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1. 1 以 I Offer My Devotion to the Passing Years 以我深情祭岁月 Er Qiao二乔Modern Romance324k WordsCompleted [The physical book with the same title is now available] “I hesitated once. I turned back to face the slightest glimmer of hope, yet no one cared.” “Later, a thick fog rolled in. You said you loved me so much, but why was your love thinner than the fog, so faint I could barely see it?” Shen Nian 72.1kReads9.4Score6.5kShelves

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   The first book is "I'm standing in the abyss, no one can save me..." The second book is about youth, a shameless love for someone. The following books are also very sad, so sad that my heart throbs [crying][crying][crying]

2. 2 无 No One Came to Save Her from the Deep 无人救她于深海 Liang Shiqi梁拾柒Modern Romance135k WordsCompleted [Signed for publication] [Youthful unrequited love + prodigal son turns over a new leaf + bittersweet romance + plenty of unresolved heartbreak + tragic ending (The male lead is hard to like at first. It's not exactly a tearjerker, but sensitive readers should proceed with caution.)] Youth is a foolish thing: foolishly falling for someone. At the beginning of the story, Xu Nuo falls in love with Zhou Yiming at first sight, as if sinking into the deep sea. At the end, Xu Nuo holds the box contai 19.8kReads8.9Score4kShelves
3. 3 困 Imprisoned by Love 困爱成囚 Flowers Along the Way一路笙花Modern Romance1.1M WordsCompleted Rumor has it that Gu Yansheng, the adopted daughter of the Gu family, had loved the Ninth Master of the Lu family in the imperial capital for years. He couldn't stand her, and for the sake of the woman he cherished, he sent her to prison and had her tortured for five whole years. But no one expected that when the Ninth Master eventually married, his bride would be none other than Gu Yansheng, the woman with a prison record! Everyone eagerly awaited the spectacle, expecting to see how the Ninth M 16kReads9.0Score1.5kShelves
4. 4 窥 Seeing Through 窥破 Yi Jiang一姜Modern Romance201k WordsCompleted [The print edition of Farewell Ceremony is now available on all major platforms.] [Reclusive, cold, troubled girl × possessive, hot-tempered young rogue] Wan Li pressed her fingerprints ten times, and from then on, lost her heart. “Tsk, it's not like you're signing a contract. Don't be nervous.” The young man raised an eyebrow slightly, a smile tugging at his lips. Everyone said Ji Lanzhuo was a dissolute playboy no one could control. Wan Li wasn't afraid. She threw herself in headfirst and fell 2.3kReads9.3Score322Shelves
5. 5 谁 Who Falls for Whom? 谁为谁心动 White Lop-Eared Rabbit白毛垂耳兔Two Male Leads400k WordsOngoing (Main story and alternate IF storyline complete; parallel-world worldbuilding in progress) [Coercive relationship + win-her-back-after-the-breakup + clashing personalities + sharp tongues + hypnosis + secret identity used to get close on purpose + a broken mirror that cannot be mended / both die in the ending] "Who promised you heaven on earth, then shared with you a love as deep as the sea of hate?" Seven years ago, a misunderstanding led to Meng Qi being confined by his lover. After enduring t 29Reads—Score—Shelves

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   I was tortured to death and cried to death,

6. 6 临 Before He Dies, He Wants to Give Up His Allergen 临死前，他要戒掉过敏源 Crimson Jiangnan江南绯色Two Male Leads429k WordsCompleted [Male-male romance + angst + late-blooming devotion + the hero’s long road to winning him back] Shen Pei’an was ill. On his birthday, the doctor told him he didn’t have much longer to live. He hadn’t planned to hide it. He meant to wait until Ren Xu had celebrated his birthday with him, then tell him the truth. But the big star Ren Xu never came. All Shen Pei’an got was a birthday cake that would trigger his allergies. He was twenty-eight. It was his ninth year in love with Ren Xu. There would 1.1kReads6.6Score101Shelves
7. 7 全 Everyone in This Story Is Crazy. Please, Won't You Kill Me? 全文疯批，请杀了我好吗 Jiu Jiu Ziqi酒酒子琪Two Male Leads297k WordsCompleted [Power couple + Mutually faithful] [Angst early on, more angst in the middle, the male lead turns into a lovesick puppy later; tragic ending, but with rebirth] The pursuer thinks the pursued betrayed him. The pursued spends two years hiding away, then gets caught and brought back. The pursuer starts beating and tormenting him in every way, and even brings his fiancée to see him. She'll stop at nothing and wants to kill him every day. After enduring endless humiliation, Bai Feiying tries to escap 2.3kReads9.0Score282Shelves
8. 8 他 He Kept Summer Hidden 他藏了夏天 Shi Qingyao十清杳Modern Romance210k WordsCompleted That night, the young man slowly bent down, bracing his hands on his thighs so he could look her in the eye. It was as if he were declaring that they stood as equals in matters of the heart. Keeping his voice low, he asked, “Senior, I like you. Do you like me?” Ji An raised her hand to stroke Xu Linxi’s cheek and softly ordered him, “Close your eyes.” Xu Linxi trembled, then obediently lowered his lashes. Ji An’s lips curved into a smile. She placed both hands on either side of his face, rose on 10.4kReads9.1Score2.6kShelves

