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1. 1 戒 Diary from a Conversion Therapy Center 戒同所日记 Youthful Years, Thinking of the Brocade Zither华年思锦瑟Two Male Leads29k WordsCompleted A diary recording the final two months of my life... Maybe I'm just not meant to be loved. Otherwise, why would everyone who loved me leave? 13.5kReads8.2Score2.8kShelves

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   It doesn't look very sad, but when you think about it, you will feel sorry for everyone in it. It has great stamina. Liang Anping loved his husband very much. Even if he knew that his husband didn't love him, he was deceiving himself. Although Song Shihuai was Anping's other personality later, he was also Anping's hope for survival. "The love of my life is so absurd"[cry][cry]

2. 2 最 The Last Diary Entry 最后一篇日记 Sui Ying随楹Modern Romance13k WordsCompleted [Simplified Chinese edition signed for publication] I only used looking at the flowers as an excuse. All I really wanted was to see you once. 27.1kReads9.1Score5.1kShelves

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   1. This BE short story intertwined with secret love and regret, tells the story of a bitter love that ended in vain from the perspective of a girl. The protagonist Wanwan silently likes her friend's lover, but writes in her diary, "I have made all preparations, but I am still jealous," and ultimately chooses to end her life. The writing style is exquisite and tear-jerking, depicting the emotional dilemma and self-destructive tragedy of a person with low self-esteem. The ending "You won't know my huge secret love until death" directly touches people's hearts. 2. The ultimate sadomasochism written by Yu Shiqi, a classic about the grudges, love and murder of wealthy families. The heroine Xu Anran has been deeply in love with Shen Zhenan for more than ten years, but she was severely injured by him. The story runs through the pain of "picking apart bones and drinking blood", showing the destructiveness of love and hate. The author is good at tearing readers' emotions apart with bloody plots, and is known as the "ceiling of sadistic writing". It is suitable for readers who prefer emotional impact and deep entanglement.

3. 3 以 I Offer My Devotion to the Passing Years 以我深情祭岁月 Er Qiao二乔Modern Romance324k WordsCompleted [The physical book with the same title is now available] “I hesitated once. I turned back to face the slightest glimmer of hope, yet no one cared.” “Later, a thick fog rolled in. You said you loved me so much, but why was your love thinner than the fog, so faint I could barely see it?” Shen Nian 71.8kReads9.4Score6.4kShelves
4. 4 周 Dr. Zhou's White Moonlight Is Dying 周医生的白月光快死了 Ten-Line Que十行阙Two Male Leads219k WordsCompleted [Fragile, ill bottom VS cold, aloof top] [Heart-wrenching angst + mutually exclusive devotion, 1v1 + bad ending + extreme bottom fans, beware] Wen Ci had terminal stomach cancer. The doctor said he had at most thirty days left, and Wen Ci could live those thirty days for Zhou Ying. But Wen Ci died on the twenty-seventh day. After his death, Wen Ci left behind twenty-seven unread letters, a rabbit, a book, and a crushed red maple leaf. 20.6kReads9.3Score3.4kShelves

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   Tear ducts soar!

5. 5 还 I Have Three Months Left to Live, So Let Me Die in Peace 还剩三个月命，请让我从容赴死 Reclining in the North高卧北Urban169k WordsCompleted From childhood onward, Zhuang Zi'ang was the kind of kid everyone called “the child other parents wish they had”: a model student every year and always first in his class. But after his parents divorced and his father started a new family, he became a child neither parent loved. At just eighteen, Zhuang Zi'ang is diagnosed with a terminal illness and given only three months to live. With his final three months, he decides to let out his rebellious, wild side and be truly himself for once. While 141.1kReads9.8Score16.1kShelves

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   Very cruel, very good-looking, look at me for a long time, absolutely good-looking

