This is an emotional novel about campus healing narrated in the first person. It tells the story of a quiet female protagonist who is a liberal arts student, and a male protagonist who is an art student who has become introverted and quiet due to illness. They meet, get to know each other, fall in love, and finally separate due to reality and inner trauma.
The male protagonist studied art since he was a child. He was seriously ill and experienced the pain of the death of a patient. His personality became cold, restrained, and insecure. He hated the impetuousness and noise in the circle, and desperately longed for a stable, long-term, and undisturbed life. He met the gentle, quiet and emotionally stable heroine in the library, and was deeply attracted by her unique sense of relaxation and stability - the heroine did not have the ups and downs and utilitarianism of an art student, and could accept the ordinary calmly, which happened to be his spiritual harbor to escape the high-pressure "battle of survival".
The relationship between the two is delicate and restrained. There are no grand ceremonies and confessions. It is mostly about companionship in the library, silent care, and giving umbrellas on rainy days, etc. Small tenderness. Due to the pain in the past, the male protagonist did not dare to be passionately involved or promise forever, and even took the initiative to refrain from intimate contact. The only time he took the initiative to hug and kiss was full of caution. He once frankly admitted that he was "not sure whether he can make it to the end."
By contrasting the male protagonist with the free and easy-going "big brother" and "eldest sister" who are art students, the story highlights the specialness and vulnerability of the male protagonist: he is not aloof, but he cannot afford to play, cannot afford to lose, and is afraid of losing. Sickness and separation make him only love with "ascetic" tenderness.
In the end, this relationship, which began in peace and returned to stability, failed to reach the end due to the male protagonist's psychological trauma, family concerns and practical obstacles. The two of them walked away from each other soberly, leaving behind a tender regret about pain, security, ordinaryness and cherishment.
Mission: Peace heals pain, the ordinary is the most precious