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   If I could do it over again, I would never like Xu Linxi again...

9. 9 蚀 A Love That Cuts to the Bone: The Madam Has Taken Her Own Life 蚀骨虐情，夫人已自尽 Ling Yu Ye铃语夜Modern Romance120k WordsCompleted [Angst and heartbreak + no reconciliation after the breakup + the male lead gets a tragic ending] If there is a next life, I never want to fall in love with you again... Lin Shuyue married the man she loved most in this life, but on their wedding night, a basin of cold water drenched her from head to toe: he loved her older sister. He hated scheming people more than anything. So he tormented her, imprisoned her, and hated her. Again and again, he hurt her. Until, in the end, she lost their child 3.6kReads—Score126Shelves

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   I highly recommend this book. This book is very sad from beginning to end, and it is a fast-paced book. It is super sadistic, sadistic both physically and mentally, and the ending is sadistic for the male protagonist.

10. 10 赤 Scarlet Farewell 赤别 Shi Qingyao十清杳Modern Romance138k WordsCompleted The signature youth BE romance by popular author Shi Qingyao. Sincere young Bei Jiang × cool, distant dream girl Nan Zhi. From the south to the north, one glance lasts a lifetime. Between her and her boy lie countless mountains they can never cross. When they first met, she smiled brightly. “My name is Nan Zhi. Nan as in south.” The boy looked up and gripped the hem of his shirt. “My name is Bei Jiang. Bei as in north.” They met for the first time in summer. The air was sultry, stirring the brig 1.8kReads9.4Score554Shelves

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    It's such a beautiful story that I stayed up late to read it and cried to death [crying][crying][crying]

11. 11 暗 The Sad Little Thing Called Unrequited Love 暗恋这件难过的小事 Meng Zhiwan孟栀晚Modern Romance122k WordsCompleted Lin Xu has a crush on the popular boy Ye Feng, and she remembers countless little details about him. Every day, Lin Xu times her departure down to the second, getting dressed and putting on her shoes in a hurry, all for the chance to catch a fleeting glimpse of his back. The music playing during the long break outside her classroom is Xu Song’s “Moon over Luzhou.” Lin Xu knows it’s the favorite song of Ye Feng, the school radio station’s announcer. Lin Xu has even stayed up all night organizing 72.6kReads9.7Score13.1kShelves

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    I've read some literary ones, my friend. I know you must have read several of them, but I still want to recommend them. She secretly cut off the most popular straight bangs at the time, learned to apply sunscreen and lipstick, and no longer refused to wear the baby-collar skirt her mother bought for herself. She has been working hard to play a role that is not like her and a friend who is worthy of him.

12. 12 我 I Only Took a Peek at Him 我只偷看他一眼 Zhi Jiu枝玖Anime Fanfiction188k WordsCompleted During the speech by the freshman class representative, Chen Nan fell for Lu Xu at first sight, and for the rest of her life. The pink sunset beyond the window filled the entire sky, like a beautiful landscape painting. The clouds looked drunk, their cheeks flushed with color. Chen Nan held her breath and stole a sidelong glance at Lu Xu. His profile was youthful and striking, and he held his book with perfect posture. A ray of light fell on the yellowed pages, and touched him as well. The dayli 15.4kReads9.6Score3.6kShelves
13. 13 云 The Clouds Set the Fire 云烧了火 Don't Run别跑Modern Romance254k WordsCompleted As a boy, Yan Huo happened to meet Yun Bian at the home of his classmate, Yun Duan. The moment he first saw Yun Bian, a seed of secret love took root in his heart. He waited four years for her to come of age, then began his pursuit without hesitation. They were a perfect match, and everything went smoothly. He thought they would live happily ever after, but then Yan Huo suddenly grew tired of the relationship and asked to break up. They parted ways, and six years later, they met again. In a smal 500Reads9.4Score109Shelves
14. 14 藏 Hidden in Midsummer 藏于盛夏 Autumn Chill秋日凉Modern Romance308k WordsCompleted A heads-up before you start ❗️: One of the side couples is a gay couple, so please skip this if that bothers you. [The print edition under the same title is now available] [Healing × Love that grows over time × Angsty school romance] Sweet, gentle, well-behaved student × rebellious, handsome bad boy That midsummer seemed hotter than any before. The girl in the graduation photo smiled sweetly, with a boy in a white shirt grinning boldly behind her. They met in midsummer, and parted in midsummer t 85kReads9.6Score14.9kShelves

