Come on I am the biggest villain in this book, I imprisoned her, I thought the child was mine, I won. Many readers scolded me. Call me paranoid, call me shameless, and call me for ruining Lin Dieer's life. I recognize them all. Because I am Xiao Qihao. But I want you to listen to my story - how an illegitimate child who has lived in the shadows since childhood pushed the woman he loved into the abyss step by step, and how he spent the rest of his life to atone for his sins. --- First meeting The first time I met Lin Dieer was at Zhang Mansion. She is Zhang Zhiming's wife and my sister-in-law. That day she was wearing a light green skirt and stood in the yard. The sun fell between her brows and eyes, like a person walking out of a painting. I have never seen such a woman. So beautiful, so proud, so fresh. But in her eyes, I was never there. I am jealous of Zhang Zhiming. Jealous that he is an orthodox bloodline of the Zhang family, jealous that he has a solid family fortune, and even more jealous that he has a beautiful wife like Die'er. Why? Why does he have everything, while I can only live in the dark, like an ant that cannot see the light? Crazy. To get her, I did the most despicable thing in my life. I teamed up with her mother-in-law, set a trap, and tricked her into my villa. I imprisoned her, tortured her day and night, and asked her to bear an heir for me. She resisted desperately, her face was full of tears, and her heart was broken. But I said to her: "Your mother-in-law has betrothed you to me a long time ago. From now on, you are mine." When the child was born, I was ecstatic. I thought I finally defeated Zhang Zhiming. I thought Die'er could finally belong to me. But I was wrong. She never belonged to me. She just gritted her teeth and survived, carrying a secret that I would never know until her death. The truth What I don't know is - that child is not mine at all. They are the flesh and blood of her and Zhang Zhiming. She endured the humiliation and was reborn just so that I could raise children for my enemy for the rest of my life. And I, like a fool, held the child named Yi'an in the palm of my hand, taught him how to read and write, taught him the justice of the family and the country, and gave him all my preferences. She heard the child's name was "Yi'an", which was my name. Yi'an, never look back, be safe and sound. When she heard this name, her heart must be bleeding. But she said nothing. Loss Later, I became addicted to smoking. I wanted to numb myself with opium and forget the bone-gnawing pain of not getting what I wanted. When I was in seclusion and quit smoking, my mother sold her to Yihongyuan. When I came out, there was no news from her. I searched like crazy, walking all over the streets. I have been looking for her year after year, waiting for ten years. The last thing that awaited was the news of her death. In order to protect others, she blocked a fatal shot. In her life, she has changed six identities and three names. Only the three words "Lin Die'er" belong to her until death. I didn't even see her for the last time. Not even a chance to say "I'm sorry". Atonement After she died, I hugged the golden butterfly hairpin she left behind and stayed in seclusion for three days without eating or drinking. I remembered what she once said to me: "I'm just your trophy." No, Die'er. No. I love you because you are you, not a substitute for anyone or a trophy. But this love was used in the wrong way from the beginning. Later, I poured all my guilt and obsession into that child. I will believe until my death that those are my biological flesh and blood. I taught him to be patriotic and good, and to spend his whole life making up for the sins I committed back then. I also put all the scheming and methods I used to deal with Zhang Zhiming, as well as the connections and financial resources I had in the dark, into the front line of the Anti-Japanese War. I feel sorry for her, but I want to feel sorry for this land. Written at the end Some people say that the most difficult to deal with in "Butterfly Shadow Returns to Dust" is not Zhang Zhiming and Die'er, but me. A villain who has done all the bad things, but spends the rest of his life trying to atone for his sins. If you are willing, open this book. Look at how a man who is paranoid to the core destroys the people he loves most, and how he is crushed bit by bit by fate. I don't ask for forgiveness. I just want her to know - I'm sorry for this life. In the next life, I will never love you this way again. The wind and moon in the world cannot wait for us to stay together forever, and the shadow of the butterfly returns to the dust, and there is no return date to wait for. I am Xiao Qihao. This is my story and a debt I can never repay.
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