6. 6 女 Life with the Goddess: I Feel Like I've Seen You Somewhere Before 女神同居往事，我好像在哪见过你 Reclining in the North高卧北Urban126k WordsCompleted Li Huangxuan was a recent college graduate, stuck in a miserable nine-to-five job and always broke. Like every young person just starting out, he felt lost and uncertain about the future. He longed for a love that would leave a lasting mark. He had a crush on his coworker, Xu Wanqing, but was too timid to approach her. Then one day, his roommate moved out, and a goddess named Lin Ximeng moved in next door, turning his life upside down. A month of living together gradually drew the two of them cl 50.6kReads9.7Score4.9kShelves
7. 7 咬 Biting the Sweet Pear 咬清梨 A Huihui一颗慧慧Modern Romance595k WordsCompleted (Print edition now available) [Romantic tension + bittersweet angst + unrequited love + healing] Shen Qingli’s greatest regret was probably sleeping with the man she had secretly loved for eight years, then asking him to pay her. After that, Gu Heng couldn’t get enough of her. They spent the nights tangled together, then acted like strangers by day. When she found out Gu Heng was getting married to form a family alliance, she drew a line between them. She thought they could part on good terms, b 34.1kReads9.3Score4.1kShelves

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   This book is also very good. The pull and sadomasochism between the male and female protagonists. The plot is clear and super touching. [Adoration] The interaction between the male and female protagonists has a strong sense of youth. The article is not nonsense at all. It is a very top-notch plot. Every character is well portrayed!

8. 8 快 Quick Transmigration: The White Moonlight Is Seeking Reconciliation Again 快穿：白月光她又在求复合 Ju You橘右Modern Romance635k WordsCompleted (New book now underway) [One-on-one romance + both leads devoted + first love + extra sweet, no angst + male lead who falls for her on his own] #A fluffy, illogical romance. No career ambitions and no revenge against scumbags, so steer clear if that’s what you’re looking for!# As the doomed, unrequited first love who can never end up with the male lead, Shi Qi maxes out his affection in every world, then always breaks up and leaves in the most reckless way possible. So why do all the male leads 4.8kReads9.2Score295Shelves

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   👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏

9. 9 暗 Unrequited Love Is an Inner Monologue 暗恋是一场内心的独白 Xi Muqing汐慕青Modern Romance938k WordsCompleted [Schoolyard secret crush + win-her-back redemption arc] Happy ending. A story about me secretly loving someone who falls for my best friend. The heroine suffers first, then the hero. Because of the wounds left by her family, she has been sensitive and insecure since childhood. He, meanwhile, is outstanding in every way, a talented and popular figure at school. Little by little, she is drawn to him, and by the time she realizes it, she has fallen deeply in love. In high school, she secretly lov 4.6kReads7.0Score179Shelves
10. 10 白 Even in Death, She Is a Beautiful White Moonlight 白月光她连死都美 Grape Tea葡萄茶茶Ancient Romance618k WordsCompleted Ending: Bad Ending | No CP | Read with caution | Everyone has had a moonlight that belonged to them alone, lighting the path ahead. The scholar was adrift and disheartened; the prince was despondent and had given up on himself; the senior brother was down on his luck and had no one to rely on... Only after meeting her did they learn what true love and deep devotion meant. Wen Qing committed suicide, and the System found her because she could neither obtain a utopian love as everlasting as the fl 4.8kReads8.8Score304Shelves
11. 11 快 Quick Transmigration: The Male Lead Turned Evil After the Female Cannon Fodder Faked Her Death 快穿：女炮灰死遁后男主黑化了 Grape Tea, No Ice, 70% Sweet葡萄去冰七分甜Ancient Romance316k WordsCompleted (The rating will go up once more people rate it) [Quick transmigration + romance missions + universally adored, flirtatious beauty + scheming green tea with great acting skills] Lin Ting worked diligently on missions for the Cannon Fodder Wish-Fulfillment System. Just as she had finally accumulated enough points to come back to life, the System told her they had a serious problem: all the male leads she had won over had turned evil! - 1. The blind disciple of an aloof master (winning over an unt 3.1kReads9.1Score273Shelves
12. 12 她 She’s Soft and Sweet 她又软又甜 Little Milk Foam小奶泡Modern Romance174k WordsCompleted [Mutual devotion] [Swoony romance] Tang Jingze's ex-girlfriends were all busty and long-legged. Shen Xi, by contrast, has a sweet, obedient-looking face, yet her cool, distant air makes her seem hard to approach. His long, slender fingers tap idly on the table. With a rebellious, carefree look and a low, husky voice, he says, “I never go for good girls.” 5kReads8.9Score284Shelves
13. 13 错 After Wrongfully Tormenting His White Moonlight, Mr. Fu Set the Crematorium Ablaze 错虐白月光后，傅总炸翻火葬场 A Huihui一颗慧慧Modern Romance454k WordsCompleted [Complete] [A proud, possessive CEO x A cool, down-on-her-luck heiress] [Pregnancy before marriage] [He chases her after the breakup] [Some angst] [Happy ending] Ji Luosheng accidentally got pregnant and became a contract wife to Fu Linye. He mocked her and toyed with her, treating their marriage like a game, never realizing he had already fallen for her. When his first love returned from abroad, Ji Luosheng was devastated and withdrew without a fuss. Fu Linye searched for her like a madman. The 2.3kReads9.0Score196Shelves
14. 14 藏 Hidden in Midsummer 藏于盛夏 Autumn Chill秋日凉Modern Romance308k WordsCompleted A heads-up before you start ❗️: One of the side couples is a gay couple, so please skip this if that bothers you. [The print edition under the same title is now available] [Healing × Love that grows over time × Angsty school romance] Sweet, gentle, well-behaved student × rebellious, handsome bad boy That midsummer seemed hotter than any before. The girl in the graduation photo smiled sweetly, with a boy in a white shirt grinning boldly behind her. They met in midsummer, and parted in midsummer t 85kReads9.6Score15kShelves

