Cheng Shubai was born in a highly intellectual family. His parents were good at academics but did not know how to express love, so it was natural for him to grow up to be an instrument with strict logic and emotional isolation. He initially chose psychiatry in college to analyze his single emotional map - he wanted to know why love, like a torrent in others, was only a dry river bed in his case.
He originally thought that his dry and tasteless life would last until the day when he could close his eyes and rest, but when he was thirty, he met Wen Jingming.
The medical records read: Severe bipolar disorder, mixed episodes, high risk of suicide.
Wen Jingming was tall but thin, with a pair of large eyes under his single eyelid. He wore rimless glasses, and his behavior showed a kind of restraint that was on the verge of the limit. During the first interview, Cheng Shubai understood that this man's spiritual world had long since collapsed, and he relied on drugs to hold on to the last layer of dignity.
But even so... Cheng Shubai's heart was moved.
He secretly looked forward to the subsequent appointments for talk therapy. When he saw the words "Wen Jingming" appear on the schedule, the instrument called the heart would produce abnormal readings. He never revealed it and always maintained a professional distance, as if those throbbings were just background noise in the clinic.
Until the fourth treatment, Wen Jingming leaned on the back of the chair, and a faint smile appeared in his eyes behind the lenses:
"Dr. Cheng, do you want to have a relationship with me?"
The consulting room was silent, and Cheng Shubai heard his own voice, which was too calm to be his own, to say "Yes!"
They were together for twenty-nine days, and every day was like stolen sweetness. For the first time, Cheng Shubai understood those patients who were trapped by love - it turns out that love is not an abstract pathological concept, it is the burnt breakfast that Wen Jingming cooked in the kitchen, the steady breathing when hugging each other late at night, and the smiling face that suddenly looks back while hiking.
He was so immersed in love that he almost forgot the cold diagnosis words on Wen Jingming's medical record. He was so convinced that this relationship was the best medicine to cure Wen Jingming.
On the twenty-ninth day, the full moon, Cheng Shubai bought a bouquet of light blue hydrangeas on the recommendation of the flower shop clerk - Wen Jingming said that this kind of blue is like the sky after the rain.
He walked downstairs to the apartment holding the flowers, and his cell phone rang.
Not Wen Jingming.
"Cheng Shubai, right? We are from the Public Security Bureau. Wen Jingming committed suicide, and the emergency contact on his mobile phone is you. Please come to Anhe Hospital."
The phone hangs up. The hydrangeas bloomed just right in my arms, and they were as blue as the sky that had never been cloudy.
And the twenty-nine days of love suddenly became like a long and gentle suicide notice.
Emotionally indifferent but trying hard to save her lover and becoming passionate and proactive × The spiritual world is in danger but trying hard to seek treatment for her boyfriend
Starting from dual perspectives~ The title starting with C is Cheng Shubai's perspective, which is the main timeline, and the title starting with W is Wen Jingming's perspective, which is the secondary timeline~
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Concept: It is not the sweetness without shadows, but the sweetness of knowing the existence of shadows and still choosing to face the sunshine.