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    Good looking, vivid characters

15. 15 你 You Broke Your Promise 你失信了 Shi Qingyao十清杳Modern Romance138k WordsCompleted The acclaimed signature work You Broke Your Promise by popular author Shi Qingyao, now with 40,000 new words of never-before-published content! Sensitive girl Xiang Yu VS golden boy Song Huaishi. I had to play out the whole secret-crush story, so I loved him year after year. It was an ordinary day. Just as she closed her eyes, Xiang Yu suddenly thought of Song Huaishi: Song Huaishi, neat in his clothes and radiating warmth. Song Huaishi at seventeen. Still in his school uniform, he leaned lazily 64.3kReads9.5Score12.1kShelves

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    This book is so huge it makes me cry!!! I haven't recovered for several days [crying] [crying] [crying] Especially at the end of the full text!! The time of death is the male protagonist's birthday. This is really cruel!!! [Cry][Cry][Cry][Cry] I'm the only one who doesn't cry when I read abuse stories. I really can't do it when I read this. [Cry][Cry][Cry][Cry]

16. 16 见 Meeting Summer 见夏天 As Always, An'an安安如故Modern Romance254k WordsCompleted Xia Linxi x Tang Yu Xia Linxi is a sophomore with excellent grades and impeccable conduct. Tang Yu is a carefree bar singer. They’re worlds apart, with nothing in common. No one could have imagined that one day the two of them would end up together. In a dark alley, Xia Linxi saw Tang Yu locked in an intimate embrace with a strange woman, but she simply left in silence. She believed the man before her was nothing like the womanizing facade he showed the world. She saw right through him at a glan 1.6kReads8.5Score346Shelves

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    I have read almost all the BE stories. I think these are relatively good writing styles and stories with good characters. I highly recommend them.

17. 17 红 Red and White Wedding 红白囍 AyeAyeCaptainTwo Male Leads186k WordsCompleted [Republican-era nostalgia + supernatural + two male leads + equally matched powerhouses + pure-hearted madmen] [Brilliant and passionate young diviner Tian Suanzi, Mu Geshen X cold-on-the-outside, warm-on-the-inside heir to a family of physicians, the saintly doctor Chai Shuxin] A funeral is mournful, a wedding joyful, I travel from the world of the living to the Yellow Springs, Prepare incense, candles, paper horses, and a bridal sedan, Lady Meng offers us the nuptial wine. White paper, red rob 52.2kReads9.7Score12.7kShelves

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    Come and see it quickly. If you don't see it, you won't be able to finish it!!!!! (Recommended to friends in the book world)

18. 18 欲 Eternities Still Unsaid Till You Love Me 欲言难止 What About the McChicken麦香鸡呢Two Male Leads363k WordsCompleted Just as life was starting to get better, Xu Ze and Lu Heyang faced a new challenge. After graduating, Xu Ze became a doctor who saved lives, while Lu Heyang became a well-known figure in the Interstellar Federation. But misfortune struck Lu Heyang, and he lost his memory. During a crucial period in his treatment, circumstances forced the two apart, and Lu Heyang completely forgot Xu Ze and the friendship they had shared. Their friendship faced an enormous test. When fate brought them together ag 73.6kReads9.7Score17.1kShelves
19. 19 我 I'm Not a God of Theater 我不是戏神 Three Nine Sound Domain三九音域Urban4.0M WordsCompleted The brand-new masterpiece by San Jiu Yin Yu, author of Slay the Gods | Winner of the Best Science-Fiction Web Novel Award at the Macau International Science Fiction Awards | A Chinese grotesque epic that turns the tide of an era After a scarlet meteor streaked across the sky, human civilization ground to a halt. From that day onward, humanity could no longer build a rocket, a nuclear bomb, an airplane, a car... The pyramid of civilization built upon modern science collapsed with a thunderous roa 1.7MReads9.9Score192.2kShelves
20. 20 让 You Told Me to Kill My Villainous Master, So Why Did You Kiss Him?! 让你杀反派师尊，你亲他干嘛！ Squeezed Peach Juice榨桃汁Two Male Leads522k WordsCompleted [Signed for print publication] [Complete + two male leads + shou protagonist + everyone speaks their mind + devoted romance] [Gentle, beautiful master × outwardly obedient, tea-scented villain disciple who is secretly unhinged] Shang Qingshi transmigrates into a book as a cannon-fodder master. Born into a noble family and blessed with striking looks, he even has both the male lead and the ultimate villain as his disciples. It’s a dream start from the start. But his cauldron physique prevents him 35.4kReads9.5Score6.2kShelves
21. 21 潇 The Late Sound of Drizzling Rain 潇潇雨声迟 Meng Zhiwan孟栀晚Modern Romance120k WordsCompleted Years after graduation, a gossip post begins circulating on the message board for City Experimental School. The school's 2011 beauty, Ye Xiao, and its most handsome boy from the same year, Ruan Yusheng, are a couple. Their classmates, who know them well, rush over to set the record straight: it's pure rumor. There was never any spark between the two of them. Ye Xiao's profile even says, “Person I hate most: Ruan Yusheng.” People in the know go so far as to say, “Ye Xiao feels nothing but hatred 84.9kReads9.7Score14.4kShelves

