The summer in Beijing is long, and the year of key high schools is covered with test papers, rankings, countdowns and endless silent views. This is the most regular and cruel fork in the road for young people. Some people go to overseas universities, while others stay at the top of their hometown. The trajectory of life quietly breaks apart at the end of the third year of high school, and they will never intersect again.
Lu Qiheng was born into an ordinary family. He is diligent and self-sufficient, ranking among the top 20 in his grade. He is steady and sharp in the three subjects of physics, chemistry, and earth. He is the seed of Qingbei in the eyes of his teacher. He was silent, restrained, and used to tolerate all his emotions, suppressing his youthful worries in studying questions and watching quietly day after day. In the huge teaching building, amidst the hustle and bustle of the crowd, all his silent gazes fell for a long time on Su Yunuo, who always ranked first in the school.
Su Yunuo grew up in a well-to-do family, with pale eyebrows and an aloof and indifferent nature. She has never been in the mood for love, and only sees achievements, plans, and a long-term future. In the second semester of my second year of high school, I got UKVI IELTS 8.5. In my third year of high school, I didn't take any domestic exams. I submitted my application in advance and got an offer from University College London's matriculation program. Her life is clear and bright, and she is determined step by step. From beginning to end, she only pursues her architectural ideals. She is clean, sober, and unencumbered. She has never noticed the silent gaze in the corner for many years.
Lu Qiheng never said anything about his heartbeat, and never showed any clues.
For three whole years, he stayed with her from a distance as a classmate, watching her step by step towards her own bright and smooth road, watching her leave the examination room early, skip the college entrance examination, and rush to the distant place of Bartlett School of Architecture in England.
Summer has come to an end and the dust has settled.
Su Yunuo had an average score of 90 in her preparatory studies and was successfully promoted to UCL's Bachelor of Architecture. She then went to London. Since then, she has been separated by mountains and seas, time zones, and completely different life systems.
Lu Qiheng took the exam and finally entered the Yao Class of Tsinghua University with a high score of 710. He stayed behind in the capital and took root in the top universities in his hometown.
They once shared the same morning and dusk in the capital, the evening breeze in the same teaching building, and the same youthful period.
But from beginning to end, it was just his long, secret, and unknown one-person crush.
She didn't know the depth of it, and he never spoke.
The young man's thoughts are like the autumn that has not yet set in the capital. No one hears or reveals them.
We share the same journey, but we miss it all our lives. From then on, there was no night breeze in the North, and there were no old people in England. The two paths of life ran parallel and far away, and there was no intersection for the rest of my life.
All the silence and tenderness, the years of gazing, and the undeclared deep feelings are all sealed in the hot, fruitless, never-ending young man's monologue in the capital.
Purpose: To write about the most real and restrained youthful regrets in key high schools: the natural gaps in class, horizons, and life plans create silent youthful misses. It interprets a young man's deepest secret love, which is restraint, not disturbing, and watching the other person rush to the mountains and seas; love is never revealed, never disturbed, never fulfilled, pure and clean, ends in youth, and returns to the sea of people. A long monologue that proves that some heartbeats only belong to one person from the beginning.