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    It was still very sweet in the early stage, but it made me cry in the later stage! I cried while watching it in the middle of the night and my eyes were swollen the next day.

15. 15 我 After I Left, the Prince Was Beside Himself with Grief 我走后，王爷痛不欲生 Tu Miao Miao兔淼淼Two Male Leads589k WordsCompleted [The comic adaptation of this novel is now available on Kuaikan] Bai Luo is always called an idiot by everyone. He isn’t stupid or foolish. He just loves that person so much that he would give up everything for him. He would even tear out his own heart and place it before him. In return, all he gets is the most merciless contempt. “Do you think you’re worthy?” - “If you hate me so much, why keep me by your side?” In the darkness, the man looks down at him. “You’re nothing but a plaything to amus 1.4kReads7.1Score158Shelves

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    This book is cruel!!!! I couldn't leave after watching it for a long time

16. 16 亲 Dear Director Wen 亲爱的闻总监 You Zhi Yu尤知遇Modern Romance611k WordsCompleted [Strong female lead, feel-good revenge, humiliating scumbags and making them eat their words, rekindled romance, sweet indulgence, the male lead rises to the top, and a love triangle] [Devoted, puppy-like CEO boyfriend of many years × bold, decisive, stubborn director who refuses to back down] After dating for three years, Wen Ruan finally learned she had only ever been a stand-in. When they broke up, Wen Ruan said, “Jiang Qingyan, I hope you die alone.” After being unjustly fired, Wen Ruan join 22.2kReads9.3Score2.9kShelves

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    Straight ball + high sweetness! 🎉Domineering female director✖️Jealous CEO🥰 🌟She has been working her way through the financial circle, mature and decisive, and is a strong person in the eyes of everyone; she has strong abilities and ambitions, but is a "love brain". She is his white moonlight, and they are both trapped in the whirlpool of their lives. The male protagonist is domineering and protective of his wife, overcoming obstacles and creating their own business legend! 👓 🌟After being slandered after the breakup, the heroine decided to take revenge! Join forces with the male protagonist 🔪Tear apart the spoiled, mindless and incompetent vicious White Lotus! 🔪Tear apart the scumbag ex-husband of the "conglomerate's golden turtle son-in-law"!! Wait... Why would the scumbag secretly help?? Could it be that... He is also seeking revenge??! …

