. He has close friends who are good at playing. He has good software and hardware. His family has never suppressed him and has always been supportive and positive. Perhaps these have formed the initial foundation of his life. He is sunny, confident, healthy, and has the sense of humor that a living person should have. His generous family background and education gave him sufficient nutrition and initial confidence. His life was bright, broad, confident, and proud. His determination and enterprising spirit made him never have the concept of "not getting", and he had strong self-control over his life. From a young age, he knew that he must do the best in whatever he decides to do. , Go all out, and if you have a goal, you will be determined to complete it. This will gradually develop into a strong determination and stubbornness that will not give up until the goal is achieved. (The possessive and jealous attributes may also be born on this basis, but Yiyuan will not go crazy everywhere, but will only be secretly jealous in his heart. He has well-educated respect and tolerance.) Jiang Yiyuan can be said to have a sound personality and is not crooked at all. He should have liked his childhood very much. After the two had sex in the Ferris Wheel episode, Yiyuan and Tao Tao talked about his childhood, the neighborhood he used to live in, his past friends, and his travel anecdotes... I think the former should be his childhood, and of course the latter two must also contain some childhood memories. The childhood memories in the United States must be very tender memories for Yiyuan, so I want to tell these to my favorite girl. Because my parents rarely accompany me in person, and my grandparents are probably not the doting type who hug, hug, and lift me up, I have developed a relatively reserved and slow-warming personality. I am not the type to openly express my enthusiasm and love, but I also attach great importance to feelings, long for feelings, and know how to repay and give. From this, a tsundere flower with a delicate heart, a soft heart, and a strong emphasis on feelings has gradually grown~ Aojiao Hua Yiyuan is a very sensitive, careful, gentle and delicate person who can take care of others. For example, at Xu Yan's birthday party, he was keenly aware that Tao Tao was deceived, and everything he said was full of duplicity. He helped her wipe it, and handed her water and sugar (the handing of sugar is really delicate); in the afternoon of day 1 in Phuket, he noticed that Tao Tao was holding back her thirst and fresh at night. The market noticed that... The aunt selling crabs kept staring at him, so he used his color in exchange for a discount (awkward, he was so careful and didn't remember Jiang's number); at noon on day 2 in Phuket, Tao Tao sent Xu Yan back. He immediately discovered that Tao Tao was not wearing shoes. After Tao Tao chose shoes, he went to buy wet wipes and band-aids; during the movie scene, Tao Tao mentioned on the phone that he had not eaten. He bought all the different flavors of food he could buy; it was their first time at an amusement park, and Tao Tao called him on the spur of the moment. He didn't have much time to prepare, but he knew all the routes, and he had everything in his backpack, including stomach and digestive tablets; on the Ferris wheel, he covered Tao Tao's eyes looking out, because he thought Tao Tao didn't want to ride the roller coaster because he was afraid of heights; and... A very exciting point, Tao Tao said that his confession in the swimming pool was not formal. He made a serious and gentle confession on the Ferris wheel under the fireworks. He meant every word and responded to everything. Six years later, after the two got together, he could even notice the subtle changes in Tao Tao's voice on the phone. When he saw that she was in a bad mood, he rushed back to China, gave her a skirt and necklace, encouraged her to develop herself, and did not forget to send medicine downstairs when he was busy. Tao Tao lost his best friend, and he He has always been by her side; the house was decorated according to the vision she had written casually; the rabbit Yuan Yuan has been well raised for 8 years; a box of love letters has been well preserved, and he is so familiar that he can tell the contents when he sees the letter; and the proposal, alas... The tears fell again, he remembered it, he wanted to try his best to erase the grievances she had suffered; and the Thai cooking classes she had missed, there were so many, they couldn't be summarized. Ahem, bring it back. Although his parents rarely cared about him personally, they still created a positive family environment for him (on the surface) that did not mess around and supported and affirmed his children (Wen Yan cried (chaotically)), but Yiyuan mentioned that his parents often quarreled. I think this may have been after Xiao Yiyuan returned to China? (For example, Jiang's mother has taken advantage of the opportunity to become independent and no longer wants to hold on to her partner.) As a result, Yiyuan, a young man, often went to the suburban forest park to have fun, and his personality became more introverted and "cold". In his heart, he actually yearned for a harmonious and warm family atmosphere. For example, when he first brought Tao Tao home and Tao Tao cooked for him, Yiyuan was so happy that he should have been bubbling with happiness, and the images in his mind were crazy. When entering married life, a husband who returns home may feel a sense of happiness when he sees his young wife cooking in the kitchen, which fits well with Yiyuan's family-oriented side ("I don't agree that marriage is a fast food culture, and I will not get divorced after getting married!") And it was mentioned in the extra story that Yiyuan's ideal type in the past is actually gentle and virtuous, we Tao Tao! Not only a young, lively and beautiful girl, but also! Being proficient in cooking and massage, how can it not be said to be a kind of "virtuous wife-feeling"! Billion-dollar madman loves to defy! The more I understand, the better I feel about Tao Tao~ He is not a person who likes to be alone. Under the Starry Sky, it is said that when he encountered a shooting star, he wanted to share that moment but there was no one. And there is a strong evidence in the article. Kang Yiyuan University has always lived in dormitories. It can be seen from the novel that the conditions of the dormitory of T University are really not good. In winter mornings, they have to queue up to get hot water. Tao Tao also mentioned that if you want to take a bath in the female dormitory, you have to go to a public bathhouse, and there is no air conditioning. This is probably the case in the male dormitory. And he plays the piano every day and has to go to the piano room. This particular young master He could buy a spacious house near the school, which is convenient and comfortable, but he has always lived in the dormitory. Yiyuan probably likes the atmosphere of their dormitory and has a sense of belonging. (Although the description of Yiyuan's roommates is only briefly mentioned in the article, it can be felt that their daily interactions in the dormitory are quite interesting. Everyone talks very funny, and they all have some cold or hot humor). It is said that although his parents are closely related to each other because of their interests, they are still relatively sincere to him. In the end, they still have sincere feelings for their son. In the second volume, there is a passage where Jiang Yiyuan firmly affirms his family. From beginning to end, he can firmly believe that they love each other but are not close to each other. The family has such an innocent emotional concept, which shows that his parents' superficial skills are basically in place. For example, Yiyuan once mentioned in the article that the three of them can only eat at the same dining table once a month. It was only when they saw it that they were shocked. They can still have one meal together at least once a month in front of their son who is already in college. These two people also They are a little considerate of their son. For more than 20 years, the two of them have been looking for lovers outside, but they