I Want to Be Emotionally Wrecked. Recommend Books That'll Break My Heart, Preferably Enough to Make Me Lose Ten Pounds 想犯贱，我想要虐到我心疼的书，最好让我暴瘦十斤

1. 1 双 Falling for Each Other 双向沦陷 Qi Wanshan齐晚山Two Male Leads674k WordsCompleted [Older man + both leads’ first love + guiding and raising + redemption + a balanced mix of bittersweet and sweet] Sweet, obedient little quail × sharp-tongued, steady fox Ji Qiyong escaped the palace and stumbled into a brothel, where Qiu Ting’an found him. Seeing the situation, Wen Heng tried to talk him down: “Don’t get angry with the child. You’ve taught him since he was little, and he’s always been so well-behaved and gentle.” “You should reason with him more. If you punish him so harshly ev 3.4kReads9.4Score265Shelves

   Reader note

   It's all about abuse, the main CP is tortured to death, the deputy CP is even more abusive, it's all a master-disciple relationship.

2. 2 暮 Mu Sinan 暮思南 Fish of the Cabbage白菜的鱼Modern Romance264k WordsCompleted Blurb drafted on 2022.10.6. [At last, dawn arrives, and she lies buried in the earth as it breaks.] On her barren, cracked land, he planted sunflowers for her with his own hands. She had been in the dark for so long that she had forgotten what it felt like to be bathed in light. Then one day, she finally found the sun. It shone on her for so long that she foolishly began to think she could make it her own. But she forgot: the sun and she belonged to different worlds. When she was eighteen, s 1.3kReads9.3Score344Shelves

   Reader note

   It's really cruel!!! Each has his or her own method of abuse.

3. 3 她 She Stopped Comforting Him 她不哄他了 Autumn Chill秋日凉Modern Romance308k WordsCompleted A heads-up before you start ❗️: One of the side couples is a gay couple, so please skip this if that bothers you. [The print edition under the same title is now available] [Healing × Love that grows over time × Angsty school romance] Sweet, gentle, well-behaved student × rebellious, handsome bad boy That midsummer seemed hotter than any before. The girl in the graduation photo smiled sweetly, with a boy in a white shirt grinning boldly behind her. They met in midsummer, and parted in midsummer t 105.1kReads9.6Score18.8kShelves
4. 4 你 You Broke Your Promise 你失信了 Shi Qingyao十清杳Modern Romance138k WordsCompleted The acclaimed signature work You Broke Your Promise by popular author Shi Qingyao, now with 40,000 new words of never-before-published content! Sensitive girl Xiang Yu VS golden boy Song Huaishi. I had to play out the whole secret-crush story, so I loved him year after year. It was an ordinary day. Just as she closed her eyes, Xiang Yu suddenly thought of Song Huaishi: Song Huaishi, neat in his clothes and radiating warmth. Song Huaishi at seventeen. Still in his school uniform, he leaned lazily 75.8kReads9.5Score14.5kShelves
5. 5 安 An’an Never Grows Up 安安长不大 Yan Xiaojiu盐小玖Modern Romance163k WordsCompleted He was Xu Shuyan, the top student in his year and the school’s untouchable heartthrob. He was naturally aloof, wanted nothing to do with people, and always kept to himself. One day, in a torrential downpour, with lights blazing all around, he sat quietly on a stool outside the door, drenched to the skin. She couldn’t understand why, so she held an umbrella over him and took him somewhere out of the rain. After that day, she began bringing him breakfast, walking to and from school with him, and d 874Reads9.0Score196Shelves
6. 6 安 An’an, Thinking of You 安安思佑年 Mu Zhixing沐知行Modern Romance276k WordsCompleted [Redemption | Tragic unrequited love | Angsty school romance | Childhood sweethearts] [We grew up, and I lost you too.] They met when they were ten. A little girl covered in mud met a little boy as warm as sunshine. At twenty-two, Cheng An still wanted to ask, “Lin You Nian, did you ever like me?” She still remembered every word he had said: “When you're in a bad mood, eat some candy.” “Let's both try for City No. 1 High School.” “We'll grow up together.” “Work hard to make your dreams come true 240Reads8.5Score—Shelves
7. 7 玫 Rose and Lychee Candy 玫瑰荔枝糖 The Late Moon Sets Over the Western Hills晚月落至西山Modern Romance113k WordsCompleted [Love at First Sight, Two Academic Stars] [Tsundere Demon King x Tough Little Airhead] [If They Both Die, It’s a Happy Ending] On the first day of school, Lu Ziyao fell in love with Shi Nian at first sight. All Lu Ziyao remembered was that the weather was beautiful that day, so beautiful he couldn’t remember it clearly, because he had met her. The boy approached her cautiously, afraid of frightening the girl he liked. He just didn’t know that once you get close to some things, they can stay with 48Reads6.7Score—Shelves
8. 8 深 The Black Moonlight in the Abyss 深渊中的黑月光 Tao Tao Tao Peach Ya陶陶陶桃子吖Modern Romance406k WordsCompleted [Gentle, steadfast little white flower × obsessive, lovesick madman] Su Mianmian liked a boy for five years, and was bullied for those same five years. What helped her endure those difficult days was a ray of light shining into her dark life. Only when they finally met in person did she learn that the boy she had loved for five years was the very person who had dragged her into the abyss. Seeing his demonic face, she ran. She deleted every way to contact her bully, thinking that once she made it 7.1kReads8.8Score585Shelves

