Chen Di doesn't know when she first fell in love with Qian Xiaosi. But by the time she realized she couldn't live without Qian Xiaosi, Xiaosi had already married a man. Chen Di cut off the long hair she'd kept on the excuse that she didn't love her, and put on the men's clothes Xiaosi liked best. Only later did she realize that Qian Xiaosi really didn't seem to love her. So Chen Di said to Qian Xiaosi, [I don't know when I'll truly be able to feel your tenderness, so I can only turn myself into you.]
Very nice, GO ON...