17. 17 被 My Husband, Whom I Mistreated, Turns His Life Around, and I'm in Trouble 被我作践的老公翻身后，我惨了 Worry-Free Other Shore彼岸无忧Modern Romance3.2M WordsOngoing “I've been wanting you for so long...” In the darkness of night, the man kisses me without restraint. He's my live-in husband. One drunken night, I slept with him, and the scandal caused a huge stir. So I, a pampered heiress, had no choice but to make this down-and-out young man marry into my family and become my husband. Bitterly resentful, I repeatedly humiliated and abused him, beating and berating him at every turn. But he never got angry, always behaving like a gentle, virtuous man. Just as 9.8kReads8.0Score705Shelves

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    I think this book is really good. This is the only time I downloaded it and read it from beginning to end on Douyin [I almost cried] If you want to read a sad story, you can try it (I didn't know it was a sad story in the early stage) but the first few hundred chapters were very annoying. I laughed. Zhizhou after Pregnancy 10 After more than 0 chapters, I found out [laughing awkwardly] if the author can update 20 chapters every day. It's not enough to read. I don't like reading other books except this one [crying] Please recommend similar novels. I can't get out now. Come on, author, I must update 20 chapters every day [Send my heart]

18. 18 深 A Deeply Devoted Temptation 深情诱引 Bird Pine Rice鸟松米Modern Romance676k WordsCompleted A novel in the Niaosongmi Universe: Deep Affection and Allure. The short drama The Height of Summer, a special story about the eldest brother and sister-in-law, is now online. [Love after an arranged marriage, a regretful husband’s pursuit of his wife, one-on-one romance, both devoted only to each other] [Gentle, cool-headed ophthalmologist vs. devoted, wayward young master] Lin Yuxi used to think Zhou Yanjing was a carefree playboy with a fickle heart. Only after they married did she learn just 114.3kReads9.2Score10.6kShelves

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    The male protagonist has been in love with the adopted daughter of the family since he was a child, but after getting married, he discovered that what she really loved was his eldest brother. He loved her deeply, but she just wanted a divorce: "Lin Yuxi, can you love me too?" My eyes shed tears after watching it😢My psychology also became wet with the emotions of the characters.

