[Content warning: The story is told in the first person, like a memoir. The plot is disjointed and wanders wherever the author's thoughts take it. It is adapted from the author's real experiences, and the protagonist is imperfect.]
For the first twelve years of Lin Xinyue's life, romance was a distant concept.
Then, in middle school, Lin Xinyue experienced what it felt like to have a crush for the first time.
That innocent feeling gradually faded with time, eventually becoming a series of images in her memories.
H was a wonderful person, so Lin Xinyue's secret crush was not all that painful. She thought, I guess unrequited love isn't as painful as people say...
Later, when Lin Xinyue started high school, Y changed her mind.
She couldn't say exactly when she fell for Y. It was a slow, gradual process.
But Y was different from H in many ways, and Lin Xinyue realized that unrequited love really could be painful.
One night during the first semester of senior year, Lin Xinyue was so angry that her heart hurt. She thought, I don't want to love him anymore.
Theme: A story about the innocence of young love.
