The Plane Flew Away

Gray leaves are floating in the pond, watching the plane roar to the distant land, the long corridor of time, footsteps shouting, the lights turn on, and it is empty without anyone. Suddenly I realized that there was no review for this book. I thought about it while listening to the song today. If Shu Yuan was a word, that would be my description of Shu Yuan's story.

Li must have secretly liked Shu Yuan in his heart.

Li Peilin, are you okay? Among all the characters, the one who impressed me the most was Li Peilin. How come that boy who once said, "There is no ball game in the world that I can't play", that punk fan who roared Zheng Jun's "Elopement" in KTV, that chaser who dreamed of "wandering far away, wandering around the world with the girl he likes", became the "sister" who set up a fortune-telling stall in front of the Empress Temple ten years later? After their reunion ten years later, Chun Yu wrote about the way he smoked, "You chewed on the cigarette and squinted your eyes to look at me." Although it was just this sentence, an image whose edges had been polished off by life stood before his eyes. But he was still smiling, still "free and open", but this smile was even more uncomfortable than crying. I have been thinking, why did he set up a stall in front of the temple? Just because people come and go here, can he continue to act as a bystander, watching other people's joys and sorrows and forgetting his own story? What saddens me the most is that when "Shu Yuan" in the article asked him if he knew divination, he said vaguely: "It depends on what you want to ask." I think Li Peilin should understand what "Shu Yuan" wants to ask. I want to ask how have you been these past few years? I want to ask why we are where we are today. I want to ask where those youthful dreams have gone. But Li Peilin just smoked and let the problem dissipate in the smoke. When I re-read it, I discovered that Li Peilin's love for Shu Yuan is hidden in every detail. Why did he remember her notebook with the kittens in it, why did he go out of his way to return the cup after the fight, why did he always appear "just in time" when she needed it, and why did he work so hard to bring her and Shen Yan together? When we are young, we always realize it later. "Shu Yuan" said, "I was really naive at that time," which is like a portrayal of each of us. Those blatant preferences are taken for granted by us as friendship. There is also the section about delivering books to the library written by Chunyu. Li Peilin was soaked in the rain and handed Shen Yan's gift to "Shu Yuan", then hurriedly got into the taxi, "in a hurry to fight World of Warcraft." See with your own eyes the girl you like being happy for someone else. "Shu Yuan", Shen Yan, and Li Peilin are leading completely different lives. "Shu Yuan" chose stability, pursuing a graduate degree, getting married, and working a nine-to-five job. Shen Yan chose success, a foreign company, a general manager, and a middle-class life. And Li Peilin chose freedom, wandering, writing, and living in no fixed place. What Chunyu wrote made me see: if you choose stability, you have to endure the grievances of the workplace and the triviality of marriage; if you choose success, you have to devote all your energy to work; if you choose freedom, you may have to set up a stall in front of a temple to make a living. "Shu Yuan" said, "This is the original way of the world." This sentence really contains a lot of helplessness and compromise. This may be the conservation law that spring rain often comforts us. "This world is conserved, and what you lose will always come back to you." In the same way, whatever we gain, we must lose. At the end of this story, "Shu Yuan" answered Shen Yan's call asking when she would return home, and walked into a life of fireworks with sweet and sour pork ribs. Li Peilin threw his bag on his shoulder and strode away in the opposite direction, with Taiyang following behind him. This scene was written so well by Chun Yu. "As I grew up, everything I couldn't help but was forced to do so, and even crying turned into laughter." They walked into their own lives, and no one was at fault. If you want to blame them, you can only blame them. Life is never perfect. It's really super, super, super real. After reading it, I remembered that there were a few "Li Peilins" in my youth. In junior high school, we sat on the railing and talked about our ideals during free time in physical education class, and talked about how we wanted to change the world. Now we are scattered in various cities. Some are planning to take the postgraduate entrance examination, some are looking for internships, some have dropped out of school to open a small shop and become a small boss... We occasionally like in WeChat Moments, but we can never regain the tacit understanding we had at that time to talk about everything. The plane is flying far away, but we have to keep moving forward.

I suddenly felt very sad when I saw this. I couldn't tell you exactly what I was sad about, but I felt a strong sadness in my heart. It seems that we can always see similar past experiences in Chun Yu's stories, even if it's just a momentary feeling. After the sadness, I gradually calmed down and felt relieved. There may be regrets in youth, and at certain moments, you will think about what if. But the moment is also good, so I won't make any assumptions. I hope that all of them in the story can have a peaceful life and find what they want.

Do you still remember, we were sixteen or seventeen years old? I don't know what it means to like, so I let down many people

After reading this, I don't know whether this article is be or he. Maybe because Li Peilin is described in the second person "you", I always mistakenly thought he was the male protagonist. But he is indeed not with the female protagonist. It's a pity to look at it from his perspective.

You long for freedom, I just want stability

Every time I read Shu Yuan's articles, I think about what kind of life I will lead in the future.

I want to call you and tell you that the weather is sunny and that I love you the way people love hope and love certainty.

The feelings of sixteen or seventeen-year-olds are so profound. If you can't love, you can only help others in the end.