He lost the smile in his memories because of his cowardice. He was afraid to face reality, living in his own nightmare, unable to escape. He was a coward then, and he still is now.
He had nothing, yet he had everything: an unreliable childhood friend, an adorable child, a simple job. Everything was like the afternoon sun, soft and warm. Only sometimes, when he was alone, his heart would suddenly feel empty. She always said he needed the nourishment of love, but he would only smile and let it pass. Love was something you could happen upon, but never seek out. Where was that person, he wondered? And when would he meet them?
After that rainy day, he and his life became a complete garden.
I've fallen into a trap, I hope the author will not give up, and let me know the update time. Mwah. ??(???????)??