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    Abuse lovers gather! These stories will definitely poke holes in your heart!

22. 22 清 Qingqing: The Aesthetics of Unrequited Love Tragedies, Part 3 清清（暗恋BE美学三部曲03） Meng Zhiwan孟栀晚Urban125k WordsCompleted Back in middle school, Xie Zeyang met Shen Bingqing. Their names were almost the opposite of their natures: he was as cold as ice, while she burned bright as the sun. He could still vaguely recall every time they parted when they were young. At thirteen, beneath the lights at the entrance to an alley. She waved with a radiant smile and said to him, “See you tomorrow, class monitor!” At seventeen, on the beach on a midsummer night. She poked her head out of the tent, eyes crinkling as she called 21.5kReads9.6Score5.6kShelves
23. 23 遗 A Regrettable Outcome 遗憾成局 Milk Candy奶贝吖Modern Romance218k WordsCompleted A wild, carefree boy vs. a cool, well-behaved girl [School life + city life + unrequited love] [Bad ending] The rain in Beicheng was warm and stifling. That year, she was seventeen and he was eighteen. "…I want to get…a tattoo." Wen Yuyan's slender fingers clutched the hem of her clothes, her voice trembling. Qi Yue leaned closer, smiling. "Good students aren't supposed to get tattoos." His teasing voice and warm breath washed over her. The following winter, a heavy snowfall blanketed Beiche 236Reads8.4Score—Shelves
24. 24 最 The Last Diary Entry 最后一篇日记 Sui Ying随楹Modern Romance13k WordsCompleted [Simplified Chinese edition signed for publication] I only used looking at the flowers as an excuse. All I really wanted was to see you once. 27.4kReads9.1Score5.1kShelves
25. 25 槐 Locust Tree Breeze 槐风 Sweet Candy暖糖Modern Romance384k WordsCompleted (Print edition published) [Both leads are each other's first love + happy ending + roguishly handsome boy vs. unruly girl + blunt and direct, with both leads speaking their minds] He first met Tang Yi in Tongcheng. That summer, he had won first place in the physics Olympiad. He was strolling through the streets, idly exploring the unfamiliar city, the medal still warm in his pocket and everything around him feeling fresh and new. His gaze came to rest on a young girl not far ahead. In a pale yel 36.7kReads9.4Score6.1kShelves

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    Look!! Looking behind them, Shen Huaizhou and Tang Yi stood up and unfolded the wedding book. The gold letters on the red background were lifelike in texture, the fonts were vigorous and powerful, and the charm was vivid. Jiali was first formed, and a good relationship was established. I am in love with the snail, and I am willing to treat each other with respect as a guest; the auspicious leaf katydid will definitely bring prosperity in the future. With one heart and one mind, we can live in IKEA. We will always be together as husband and wife, and we will form a common alliance with mandarin ducks and butterflies. The two looked at each other and smiled. The midsummer outside the window is the chirping of cicadas on the budding trees, the tranquility of the wind blowing through the forest tops, and the path of high-spirited young people pursuing their dreams. In Tang Yi's youth, Shen Huaizhou is the best synonym. The throbbing of summer is a grand encounter. From then on, Shen Huaizhou accompanied Tang Yi in all the summers to come.

