She didn't have the courage to say no, nor did she have the courage to love. She didn't want to be enemies with anyone, but she didn't want to make friends with anyone. She was born in a troubled world, but she wanted to stay away because she suffered from the noise. She had been hurt and had seen others hurt. Meeting a new person was a potential wound for her. She couldn't afford it. So she could only avoid and run away tactfully, not hurting herself, and trying her best not to hurt others.