One-Sided Love

As a child, he wanted to survive, so he tasted every kind of deadly poison and stood out from the crowd, earning the right to live. As an adult, he chased after the other life he treasured, but could only watch it disappear into the distance. At last, he got his wish and died in his arms, leaving the world behind. Only after death, when he reached the gates of the underworld, did he learn that he was a little deity from the heavens. Siming Xingjun told him that Qingti Dijun was still in the mortal realm, not yet done having fun. It wouldn't be right to leave the Emperor there alone, unhappy. Now they would alter his fate and send him back to keep the Emperor company and play with him some more. He could also spend some long-delayed family time with the poor son he had personally given birth to. Everyone would be happy. But he said, "Wait. Qingti Dijun was just having fun in the mortal world, but I fell in love for real." First, he wanted to look into the Reincarnation Mirror and see whether, during those hurried years, the Qingti Dijun who said he was only playing had been one-sidedly in love with him from beginning to end, just as he had experienced, or whether the Emperor had ever truly loved him without his knowing. If it was the former, there would be no point in going back. PS: Scum gong, angst for the shou, happy ending, with a touch of fantasy. If you don't like it, please don't flame. If you do, be civil. O(∩_∩)O Thanks!