26. 26 吻 Kiss Me and Say You Like Me 吻你说喜欢 Extra-Large Soup Dumpling超大小笼包Modern Romance256k WordsCompleted Written for freedom and hope, and for the faraway places we have never seen... [Stray dog story | Small-town redemption | Sweet-and-angsty romance | School life] At the beginning of the story, she arrives in an unfamiliar little town, defiant and self-reliant, her pride and sharp edges intact. People have told her she was born under an unlucky star, but she couldn’t care less. Whether her life is fortunate or not is up to her. * There’s a boy in town who, according to the rumors, is gloomy and 405Reads9.3Score101Shelves
27. 27 学 Don't Worry, Senior—I'll Protect You 学姐别怕，我来保护你 Gege Wuwu隔胳呜呜Urban3.0M WordsCompleted [Heart-Pounding Engine 2: Pure White Love Letter has been published] [Lighthearted daily life] + [Single female lead] + [No System] + [Not reborn] + [Sweet romance] In high school, Luo Ye had a secret crush on a girl for three years. He even got into the same university as her, and they agreed to start dating if they both got in. But the girl unexpectedly went back on her word. Heartbroken, Luo Ye became a romance novelist. Unexpectedly, before university even began, the novel he wrote shot to t 338.7kReads9.8Score34.7kShelves

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    Really, no knife at all

28. 28 女 Life with the Goddess: I Feel Like I've Seen You Somewhere Before 女神同居往事，我好像在哪见过你 Reclining in the North高卧北Urban126k WordsCompleted Li Huangxuan was a recent college graduate, stuck in a miserable nine-to-five job and always broke. Like every young person just starting out, he felt lost and uncertain about the future. He longed for a love that would leave a lasting mark. He had a crush on his coworker, Xu Wanqing, but was too timid to approach her. Then one day, his roommate moved out, and a goddess named Lin Ximeng moved in next door, turning his life upside down. A month of living together gradually drew the two of them cl 50.3kReads9.7Score4.9kShelves
29. 29 娇 My Seductive Wife: What Divorce? I Just Want to Kiss Her Until She Cries 娇妻勾人：离婚个球！只想亲哭她 Foxes Don't Eat Chickens狐狸不吃鸡Modern Romance220k WordsCompleted [A short drama adaptation is now available on Hongguo] [Neglected for three years + Love at first sight for the male lead + A celibate CEO turns into a doting husband vs. a fair-skinned beauty who excels at medicinal cuisine + Super-sweet happy ending] In the third year of her marriage to Yu Chen, the day she handed him the divorce papers, a car accident sent his memories back to when he was twenty. In the hospital room, his friend told him that he had impulsively married her three years ago and 228Reads6.8Score—Shelves

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    It's all about BE. Watching it late at night made me cry.

30. 30 他 He Is in the South of the Clouds 他在云之南 Jing Xing景行Modern Romance209k WordsCompleted When they first met, he was shrouded in shadow, reeking of blood and violence. He asked her, “Who are you? Where are you from? What are you doing here?” It was a long time before she thought of the true answer: “I'm Shen Xun. I came from the far north to the south of the clouds, to meet the love of my life.” He was her Morpheus, giving her a poppy-like dream of love, bewitching and intoxicating. He captured her soul, clouded her mind, and made her addicted. Like a pawn crossing a river, she went 25.9kReads9.7Score5.1kShelves
31. 31 行 Late in the Day 行止晚 Zhi Er织尔Ancient Romance138k WordsCompleted [Devoted love + emperor and empress + tragic palace romance] 145,000 readers gave it top ratings, and countless readers cried their way through it! The year’s breakout historical romance, a heartache readers can’t forget. A clear-eyed, sweet empress VS a proud emperor whose love never wavers. Born into the imperial family, how can everything ever go as you wish? May we remain together forever, and may I keep you safe and at peace. A gentleman’s word is his bond. In a daze, I saw the moon rise. 24.8kReads9.5Score3.3kShelves
32. 32 还 I Have Three Months Left to Live, So Let Me Die in Peace 还剩三个月命，请让我从容赴死 Reclining in the North高卧北Urban169k WordsCompleted From childhood onward, Zhuang Zi'ang was the kind of kid everyone called “the child other parents wish they had”: a model student every year and always first in his class. But after his parents divorced and his father started a new family, he became a child neither parent loved. At just eighteen, Zhuang Zi'ang is diagnosed with a terminal illness and given only three months to live. With his final three months, he decides to let out his rebellious, wild side and be truly himself for once. While 145.8kReads9.8Score16.7kShelves

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