An Ke said that feelings really cannot withstand scrutiny, and a lifetime is only as long as decades. Those who are lucky can live another ten or eight years.
There is a very hypocritical saying, I'm just sad that I can't grow old with you.
But you were almost old when I met you, and we were twenty years apart. Do I want to be with you so that I can grow old with you?
Shi Zejia, I liked you the first time I saw you, and no one can stop me from liking you. I don't want to be a mistress, and I don't lack men, but I just have desire for you and can't stop. I have thought about it since the day I fell in love with you. When you get married, I will wait for your divorce. When you have a son, I will wait to be your son's stepmother. When you are too old to walk, I will take care of you and wait for your funeral.
That's all I have in mind.