Twilight: Don't Love Me

I don't know where to begin or how to put pen to paper. This is the saddest thing weighing on my heart. Who is the person you love most? And who treats you the best? Have you ever thought about it? I count the people around me, and then... there's no one left. In the face of death and separation, we always seem so helpless. His departure left me with nothing. When you can no longer love, even memories become a burden. What does the past matter now? I understand it all. Everything has changed, and I can never again have those moments of sorrow. After all these years, I, so stubborn, no longer have the strength to ask for anything or hope for anything. Life is full of too many helpless moments, too many things we must let go. No matter how much we hate to part, what good does it do? What is meant to come will come sooner or later. What is meant to leave will leave sooner or later. Life is like a movie. If there's a beginning, there will be an ending. Though we both once tried to write a perfect ending together, we are so small and fragile before fate, unable to withstand even a single blow. Suddenly, it feels as if I've let it all go. I no longer feel attached. What is yours will always be yours. No one can take it away. What isn't yours will never belong to you, no matter how hard you try. All that longing has become the past. No one can change that ending. Let us bury those memories deep within our hearts. When night falls, we can take them out and savor the days we once spent together. Sorrow mingles with joy. Perhaps that's simply what life is like. A person's fate is written in the heavens. We are only walking along a path laid out in advance. Different people walk different paths. We only meet along one another's journeys. I once wanted to walk by your side forever. But perhaps our different destinations meant we were destined to be only passing strangers in each other's lives. We don't belong to each other. I don't want to keep forcing anything. All we can do is accept what comes. When dawn breaks, a new beginning awaits. You have your life, and I have my choices. If I could do it all over, I'd rather we had never met. Too many misunderstandings have left us standing still, unable to move forward. A smile isn't always the best medicine. Sometimes it's just the best disguise. I still live as I always did, yet I find that I'm not all right at all. When we were together, I never thought I'd fall in love with you. When I fell in love with you, I never thought you'd leave. But in the end, everything became impossible.