have always done so without letting him find out. Well... Why can't it be said to be a form of "protection"... (This is really a little intriguing. You said that Jiang Yiyuan's father was raised crooked by his grandparents. Well, it seems that it is not completely distorted. There is still a sense in the heart of creating a positive family image for his son, which further proves that the nature of his grandma has not been distorted, so it makes sense to bring Xiao Jiang Yihara into such a positive direction (reopening the trumpet must not only pay attention to ability and morality, but also practice it)) Moreover, I feel that Yiyuan has grown up without being suppressed since he was a child. His family has given him full support and affirmation, so he said: "It doesn't matter if others have opinions about my own life." Jiang Yiyuan was able to study architecture. He has been pursuing his dream of architecture for more than ten years as a graduate student in college, and basically did not consider his own industry. This is inseparable from the understanding and support of his parents. Architecture… Back then, architecture was still a popular major with bright prospects (the two people in the article almost went to university in 2008), but I feel that he Generally speaking, families with this kind of situation will study business. Well, of course, there should be some elements of studying architecture that can greatly train people's abilities (learning and doing everything), and having a background related to construction knowledge is also helpful when starting a real estate industry. For example, Hengyuan is a real estate company later (real estate is now...). Anyway, I think he was quite idealistic when he studied architecture. This should be the ideal he really liked when he was a boy, but after working out of school for two years, he went back to inherit the family business (maybe there was a compromise with family responsibilities, or maybe after actually entering the industry, he was also a little tired of the difference between ideals and reality). If he was studying business, he would have started working about three/five years in advance. At the beginning, he had already received an offer from a foreign university, but when he suddenly wanted to stay in T city to study at university, he decided to stay. It is reasonable to speculate that his parents still respect and support him in terms of his ideal. This information was told by Xu Yan at the beginning of the novel. Because Jiang's mother was not in good health and had surgery, Jiang Yiyuan temporarily decided to go to university in China, but in fact Yiyuan has not been close to his mother since he was a child (double certification by Jiang's mother + Jiang Yiyuan). His heart is really about family > career. Moreover, according to the time when foreign universities place offers, Jiang Yiyuan should have received the offer in February or March. In February or March, he suddenly decided to take the college entrance examination route. Yiyuan not only values ​​love, but also has strong qualities. The pure love will be very kind and affectionate to the person who enters his heart, so when he learned that Tao Tao was the one who swam across the lake to deliver medicine to him, he must have been very shocked, and his heart was completely opened. Moreover, this shock must be added to the nth power after the original foundation. Yes, the "contrast" has to be mentioned here. The huge power of ff, I think this is the huge internal driving force that promotes Tao Taoyiyuan's emotional development. After the basketball court episode, there is a section of Tao Qian's opinions on the theory of love success. To some extent, it corresponds to some of their love journeys. It starts with a little curiosity, an unpredictable sense of mystery, and the attraction that arises from it. But the behaviors of Tao Tao and Jiang are completely different. Jiang is a kind of seduction between the sexes. Although there are two acts of fetching water and medicine in the early stage, Yiyuan is a person who can be moved by sincere emotions, but he really doesn't accept those empty heads. Ba Nao is also keenly aware of Jiang's sense of fragmentation where his words and deeds cannot be unified (although I always feel that agreeing to get along with Jiang for three months is a bit of a way for Yiyuan to break his bottom line). As for Tao Tao... Come! With the theme of "contrast and cuteness", let's take a look at the budding relationship between the two of them and see their little hearts beating wildly like a roller coaster: At the beginning of the chapter, I was so annoyed by all the high-profile pursuits↓↓↓↓x1000 The school hospital is red-eyed and has a billion dollars of energy to shake↓↓↓ Entanglement in the piano room↓ On the basketball court, Tao Tao takes the lead in the charge and protects Baicai with strength ↑ (...) Confession through the trumpet↓↓(... As expected, you can't speak human words...) Three major assists surrounded and beat people, Tao Tao stepped forward ↑↑ (Opening one of the heart-beating attributes of 100 million yuan - bravery) The battle situation is urgent, and the untimely but very flirtatious "Come on, hubby" ↑↑↑↑ (This is definitely the beginning of a heartbeat. It can be seen that he really loves this sentence. Originally, the adrenaline was soaring when he spent 100 million yuan in the battle, but then he suddenly said "Come on, hubby". This time it is really exciting. When did you return it!??... But! This kind of unexpected surprise, shock beyond shock, really hit his heart quickly and accurately) Yiyuan protects Tao Tao and the two look at each other ↑↑ (Actually, this section is considered a bit of a suspension bridge effect...) Tao Tao was lying, and Yiyuan responded with an uncharacteristically venomous tongue, even teasing Tao Tao↑↑↑ Ha ha! Yiyuan has a very cute attribute, that is, he can also tease those close to him with a venomous tongue, and he is also very talkative, which is very revealing! This is the obvious manifestation of Yiyuan's heartfelt affection for Tao Tao! (You must know that he used to be very cold and arrogant, focusing on not paying attention and ignoring him). For example, there are two important plots, (Plot 1) After fighting three trouble-making gangsters, Yiyuan was uncharacteristically uncharacteristic. Not only did he retaliate against Tao Tao's pretentious remarks, but he even There was also a little teasing; (Plot 2) On the afternoon of Day 1 in Phuket, after Tao Tao made a wish under the giant Buddha, Yiyuan, who accidentally heard Tao Tao's wish, proudly asked Tao Tao to drink water, and then smacked Tao Tao. There was also a flash of teasing in his words. These two plots are somewhat intrinsically related, and they are both manifestations of Yiyuan's unknowing heartbeat. In these two plots, his state should be (unconsciously) heartbeat → relaxed → (unconsciously) close. One of Jiang Yiyuan's obvious signs when he gets close to people is that he will have a poisonous mouth, make some jokes, and make fun of Tao Tao (?). This is a very boyish and cute point in the character. Later, when the fruit shop saves the siege and hands over the tickets to the piano concert, this cute point is clearly stated. There are many other small plots in the article that can also be connected with this point. Although Yiyuan is a very talkative person, in front of Tao Tao, he still has to accept the defeat. Every time I see the two of them fighting each other, I find it funny. Tao Tao is really good at handling Yiyuan. With three words, Yiyuan will blow up 180,000 hairs, and then with two words, he will be wagging his tail. I will never tire of my trip to Phuket! It's really fun for these two to get along! The days after being together are intimate and interesting every day, right~ (The young lovers who fight against each other have always been Zaoda's dominant area!)] "Where is your home?"↑ What's going on on this road...