19. 19 出 After Her Release From Prison, Her Childhood Friend Leaves Her Mute and Mindless 出狱后，她被竹马虐得又傻又哑 Cheng Zhi城稚Modern Romance166k WordsCompleted [Angst, childhood sweethearts, physical torment, heartbreak, groveling for a second chance] As the saying goes, “Fools are blessed.” But Yuan Xi, this little fool, had no such luck. That little fool never had a blessed day in her life. In the end, she was left with nothing. She didn’t know how things had ended up this way. They weren’t supposed to be like this. It was cold, so terribly cold. Why didn’t anyone care? In the corner of a dark room, the girl trembled silently. “Please don’t abandon m 15.3kReads8.2Score981Shelves
20. 20 记 Memory Judgment: She Doesn't Want You Anymore 记忆审判：她不要你们了 Xing Yan66星衍66Modern Romance693k WordsCompleted [Everyone's redemption arc + lightning-fast face-slapping + no forgiveness + satisfying angst] After an attempted murder, Jiang Liuying goes viral across every major platform. In the end, everyone votes her onto the national list of the most evil people of the 22nd century. Rumor has it that when she was four, she abandoned her eldest brother, ran off, and left him in a kidnapper's car. After returning to the Jiang family, she framed the adoptive parents who had raised her for ten years and show 4.9kReads8.7Score823Shelves
21. 21 见 Meeting Summer 见夏天 As Always, An'an安安如故Modern Romance254k WordsCompleted Xia Linxi x Tang Yu Xia Linxi is a sophomore with excellent grades and impeccable conduct. Tang Yu is a carefree bar singer. They’re worlds apart, with nothing in common. No one could have imagined that one day the two of them would end up together. In a dark alley, Xia Linxi saw Tang Yu locked in an intimate embrace with a strange woman, but she simply left in silence. She believed the man before her was nothing like the womanizing facade he showed the world. She saw right through him at a glan 1.5kReads8.5Score343Shelves
22. 22 潇 The Late Sound of Drizzling Rain 潇潇雨声迟 Meng Zhiwan孟栀晚Modern Romance120k WordsCompleted Years after graduation, a gossip post begins circulating on the message board for City Experimental School. The school's 2011 beauty, Ye Xiao, and its most handsome boy from the same year, Ruan Yusheng, are a couple. Their classmates, who know them well, rush over to set the record straight: it's pure rumor. There was never any spark between the two of them. Ye Xiao's profile even says, “Person I hate most: Ruan Yusheng.” People in the know go so far as to say, “Ye Xiao feels nothing but hatred 89.5kReads9.7Score14.9kShelves
23. 23 暗 The Sad Little Thing Called Unrequited Love 暗恋这件难过的小事 Meng Zhiwan孟栀晚Modern Romance122k WordsCompleted Lin Xu has a crush on the popular boy Ye Feng, and she remembers countless little details about him. Every day, Lin Xu times her departure down to the second, getting dressed and putting on her shoes in a hurry, all for the chance to catch a fleeting glimpse of his back. The music playing during the long break outside her classroom is Xu Song’s “Moon over Luzhou.” Lin Xu knows it’s the favorite song of Ye Feng, the school radio station’s announcer. Lin Xu has even stayed up all night organizing 70.9kReads9.7Score12.8kShelves
24. 24 我 I Only Took a Peek at Him 我只偷看他一眼 Zhi Jiu枝玖Anime Fanfiction188k WordsCompleted During the speech by the freshman class representative, Chen Nan fell for Lu Xu at first sight, and for the rest of her life. The pink sunset beyond the window filled the entire sky, like a beautiful landscape painting. The clouds looked drunk, their cheeks flushed with color. Chen Nan held her breath and stole a sidelong glance at Lu Xu. His profile was youthful and striking, and he held his book with perfect posture. A ray of light fell on the yellowed pages, and touched him as well. The dayli 15kReads9.6Score3.5kShelves
25. 25 暗 The Day He Rejected My Confession, He Carried Me Off on the Spot 暗恋被拒绝那天，他当场把我扛走了 Tangerine Sand桔沙18k WordsCompleted The day my secret crush turned me down, he scooped me up and carried me off right then and there. 1.1kReads—Score—Shelves

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    A sadistic sweet story. In the early stage, a woman chases a man and chases her husband at the crematorium to no avail. In the later stage, a man chases a woman and reunites, chases his wife and takes away the heroine in the crematorium. Has the misunderstanding between her and him been solved in this life?

26. 26 她 She Lost Again 她又输了 Yue Jiuzhi月玖枝Modern Romance84k WordsOngoing [Youthful campus romance + secret crush + bad ending] Jiang Nianzhi’s world had always been dark, but luckily, she met Zhou Siheng, who could protect her. She realized she was pretty lucky after all: she’d found her savior, a boy who could keep her safe. It seemed Jiang Nianzhi had lost everything. Everyone hated her except Zhou Siheng. “Can I rely on you from now on?” The boy smiled, gently stroked the girl’s head, and said, “You can.” From then on, Jiang Nianzhi had someone to lean on. But goo 12Reads—Score—Shelves

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    Secret love/campus be article!!! Nice!!! Abuse article!!! [Cry][cry][cry]

27. 27 他 He Kept Summer Hidden 他藏了夏天 Shi Qingyao十清杳Modern Romance210k WordsCompleted That night, the young man slowly bent down, bracing his hands on his thighs so he could look her in the eye. It was as if he were declaring that they stood as equals in matters of the heart. Keeping his voice low, he asked, “Senior, I like you. Do you like me?” Ji An raised her hand to stroke Xu Linxi’s cheek and softly ordered him, “Close your eyes.” Xu Linxi trembled, then obediently lowered his lashes. Ji An’s lips curved into a smile. She placed both hands on either side of his face, rose on 10.4kReads9.1Score2.5kShelves

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    You won't be able to get out of this abuse

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