I'm Still Here, But My Heart Is Gone

Why bother? Even if not for yourself, what about your family?

Is it really me? A long time ago, a boy once told me... "Don't think of yourself as special; it will make you happier." I always thought I was different from the people around me. It turns out it was just because I drew the distance of "surroundings" too small. A little bit outside of the "surroundings" There was someone just like me. So insecure that I'm afraid to approach others. But he insisted on pretending to be so arrogant that he wouldn't let anyone get close to him. Like a fool Yet, I helplessly allow myself to continue being this foolish...

You're not unintentional; your heart is simply too proud and pure to join the chaos of this mundane world and fall into its filth. You're pursuing the freedom of solitude, just like me...

A moment of carelessness doesn't define the future. There's a long future ahead, and who knows what will happen next?! There's nothing wrong with loving yourself. A person who doesn't even love themselves can't survive. Most importantly, be true to yourself!

I understand your pain and hope you can get through this soon. Like you, I haven't been able to fall asleep before midnight in a long time. Wishing you all the best.