↓ Downstairs in the small restaurant, the waiter Sister Song gave the two people a mysterious smile, and Yiyuan was stupidly pulled upstairs by Tao Tao↑ (Yiyuan was probably a little nervous + awkward at this time, probably a feeling of being caught alone when going home with the opposite sex (although I never thought about doing anything, but people can make associations~when they make associations, they will radiate various emotions~) This is also the first experience in my life. Speaking of all the "firsts" of Yiyuan, Tao Tao took her away) Tao Tao stares straight at his abdominal muscles↓ Bringing cabbage home, senior masseur Tao Tao shows off his skills ↑↑ (As soon as a master takes action, he will know if there is any, and his body and mind will be happy and relaxed~) Lower back...(Grinding...)↑ Trigger-sensitive~ Counterattack of sensitive points ↑↑↑ (Here is a bit of a reaction... Um... By the way... Yiyuan must have reverie about the small sofa, and I feel that he must have had a similar dream later, a small sofa in the spring evening~) What a pig sweater! ↓ Arnima! ? ↓ Tao Tao's soft handmade sweater↑↑ (It's the first time I wear such stupid clothes... Hum... She knitted it by herself...) Auction of the original jacket ↓↓↓↓ (After the massage scene in the small restaurant, Tao Tao and Zhou Yawen met in the school supermarket. Zhou Yawen said that Tao Tao auctioned a coat worth 100 million yuan, and he knew it immediately. This "first time" is very spiritual ~ It is reasonable to speculate that the deer bumped into each other. Jiang Yiyuan, who had endless aftertaste, returned to the dormitory and immediately opened his mobile phone to search Tao Tao's Weibo. The result... Was discovered by Zhou Yawen on the side) After having a nominal girlfriend, Tao Tao still came to pester ↓↓ (After the incident of delivering medicine in the lake, Yi Yuan brought Jiang to Tao Tao and asked her to stop pestering her. At that time, Tao Tao stared at him, and then Yi Yuan started to have an attack. Here is a sentence: "Maybe my eyes God offended him." I have always been inexplicably concerned about this sentence. At this time, the melee + small restaurant plot has occurred, and the 100-million-yuan favorability bar has been officially opened, with a certain initial favorability attached (then the auction of the coat lowered the favorability). It is already known in the extra story that Yiyuan has a heart-stirring buff to "Come on, hubby" and Tao Tao's gaze. At this time, Yi Yuan, facing her straightforward gaze, probably had a complicated and irritable emotion. Intuitively, he couldn't help but feel a little nervous, but intellectually he knew that Tao Tao was doing this. He should hate the things he particularly hates, and he already has a girlfriend in name, so he shouldn't think about anything else. Could it be that there is a little... Um... Guilty conscience (?), I can't think of a very suitable adjective, this paragraph is too divergent, just for narration). Xu Yan was forcibly kissed at her birthday party and her first kiss was taken away↓↓↓ (Who said he didn't care about others kissing him? He clearly cared about it. Later, he specifically mentioned this to Tao Tao under the Giant Buddha in Phuket) Reacting, Tao Tao was duplicitous and helped him out↑↑↑↑ I saw Tao Tao vomiting over and over in the bathroom, feeling guilty↑↑ Being dismissed randomly by the tough-talking Tao Tao↓ (Here is a note. The book is told from Tao Tao's perspective, but I still wonder if Jiang Yiyuan was invisible behind Tao Qian when she turned around. Suddenly my heart moved and I looked up at the door of the venue, and then I saw the back of the girl leaving alone. My heart was complicated, unbearable, guilty, doubtful, entangled, curious, strange, and irritable... So I subconsciously wanted to follow him out, but in the end, he turned his face.) Entangled at the airport, thinking I was being followed abroad ↓↓↓↓ (After reading the comments on this chapter on various platforms, most of them think that the heroine here is too annoying or even perverted. I want to say that the mentality here is very special and profound. Perversion is like this. She chose this downward freedom amidst pain and irritation. , As a way to relieve and vent, and a little twisted desire for destruction and pleasure will inevitably emerge from it. Sometimes I also think that when Tao Qian was young, he was repelling despair and irritability in extreme and painful situations. But without the coincidence of fate, without the kindness and optimism in the background of his previous life, the young, fragile, confused and painful soul would have been Where will it go, because Tao Tao is a very kind and pure girl, and because of a coincidence of fate, her "choice" did not lead to self-destruction. I always feel that Tao Qian's mood is very profound, and I have repeatedly speculated on the various changes and thoughts in the upper part. One of the important reasons why I love holding hands. Zao Da has always written very well in the first person. Although the first person perspective is limited, it can show the heroine's mood well and deeply. It is really difficult to write the first person well, and it is easy to write the kind of self-pitying narcissism, but Zao Da has always written very well~) [Under the serialization of this chapter, there is a reply from Zao Da. At this time, Yiyuan actually likes Tao Tao, and there is a sentence in this chapter: "Jiang Yiyuan has become more and more angry when he met me recently." I have always cared about this sentence inexplicably. I extracted the keywords: "more and more", "angry", and there is a paragraph about Tao Tao below. Chart of attitude change of Jiao's 100 million yuan: [Three months of pursuit: obvious frown or impatience; half a year: extreme disgust and resistance; one year later: angry mood, but most of the time I have given up on myself, the anger and boredom are still there, more of a numb helplessness and irritability], Huh? Why have you become more and more angry recently? Isn't it that he has given up on himself and become numb? Yiyuan is very sharp and careful. How could he not notice Tao Tao's contradictions? The previous plots of the three gangsters in the war, the plot of the small restaurant, and the rescue plot of the birthday party all made him excited and conflicted. The first two were real heartbeats. I felt more moved during the birthday party episode, but the conflicting feeling was the most intuitive and strongest. , This time he felt the contradiction in Tao Qian very intuitively (although Yiyuan is still very sure that Tao Tao loves him miserably, he himself has never thought about the possibility that Tao Tao doesn't like him, and I think it is very possible that Zhou Yawen also mentioned something in front of him, "I feel like she is deliberately making you hate her"). Phuket day1: I got entangled so early in the morning ↓↓ (actually it was just a chance encounter, Tao Tao retorted and deliberately intensified the conflict) I started a bet and couldn't get rid of it↓ Throw it away~ Also throw away my wallet... The savior Tao Tao fell from the sky↑↑ Tao Tao's ruthless ridicule↓↓ Language master Tao Taoshunmao walked down the steps and started his journey↑ It's so hot, so why don't you go back to the hotel↓ (I think there is a little interesting point here. As mentioned before, Yiyuan will shed the perfect baggage of being cold, reserved and polite in front of people close to him, but in front of Tao Tao, the only alien, he also has no baggage. This period is full of intolerance (but was brutally suppressed by Tao Tao). This is also a different kind of special~) Hearing Tao Tao's wish ↑↑ (The girl who usually chatters quietly and beautifully makes a wish, and he is also included in the wish, and she only wishes him well, not that they are bound, the contrast is so cute and heart-pounding) The two began to argue over the issue of drinking water↑ (Haha, I mentioned this above, so I won't repeat it here) The waves in the distance, the golden light of the setting sun, and the girl dancing, must be in a good mood because she is about to return to the hotel ↑↑ (He must have been very moved and impressed here. The drawing book that was accidentally dropped in the encounter in the laboratory building later had a drawing of Tao Tao at this time. He must have been very longing for it after returning to China, and he just painted on his homework...) Bridal Room Theory ↓ (On the charm of contrast, to a certain extent, this passage does take care of these two people) The rabbit was thrown away (finally a game was won) ↑ (These two are really like elementary school chickens fighting each other, Yuan Yuan is actually well-raised~) Return to hotel: It's over... Lost contact... It's a waste of money...