Nan Kang Bai Qi (May 26, 1980 - March ?, 2008), born on the 13th day of the fourth lunar month in 1980, was a man from Liaoning. Born in Liaoning and raised in Inner Mongolia, he was a gay novelist. He wrote under the pen name Bai Qi on Jinjiang, then used Nan Kang on Tianya. In March 2008, he jumped into the Xiang River and took his own life.
From the playful voice of Six Records of a Floating Life to the helpless sorrow of Waiting for You at Thirty-Five, we can see how painful his journey was. His boyfriend of seven years got married, and Nan Kang chose suicide, bringing their relationship to an end. People always say that whoever falls in love first, loves more deeply, and gives more of themselves pays the highest price. I don't know what could be a greater price than one's life! I think Nan Kang must have thought it all through before doing this. I wonder if he ever regretted it, even for a fleeting moment. Perhaps Nan Kang let many people down: his parents, who gave birth to and raised him; his older sisters, who loved him; and his readers, who always supported him. But at least he was true to himself, to his heart, and to his feelings.
May the years be peaceful, and may life be calm and secure.
I have selected two of Nan Kang's works to commemorate him.
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Just like now, I can't find Nankang's column even if I want to find it… I like him very much, but I don't dare to love him. I'm afraid that once I do, I'll love him too deeply and disturb his path to the next life.