I'm Going to Her Wedding

But passionate love is also so rare

Alas, I really understand why I keep silent and let go, because homosexuality is really painful. Apart from mutual love, everything else is a dilemma. If you care more about what you lose than what you gain, you will collapse, you will really collapse.

Watching it makes me wonder whether "I" have the ability to predict the future. Maybe some things can be proven, but this story is too similar to the story in reality where our fear leads to timidity again and again.

The protagonist sees herself in someone else's future, and then chooses to meet her between the future of studying abroad and the future of uncertainty about whether she can be happy. It makes me feel that she seems a bit stupid, but I can understand her choice. What I'm thinking about is that maybe it's because I don't have the experience of truly falling in love with someone... I saw the protagonist's obsession with her, but I don't know what the other person's charm is? (I seemed to have the same mood when I watched "I Can Only Curse"... Is it because I am not Lily's audience?) Or maybe the other party is essentially just a projection of the protagonist, just like the protagonist never really fell in love with her in reality...? But, but, I think I can understand all the withdrawal of the protagonist later on... More than my own happiness, I hope that the person I love can be happy (but I have never really loved). For me, this is also the path I will choose, because I agree that it is true love (or maybe I have this idea because I have never loved). But actually when I read the last paragraph, it said, "She smiled and looked at me equally... And didn't think there was any difference between me and others." "This made me feel that she was too stupid and I was too stupid. It would be a pity to shrink back before starting anything. Will the protagonist change the future in the end? I don't think so... But the ending ends with her "not thinking about it yet", so this is another beautiful blank space. Maybe she will? Maybe…

Do you feel like the future you see is actually the future instilled by others? What will happen if you fall in love in junior high school? What are the consequences of falling in love in high school? We met by chance in college and then started to fantasize again... In fact, these are the reasons I gave myself for not believing that people can predict the future.