↓ The phoenix that landed on the ground was not as good as a chicken, and was laughed at by Tao Tao and Zheng Yanlin↓↓ (Laughing Mouse, Zheng Yanlin is also very funny) Language master Tao Tao walked up the stairs and started walking together~↑ Zheng Yanlin was disgusted by the fishy seafood from freshmarket↓ Tao Tao took advantage of her again and asked for 100 million yuan to buy crabs for Tao Tao↑ During the photo session of the transvestite show, we saw Tao Tao's kind and soft side ↑↑↑↑ ("Kindness" is what particularly touches Yiyuan in Tao Tao's character. Before the truth was revealed in the early stage, Yiyuan was already moved by her kindness and bravery) Tao Tao's straight confession (unknowingly pursuing victory ~ During this period, the two people's feelings for each other are quietly changing, and their hearts are moving unconsciously. Although Tao Tao is talking about running around and playing with 100 million yuan, her state is very relaxed, happy and comfortable. In the past, when she faced 100 million yuan's nonsense, she always had a kind of self-detachment, and 100 million yuan from When faced with Tao Tao's nonsense before, I was speechless and irritable. The last time I said, "I can't think when I see you" was at Xu Yan's birthday party. The two faced each other in the bathroom. At that time, they still had goosebumps. Now they are both overjoyed and can't hide their joy. If they stay for one second longer, they will reveal the fact that they are happy and excited~ "In a quick glance, I saw the corner of his mouth slightly raised. It was fleeting, and I suspected it was an illusion." Kswl! I really like this sentence! Zao Da is so good at writing this kind of happy and cute little ambiguity) ↑↑↑ By accident, I noticed Tao Tao's beautiful chest line ↑↑ (Studying architecture, regarding lines... Is this a kind of enlightenment that creates reverie about the difference between men and women? By the way, I have always felt that Yiyuan has had many reveries about this. I must have had a lot of dreams about Tao Tao in the past six years, right? Dreams will deteriorate when they are done, right?) When he returned to the hotel, his bad friends never came back to look for him. The hotel was full and he was forced to share a room↓↓ Under the tide of the moon, the girl's voice↑↑↑ (The girl's kind voice, quiet and sad face, compared with usual, the contrast is cute again and my heart is up) The truth about Crab, he became angry from shame ↓ (The rat is really laughing here, Tao Tao can control hundreds of millions of yuan up and down in just a few words) Got seen! ! Beast! Did you have a plan in advance? ! ↓↓ (The first kiss is gone, innocence is lost [sad]) Leopard print? Size M! ? ↓↓ Spend the night together, everything is safe↑↑ (Sleep for a night of friendship...) Phuket day2: "Give me the phone." He handed over the phone without hesitation ↑ (There is a sentence in the original text: He glanced at me. Hmm~~ I feel that Yiyuan here is thinking of last night's sentence again, "Because you asked me for money, I didn't think about it. Isn't there a saying, 'Falling in love with you, forgetting myself', that is, I can't remember to think about it as soon as I see your face.") Why didn't you secretly take photos of me and take photos with other men? ? ↓(I am obviously jealous here, which means...) Tao Tao's attention was distracted by the photo↓ (slumped face) Tao Tao's eyes came back and she praised him for being handsome ↑↑ (Tao Qian loves me so much~) Spending time together on the beach, consciously videotaping Taotao paragliding↑ The collar is scattered, the disciplinary committee is online ↑↑ (dream material +1) The roommate's nonsense set off a billion-dollar alarm ↓↑ (Tao Tao is actually very good-looking, and was mentioned 7 times in the article by others (Zhou Yawen, Sanhuanhuan, Ren Shucheng, Zhao from a popular relationship household, colleagues, training receptions, and marriage proposals), and she is in good shape~) "Let's eat together, and let me thank you." ↑ (Yiyuan is so smart, he should have come to his senses a long time ago. In fact, Tao Tao has been turning corners for him in the past two days, taking care of his face) She... She gave the shoes to Xu Yan... (Shocked, distressed, and heartbroken) ↑↑↑ (I really have to say something here. At that time, Yi Yuan and Zhou Yawen both liked Tao Tao, but Yi Yuan was the first to realize something was wrong. Yi Yuan, you really are, the male protagonist is sitting tight) Princess Hug~↑↑↑ (Sincerity and kindness are really the attributes that can impress hundreds of millions of people) How can you still watch with enthusiasm when you are being teased for a drink at dinner? ↓ After dinner: What love... Love... Tao Qian... (Blushing) took the initiative to mention the bonfire party, "I will go." (Come to me!~ Here Tao Tao mentioned the word "love", Jiang Yiyuan's ears suddenly turned red, and the psychological activity was probably: love... Love... Tao Qian... Then he took the initiative to mention the bonfire party, so this is considered a proactive attack wrapped in a tsundere coat) ↑↑↑ Look~ you really came to see me~↑↑ A bolt from the blue! The clown is myself! Am I part of your play? ! ↓↓↓ (Yiyuan has subconsciously thought that he has been captured. Here is a translation for Jiang Yiyuan: You have played with my feelings. I have been captured by you and collected by your "stamp collection". How can you be with my friends? How can you!? Are you worthy of me? Stay away from him quickly) Fighting with Zhou Moumou↑ Post a detailed road map on Weibo, come to me, come and explain to me↑↑ Why don't you chase me anymore…↓ Buy the Buddha amulets you didn't buy and send them to you↑ We've all gone back to school, why haven't you come to see me...↓ (All the seduction messages sent have fallen into disarray) As fate would have it, I met Tao Qian by chance in the laboratory building, and I was so happy~↑↑ Accidentally dropped picture book ↑↑ (Accidentally dropped young man's thoughts ~ Extract the key points in this description: a few strokes and a hasty background. This is obviously because I got distracted while I was drawing the homework, thinking of the girl I like, and then the pen moved with my heart. When I realized it, my face turned red, my mind was wandering, I was embarrassed to continue drawing, but I couldn't look away, and then I couldn't help but add some more background) Tao Qian said she wouldn't pursue him anymore…↓ Tao Qian is not with that man↑↑ One must have endurance to do something (you will have to chase me again~)↑↑↑ ... Where are the people...↓ Swimming pool incident, the truth comes out ↑↑↑↑↑x10086^1008611 (completely fallen) I am deeply aware that when I think of reading articles, whether it is popular literature or serious literature, contrast is always the most appealing way of writing. Similarly for Jiang Yiyuan, reversing and reversing, contrasting and contrasting, it is really difficult not to be moved after this roller coaster. The impact is really great. Yiyuan is arrogant in Tao Tao's eyes, and Tao Tao should be very arrogant in Yiyuan's eyes~ (Thinking of the scene where the two confront each other in front of the rabbit, there is a cute feeling that they regard each other as rabbits) In fact, their story is a bit like the Disney version of The Little Mermaid. Before the prince knew that it was the Little Mermaid who saved him, he fell in love with her, chose her, and finally learned the truth. Yiyuan fell in love with Tao Tao before he knew that the person who delivered the medicine was Tao Tao. In fact, even if Tao Tao had not swam across the lake to deliver medicine to him, Yiyuan would still like her and her kindness, liveliness and courage. They were attracted to each other. But it was precisely because of her self-destruction that Yiyuan would not forget her for six years. Jiang Yiyuan's heart also yearns