Borrow Some Time to Illuminate Crush

This year, layoff notices are coming and I am about to leave the office where I have been for ten years. My family is well off and I don't have to work hard to make a living. I stay here just because I have missed her for many years. She is twenty-one years older than me and has a family and responsibilities. We have a two-way restraint hidden in our hearts. We know each other well, but we can never cross the line. On the day we left, she whispered only five words to me: take care of yourself. Late at night when I returned to my hometown, the clear water jadeite she begged for for me shimmered on my wrist, transporting me back to the time before the layoffs. I am the only one who carries the memory of this parting. In the past, I was aloof and aloof, and I didn't bother to ask for help. I would rather stay where I was. This time, I let go of my senseless pride, contacted relatives in power, and took this opportunity to strive for a step up. Asking for help is not about speculation, it is about maturity, it is about taking responsibility for yourself, your family, and her in your heart. The ladder is just a threshold. From now on, I will have to carry all the complicated official duties and interpersonal disturbances with my own hands. Others will speculate about my origins, and rumors will spread, but I will accept them one by one. I am fighting for this position, not for the pursuit of power. She just hopes to have enough strength to keep this small area of ​​stability and protect her from the wind and rain when she encounters obstacles. Love does not require hugging. We watch from afar, within the rules, and help each other. Intention: Let go of the arrogance of youth and understand the responsibilities and choices of adults. Restrained love does not have to force you to stay together. Growing yourself, accumulating strength, and watching can also help you achieve perfection.