for pure and sincere feelings that are so sure that they seem to last forever. When he really puts her in his heart, how can such enthusiasm and determination not be said to be a sense of security of being firmly loved~ (From Yiyuan's perspective, she is really very determined and confident that Tao Tao loves him so much that she loves him miserably and loves him to death. He never thought that she might not like him) The young man's life was like a shallow stream. From the moment he knew that she swam across the lake to deliver medicine to him, their fates were completely connected from attraction to each other. He was deeply attracted by the risklessness and bravery that could abandon everything, and was fascinated by it. This was a deep bond that he had never seen or felt before. Six years later, he finally saw clearly that such actions came from a girl whose life was hanging by a thread. However, the person he had loved since he was young, her life was already approaching twilight. A few nights before Tao Tao died, Yiyuan told her fairy tales to coax her to sleep. Could the story he told include the Little Mermaid? Let's continue talking about cabbage, some of which were not included above~ Since he was a child, he had superior material conditions and had top-notch software and hardware. Therefore, the cabbage boy has a narcissistic and noble temperament. However, although he is handsome and self-aware, he will not do any human fireworks like tightening his jawline and frowning at all times. The reflected result is that he only cares about his image and will not bully other people's eyes with his posture. The excellence of software and hardware has also caused the consequences of being noticed since childhood, and this public attention has boosted his own morale, but it has also brought some negative pressure. In the Ferris Wheel episode, Yiyuan revealed some of his feelings. He originally did not like to be paid attention to all the time, and felt that this brought pressure, because his actions would have a certain baggage because he had to be worthy of the attention. This also contributed to the loneliness and introversion in his personality, making him look more "cold" in appearance. (Hey, here I suddenly thought of what Zhou Yawen once said. There have been many men and women chasing Jiang Yiyuan since he was a child, and they have brought him a lot of trouble. If you think about it from another angle, could this be one of the reasons why Yiyuan was not interested in love at all in the past? For example, he was a little resistant to being annoyed. I think there is a little bit.) The thriving Baicai is also kind-hearted and has a sense of justice. He is a righteous boy who will see injustice on the street if he sees a criminal following a girl when he goes home at night. He will also take the initiative to help Jiang when he is entangled, and will protect Tao Tao and passively be beaten (it is obvious that he is a mysophobic and does not like to sweat)... .. And he is very proud and energetic, preferring to bend rather than bend. When faced with the provocation of the three gangsters (these three appeared again), he responded bluntly. He really didn't take it seriously at all. He fought against three without fear. This really has to be weighed in real life. If Tao Tao hadn't jumped out, hundreds of millions of yuan might have been in danger. (This also shows that he is very well-trained, has strong physical fitness, and has a strong sense of power) I have talked about the causes of the tsundere attribute above, and I briefly summarized his tsundere mentality six years later, and I will post it here: When they met again six years later, Yiyuan quickly determined his feelings. Six years later, he still liked her very much, but he just couldn't swallow it, so he kept becoming a tsundere. Yiyuan just wanted to hear her tell her why, and then HE. But when the great earthquake in Kyoto happened, he finally realized very deeply that he could not lose her, and could not lose her again, so he secretly sat beside Tao Tao's bed at night, touching her face carefully and cherishingly. What was going on in his mind at that time was probably, forget it, just six years, I can bear it, I admit it, you will be mine from now on. But after returning to China, he still refused to give up and went to Zheng Yanlin to finally trick him. Of course, he didn't pull it out yet. Tao Tao never figured it out, so he had to take the initiative. He is arrogant but he will not lose his fate, so I think he planned to make it clear to Tao Tao at the birthday party and then announce it in public (?). As a result, Tao Tao actually went on a blind date downstairs that day... Yiyuan was so stimulated that he confessed and swore his love directly in public. (Hey... I feel a little ashamed when I look back at this paragraph when I grow up...) I have to say here that I really didn't notice it when I read the article. After calculating the timeline, I found that Jiang Yiyuan was too fast. He almost captured Tao Tao one month after the reunion. Yiyuan, you are really... (I originally thought this guy was too cold and awkward in the early stage, but when I looked at the time... Um... He felt like he was only handsome for three seconds...) As mentioned above, Yiyuan couldn't swallow it at the beginning, but later, he really didn't ask at all, swallowed the bitter pill, and never mentioned it again... Later, Tao Tao broke up with fierce words on the phone, and he was just helpless and tired: "I don't believe it." He also felt that he didn't accompany his girlfriend well... When he was at a low point in his life, he was dumped with a giant cuckold, and he went to investigate the third party. What he wanted in his heart was that he hoped that the other party was a good person who could be relied on... The "fact" of getting the stolen goods is right in front of him, and what he wants is for you to come back: "As long as you say no, I will believe it"... Later, the short seller was released... Released... Because he wanted her to have a good life... He... He loves her so much... (To be honest, if it weren't for the heroine's physical condition, this would be a very refreshing point that satisfies the bad taste) It can be seen that his personality is completely sunny and healthy from the inside out, but if it is distorted, it will be somewhat darkened. (Hehehehe, although it is ooc... If there is a dark forced love story here of "Marry me, I will let that man go, otherwise I will send him to prison", it feels quite touching (just for a narration, just for a narration haha)) In fact, Yiyuan's six years of emotional blankness are due to some practical factors. Those 6 years of Yiyuan = 2 years of undergraduate + 2 years of graduate school + 2 years in an architectural office. The intensity of study/work in the architectural major can be imagined (and he has been quite successful in SOM for only two years, and he doesn't know how many hours he sleeps a day). At the dinner after the reunion, Yiyuan once said, "At first I thought something had happened to her, but then I thought she was dead." The first sentence must be sincere, and the second sentence... Although it may be a bit of a little bit of cruelty, but... I think it is probably some of his true thoughts back then. It takes 5 years to study architecture, and they were in their junior year when they were first enrolled. In their fifth year, they had not seen the 100 million yuan that Tao Tao returned to school. They must have been really panicked at that time, and had the following idea (during the trip to Japan, Xu Yan also mentioned that she thought Tao Qian was dead, although this may be a harsh statement, but everyone may have thought so at the time...), And in the next two years, the 100 million yuan should also be inquired by classmates who are studying at the same school, and she has also returned to China to look for it. But there was no news. (In the past six years, he had seen a psychiatrist, and there was more than one. He was quite knowledgeable about health, which also showed that he really thought about it day and night, and was suffering internally). In the fifth year, he gave up. At this time, he had graduated from graduate school and entered the society, working hard in the construction industry. But if he could persist for one more year, he would be able to find the name he had been thinking about for many years in the list of senior students in the advertising department. Let's talk about a few more memorable plots. (I'll just briefly talk about a few things that popped into my mind first, and the number of words in detail would exceed the limit) I really like the scene of running in the rain in the previous volume. This is the first time two people hold hands (Jiang Yiyuan takes the initiative). The description is very youthful in the rainy season. The rain curtain blurs a bit of sight and also blurs some worries. In addition to the rain dripping on the body, it is the other person's clenched hand. The soundtrack of the audiobook version is good, and the sound effect of rain is added, which gives it a light and hazy feeling. Rainy days always bring out all the senses of a person, especially when one is in the rain, vision, touch, hearing and even smell are all fully awakened. This is probably one of the reasons why I have a deep impression on this part. And the night before farewell, the two of them took the bus back to school. Jiang Yiyin frowned slightly because of the sweltering heat in the carriage, but when Tao Tao looked at him, he immediately smiled. I have always been deeply impressed by this scene. It has a strong visual sense. It is difficult to express thousands of words. It is clean, beautiful, and heartbreaking. The whole chapter on the night before farewell is particularly well written. I have a strong obsession with this section, it is obviously a big foreshadowing! If time passes, they will definitely fulfill their promise under the stars and go to Queenstown to watch the stars for a night. There is a particularly heart-warming plot in the second volume, where Yiyuan takes Tao Tao fishing. I like the fishing plot very much. It is said that fishing is a new hobby that can enrich the character. In fact, the young Yiyuan doesn't like loneliness in his heart, but later he slowly began to enjoy the peace of being alone. He could fish quietly for several hours at a time, feeling relaxed and calm, but at this time, he still retained some youthfulness in his heart. "If you look at me like that, I'll be distracted." "Huh?" I stared at Jiang Yiyuan, "What?" "Look, you're looking at me like that again." Jiang Yiyuan turned his head and said, "Fishing is all about a peaceful mind. It needs to be calm enough. If you stare at me like that, I won't be able to calm down." There is a bit of teasing here, but it is indeed true. Yiyuan was very moved by being stared at by Tao Tao, or staring straight at him. This was probably engraved in his soul from the moment of "Come on, hubby". The innocent and straightforward eyes, the wholehearted gaze, a pair of eyes that penetrated deep into his heart since he was young. Then let's talk about a few small details that make people remember a lot~ Let's talk about two small details first. Arranging Tao Tao to major in advertising is a bit of a publicity, which is very consistent with the point of pursuing the plot; the NPC Mo Tao who promotes the development of the plot. I saw Zao Da's message on the public account. It is said that the name of a junior high school alumnus was randomly recruited. But if you think about it carefully, Mo Tao, Mo Talk, is a reverse flag, haha, which is very suitable for his role. In the sports meeting after the truth was revealed in the first volume, Tao Taoyiyuan formed a team by chance, and Jiang Yiyuan, who was very confident, said: "I just said you won't give up easily." Hey~ This sentence is very thought-provoking~ "Say", who are you talking to? And what did the other party say that made him respond like this? It should be Zhou Yawen. He has clearly expressed his affection for Tao Qian before, and the two of them also had a fight in Phuket. It is reasonable to speculate that Jiang Yiyuan is in love and is convinced that Tao Qian loves him to death. He can't help but have a romantic idea in front of Zhou Yawen, with a little dazzle. Yao Di declared his sovereignty, but Zhou Yawen said something sour, which should be similar to "She hasn't come to you in this period of time, and she won't chase you anymore." Jiang Yiyuan's smile was frozen, but he was very sure in his heart that Tao Qian loved him to death, so he held his neck and said, "She will definitely not give up easily." Six years later, there was an episode where Tao Tao was sent home on the way. Tao Tao, who had worked overtime until after 11 o'clock, met the equally diligent boss Yi Yuan in the elevator. The arrogant Yi Yuan turned a corner and wanted to send Tao Tao home, and said: "It's already 11:34, there is no car." Wait a minute! How do you know there is no car? With so many things to do, do you still pay attention to the bus timetable? It seems that Tao Tao's specific commute has been figured out for a long time. Jiang Yiyuan, you know so much. One more thing, in the second volume, I saw several expressions such as "this woman", "her man", and "my woman" in the lines of Yiyuan (which is really a little shameful). Did he go to Ba Zong Literature to study for a period of time, just because Tao Tao once said a few words indiscriminately. And I think that after the movie theater + taking Tao Tao home scene, after sending Tao Tao back to the dormitory that night, Yiyuan probably read the original novel of "Love You Like Me" overnight and studied some boss literature, and then did such... Behavior in the swimming pool confession scene two days later. ("Then how can a confession be considered official? Do you want me to push you into a corner and say, 'Woman, you have successfully aroused my interest'? Or something silly like 'You saw my butt, you have to be responsible for me'?" (...)) Having said so much, let me talk about one last thing. I think the most touching thing about Jiang Yiyuan's character is his determination. He is very determined from beginning to end, both to himself and to Tao Qian. He walked towards her resolutely and hugged her from beginning to end. When he was in college, he took the initiative after understanding his feelings. When they reunited six years later, he took action decisively after being awkward for a while. In fact, Tao Tao had always been lonely in the deepest part of his heart. He wanted to be remembered, but he was afraid of entering anyone's life. In the end, he finally made her no longer lonely. If he knew from the beginning that the love of his life was destined to die soon, would he still choose to be with her? The bond with her becomes deeper and deeper until their lives are intertwined and fused together. After just a few years of being together, is it worth it to yearn for her and be heartbroken for her all your life? "I love you, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me in this life." This was Jiang Yiyuan's answer. I've been heartbroken and in pain before deciding on my destiny, but I've never regretted it. The love of my life is so sweet. ·Small branch of Qianxue research ·A brief talk about Xiaodan Linmu As mentioned at the beginning of the article, Lin Mu also went to T University and was in medical school. At this time, he was studying for graduate school and training at the same time. Lin Mu and Xiao Dan were classmates in high school. By the initial time of the first volume of the novel, the two had known each other for at least seven years. Seven years... Seven years! These two are so awesome! Alas! ! As mentioned in the article, Xiao Dan was actually admitted to T University, but due to physical reasons, he could only be trapped in the hospital. Lin Mu, who originally planned to study mathematics or computers, decided to study medicine, and has been keeping Xiao Dan in his care since then. However, over the years, the two have never made their relationship clear. Lin Mu has always been with her silently, taking care of her, and asking for nothing. Lin Mu, you really love the God of War. (Guess here, did the two of them have an agreement to go to the same university in the future? Their vague feelings are hidden in the agreement of "they will both go to T University in the future". In the end, they both did get admitted, but you can't come...) (What is written below becomes Lin Mu's perspective) The cycle of life and death in the hospital went back and forth. From a boy to a young man, he faced the cruelty of life and death. He had seen too many farewells and dreamed back at midnight, always afraid that God would not even retain the qualification to accompany him. Later, when she had a heart transplant surgery, he ran around for her. Years of hard work for her seemed to have finally paid off at this time. Studying medicine was hard, but he never regretted it. It was the best thing to do his best for the girl he had liked since he was young, even if his efforts could only bring me a small benefit. Although she is worried every day, she must always remain relaxed and stable in front of her, swallow the pain by herself, and let the sunshine shine on her. The world has given her too much torture and misfortune. Later, the operation was successful, and she was finally willing to accept herself. In fact, he had always been very clear that he had never been single-minded for so many years. After graduation, he could have stayed in a local top-level hospital. The director who took him there patted him on the shoulder and said that as long as he worked hard, he would have a bright future. He smiled and ultimately declined the opportunity. A touch of regret flashed through his heart, but so what, he had fulfilled his dream. The winter wind in T city was too cold, and the environment in Hainan was more pleasant. Moreover, the private hospital was more relaxed and he could spend more time with her. Those were the happiest six years. Every day when I came home, I would have hot meals and sweet kisses from my wife. They did a lot of things together and had many happy memories. It seemed that I could never say good morning and good night. God finally took back his angel, but he never regretted his decision thirteen years ago. He will always be grateful for his companionship and happiness for so many years. ·Thinking of the blue cover of the physical book of Guan Lian Ling Hands Cover description: Light blue color, a world of water and sky, an old wooden bridge extending into the distance, two young figures on the bridge (I think what is painted here is the wooden bridge leading to the island in the middle of the lake) The following are some insights into reading comprehension in middle schools: 1. This is the bridge connecting Jiang Yiyuan's life (Tao Qian delivers medicine to Jiang Yiyuan) 2. This is the bridge connecting the love between Jiang Yiyuan and Tao Qian (in fact, even if Tao Qian did not deliver medicine to Jiang Yiyuan, Jiang Yiyuan would still be moved by her. They were already attracted to each other, but it was precisely because of this courage that he risked his own life that he was deeply shocked and remembered for six years) 3. This is the end of life, the bridge to another eternal world, just like the classic ending of "Titanic". When the old Jiang Yiyuan came to the end of his life, he once again saw the woman he had loved all his life. She was still so young and lovely, and he also changed back to his youthful appearance. They walked towards each other with a smile, and then held hands, walking to the end of the universe. ·Tao Taoyuan's birth date and Tao Tao's death date speculation The initial time period of the novel should be March 20, 2011. The 3.20 Time point is clearly stated in Tao Tao's Weibo post after the cafe scene; it is speculated that it is 11 years, and there are probably the following examples: Tao Tao sent a WeChat to Xiaodan, and the time here can be determined to be after 11 years. WeChat was launched in January 2011. Tao Tao and Zhong Qing used to send emails every day (but there will definitely be Q-Q communication) ), so I think they don't have WeChat, because they broke off their relationship before WeChat was born, and WeChat has been popular for 13 years, but Tao Tao and Xiao Dan are relatively trendy, like Xiaodan is trapped in the ward, the Internet must be easy to play, and he will get involved in any emerging software, and Tao Tao Yiyuan still sent text messages on the eve and after the relationship, so it can be speculated that WeChat was probably not popular at this time? Campus BBS became popular, probably 12 years ago? I found a research report. In January 2012, the usage rate of BBS netizens was still 28.2%. However, due to the emerging activity of Weibo, it has been declining rapidly year by year. Some universities have also closed down the pages with low popularity. The article also shows the activity of Weibo, so I think the time here can be divided into 12 years ago (a very rough inference, just for narration) They were in their third year of college at this time, so if we push forward a bit, they should have gone to college around 2009, and their birth year would have been around 1991. (Both the Shanghai Stock Exchange and the Shenzhen Stock Exchange were established in the 1990s, which is also consistent with the historical record that his company was just listed when it was born with 100 million yuan. It seems that his family is really closely following the trend of the times) Yiyuan's birthday is probably in mid-July. I had previously calculated that Tao Tao would leave in late June. Yiyuan said he had a birthday next month and wanted to spend it with Tao Tao. His birthday is in July. Well... I checked the horoscope and found that Cancer's personality is quite similar to his, so let's put his birthday between 7.1~7.22~ Of course, it could also be between 7.23~7.31. I guess Tao Tao's birthday is between January and March 20. First of all, in the timeline of the first volume of the campus chapter (from March 20 to the end of June), Tao Qian's birthday is never mentioned. It can be seen that her birthday is not within this time period. When they met again six years later, after the dinner, Tao Tao was sent home with 100 million yuan and borrowed 100 million yuan. We can get an accurate "six years and four days" (you kid really counts the days...), And the months match up almost seamlessly. Then fast forward to the second day when the truth comes out and the car is intercepted. Yiyuan takes Tao Tao to the hospital. On the way back, Tao Tao mentions thinking about his birthday. There is a saying from time to time: "Don't you have to wait until next year for your birthday?", And Tao Tao is worried that he will not be able to survive by then. I think the time when he said this was early November (the specific time will not be discussed in detail, it is cruel to go into detail), and if it is in January, it will be from this time There are still more than two months left. I think Tao Tao still thinks that she can survive until that time. Of course, it's not necessarily true. At this time, she is very panicked and uncomfortable. She doesn't know whether she will be able to open her eyes tomorrow. Based on the above, I think it may be February-3.20, Or January is also possible. Finally, let's talk about the last time Tao Tao died. She died at the age of 29. If she could hold on for another two or three months, she would be able to celebrate her 30th birthday. Two time arguments can be extracted from the extra chapter: 1. Qianqian was less than one year old; 2. Christmas was a few days after his death. From this, the date at this moment is probably around December 20th. He was less than one year old and started to talk and walk, which was about 10 to 11 months. Including the tenth month of pregnancy, it can be pushed forward to April of the previous year, and the end of June of the previous year was the day when the two reunited. Excluding the awkward month of Yiyuan and the month or two when Tao Tao escaped, plus the month when the two of them were together in college, let's calculate according to the timetable of Yiyuan. From the day he took her home, it was two months and eight days, plus the two months and eight days in college, the time they spent together in this life was only about two and a half years (including the time when Tao Tao was seriously ill and comatose...) Two and a half years is too short, and a life is too long. ·Music and flowers suitable for holding hands ·Some music suitable for holding hands There are four songs, which I think can correspond to the four stages of the girl Tao Qian. 1. Desperate and extreme "The Kill"-Brooklyn Duo The original song is quite heavy metal, this is an adapted pure music, an ensemble of cello and piano. 2. Loneliness, struggle and search "3055"-? Lafur Arnalds 3. Confused and powerless "The Maiden's Prayer, Op. 4" - Lang Lang I like Lang Lang's version the best. Based on this, I adjusted it to 0.8X speed, which gives it a more confused and sad feeling. The girl's prayer, what is her prayer? 4. Unexpected first love, fragile and cherished beauty, silence, and the falling tide of life "Just Like A Robin" - Akira Kozemura There is also a piano song - "Waltzing leaves", which has appeared three times in the audio novel Holding Hands. I think the melody is a portrayal of Tao Qian and Jiang Yiyuan's life. Many of the feelings about Holding Hands were written in this piece of music. Life is like a leaf, whirling and waltzing to its home place. Later I watched a movie "The Fault in Our Stars", the theme is the same as holding hands, love and life, remembering, eternity in a limited time. There is an interlude "Wait" in which there is a lyric "No time" that is repeated over and over again, mixed with the wails blended into the music, the struggle and helplessness of the destined fate, the loneliness of looking up at the stars, and the girl Tao Qian also wails in despair at the abyss pressing above her head. The labyrinth of the heart is tormented by fire, but the constant collapse of the bottom line of the self cannot bring about true desire and peace, only a moment of paralysis and escape. I kept seeing comments saying that Tao Qian was being unfaithful to herself, being selfish and perverted, and not having any self-respect, but she was just a girl with excessive fear. It is also the ending song of this movie "All of the stars". When I heard this song, a picture suddenly popped into my mind: Under the golden light of the setting sun, a gust of wind blew by, and Tao Qian's long hair flew up in the wind. Jiang Yiyuan held up the camera to take pictures of her. It was obviously the same pose, but he took many pictures in succession. Tao Qian flipped through the gallery and asked in a funny way: "Why did you take so many pictures of the same pose?" Jiang Yiyuan looked down at her, his expression gentle, with indescribable cherishment and pity: "Because I love you so much." As he spoke, his voice became softer. Because I love you so much. Tao Qian was startled and raised her head to meet his eyes. (Tears, the above clip happened in their last days.) In a limited time, they gave each other eternity. ·The compatibility between lily of the valley and Taotao Yiyuan I feel that lily of the valley is really the most suitable flower for Tao Tao Yiyuan. It represents the flower language of "happy return" and is a symbol of purity and beauty. The shape of the flower is light and lovely, pure and slender, as if the word "first love" is embodied, and it can well represent Tao Tao and Yiyuan. The relationship between Tao Tao and Yi Yuan is very pure. There are no psychological tactics or scheming. They are not mixed with any secular dust. They just love each other for the nature revealed naturally. They are sincere, pure and perfect. They have been the first love of their lives since they were young. When I see the lily of the valley, I think of them. This is the fourth year that I have fallen in love with Tao Tao Yi Yuan, and it is also the third year that I have planted lilies of the valley.

A lively and happy girl when she was young, she remained optimistic and worked hard in the face of poverty and difficulty. However, when she faced the cruel and premature death at the age of 19, she was extreme and desperate, but she also developed a special, beautiful and short-lived first love, which also led to a lifelong bond. The heartbreaking departure and four years of lonely illness in a foreign country seemed to be like a plain life. Later, the tide fell, lovers met and fell in love again, escaped and left, and finally the perfection of life. This is Tao Qian's life.

Tao Qian was not alone, and died prematurely with some regrets in her life. Just like what she feared most when she was young, the waves of fate were frustrated and the starlight was dimmed silently. But later, time still brought back to her what life had taken away. From the self-entrapment when she was young until she walked out of the maze of her heart and saw the dawn of herself and the perfection of life, this was her life, a short but fulfilling life. The reason why I love "Holding Hands for Forever" so much is because of the word perfection, and the perfection of life will always make people cry.

In fact, three-quarters of the full text is about self-confidence, from one square inch to another, and finally I see the dawn of myself and the gift of life at the end of the maze of my heart. "Life is a cycle, just like the tide. What the past life has taken away, time will eventually give you a perfection. After all, there will be waves to send back to you what you deserve." The most touching sentence in the whole text is written so well by Hong Zao.

I cried so hard, why did I come in to watch this extra episode? No matter, extra episode 1 is the real ending.

I watch it again every once in a while, and I cry to death. When Tao Qian said the words "I'm going to die, and my existence is going to be wiped out by the world," my tears couldn't stop flowing.

The second time I read it, I was still excited and moved. I burst into tears but I was also extremely moved! This book is probably the one that shocked me the most among all the books I have read by Hong Zao, because it really touched me and made me reflect on whether I should learn from the heroine to live her limited life more meaningfully, instead of wasting her time every day like she is now! He is indeed a healing writer.

2025, Almost 10 years ago

Thirty-three years later In the afternoon, the courtyard was shrouded in bright sunlight, and the green leaves were shining brightly. Roses of various colors were blooming in the courtyard. Fifty-nine-year-old Tao Qian was sitting in a rocking chair, with her little granddaughter who had just turned six sitting on her lap. Her sixtieth birthday would be in a few days, and she didn't know what surprise Jiang Yiyuan would give her, she thought with a smile. Time has left traces on her face, and there are a few thin crow's feet at the corners of her eyes, probably the result of smiling all these years. She looked to be in her early forties, her skin was not as firm as before, but it was still smooth and white, and her long hair was still thick and shiny. Jiang Yiyuan had cared for her like a treasure all these years, and she still had a young heart. The little granddaughter on her knees clamored for a story. She smiled and held her in her arms. The rocking chair swayed slowly and she began to tell her a story about her youth. A story about a rampant girl who picked up the best cabbage and let the cabbage bloom around her for a lifetime. The inspiration comes from Tao Qian's thoughts in the original work: "If I could live long enough to have grandchildren, I would love to hold them on my knees on a sunny afternoon and tell them stories about my youth." The relationship between Tao Qian and Jiang Yiyuan is very pure and pure. There is no psychological tactics or scheming. They are completely honest and in love with each other. After confirming his heart, he walked towards her without any hesitation, walked towards her firmly and hugged her from beginning to end. They fell in love not because of anything external, but because they fell in love with each other's heart. She didn't like him because of his external halo, and she really fell in love with him after touching his truth; he was deeply attracted by her true sincerity and kindness and her courage that was so passionate that people couldn't ignore it, and fell in love with her. Their love has nothing to do with anything external, it is purely about falling in love with each other's true self.

I really like this novel very much