   Reader note

   The first book is guaranteed to torture you to death [smile] The second book is when Chen Shuya wrote "I like you" on the last page of his draft book. It was Cheng Kai who replied that I like you too. It was him who died saving a child just after we got together, and it was her who went to find Cheng Kai... "I say autumn is better than spring." "Autumn has been sad and lonely since ancient times." In the third book, the heroine was bullied on campus, and the person who bullied her was the person she liked online. She didn't like her anymore, but he wouldn't let her go, and kept forcing her and even killed her relatives. At the end of the story, he died, and she was killed for seeking justice. In the fourth book, the heroine kept trying to save him in order to stop the cycle. He knew how to bewitch, and his grandmother said it was a curse. As long as she was around, he would always be in pain, so she chose to save him, but the result...

9. 9 任 The Mission Starts Over a Hundred Times 任务重来一百次 milieModern Romance20k WordsCompleted “You came to save me, so why can’t you look only at me? Why do you have to give your attention to those one, two, three insignificant people?” “You seem so shy. You never take my hand first. Even just now, you only did it because of someone else.” “Now that you have me, you don’t treat me as well as you used to. There wasn’t any strawberry milk today either, was there?” 9.6kReads8.6Score1.7kShelves
10. 10 他 He Kept Summer Hidden 他藏了夏天 Shi Qingyao十清杳Modern Romance210k WordsCompleted That night, the young man slowly bent down, bracing his hands on his thighs so he could look her in the eye. It was as if he were declaring that they stood as equals in matters of the heart. Keeping his voice low, he asked, “Senior, I like you. Do you like me?” Ji An raised her hand to stroke Xu Linxi’s cheek and softly ordered him, “Close your eyes.” Xu Linxi trembled, then obediently lowered his lashes. Ji An’s lips curved into a smile. She placed both hands on either side of his face, rose on 13.2kReads9.1Score3.1kShelves

    Reader note

    🎉①Under a street lamp, they completed the greatest confession of their lives. And besides each other, only Feng knew about their confession🍀 🎉②There are thousands of ways for people to meet, but fate arranged the worst one for her and him🌼In an unintentional act when she was young, she caused him to lose his closest relative. He hated her to the core, but she secretly promised to accompany him for the rest of his life💫 🎉③All long-lasting love is because of love at first sight🐾 🎉④The girl I liked for ten years got married, and I personally handed her hand to her future partner. The last time I called her name was at her wedding💦

11. 11 暗 Secret Sweet Talk 暗哄 Zhu Yanzhi祝言之Modern Romance251k WordsCompleted She was a girl with aphasia who came first in every exam but couldn’t speak. He was the school’s notorious troublemaker and top student. When they first met, he coaxed her into saying his name, gently encouraging her to speak one step at a time. From school uniforms to wedding dresses, from young love to growing old together. Though they went through many trials along the way, they ultimately found hope again and ended up together. Gu Weiyi once said that Jiang Zhining had spent seven years tea 1.5kReads9.2Score264Shelves
12. 12 他 He Lives in Heaven 他住在天堂里 Paper Eighteen纸十八Modern Romance174k WordsCompleted [Signed for print publication] [He has loved her in secret for ten years, tragic ending + male lead dies of cancer + tearjerker campus romance] “The girl I’ve loved for ten years got married. I personally placed her hand in her future husband’s. The last time I called her by name was at her wedding.” Jiang Chi 618Reads8.4Score177Shelves
13. 13 戎 My Childhood Sweetheart in Uniform, Are You Flirting with Me on Purpose? 戎装竹马，你是不是撩定我了？ Yan Chu燕楚Modern Romance392k WordsCompleted [Sweet Romance, Healing, Redemption, Witty Captain VS Adorable College Student] Creation date: 2021-11-29 Completed: 2022-04-21 This is the story of the eldest brother and his wife. It’s the second book on my profile, and it’s available to read now. Thanks for your support. When a fire broke out, her boyfriend abandoned her. Already with little hope for life, she waited for the flames to consume her. He rushed into the fire in his uniform. They had once been each other’s first love, but when the 890Reads9.2Score102Shelves

    Reader note

    While reading this novel, I lost 6 pounds in three days.

14. 14 蚀 A Love That Cuts to the Bone 蚀骨危情 Qi Lao You淇老游Modern Romance753k WordsCompleted Xia Weiming died, and Shen Xiujin personally sent Jian Tong to a women’s prison. During her three years behind bars, Shen Xiujin’s order to “take good care of her” changed Jian Tong beyond recognition. She was even “persuaded to donate a kidney” while in prison. Before she went in, Jian Tong said, “I didn’t kill her.” Shen Xiujin remained unmoved. After her release, Jian Tong said, “I killed Xia Weiming. I’m guilty.” Shen Xiujin’s face turned livid. “Shut up! Don’t let me hear you say that again 137.5kReads9.2Score9.6kShelves
15. 15 爱 Love Before Dawn 爱意未至黎明 White Duck Boiled in Cold Water冷水煮白鸭11k WordsCompleted Love Before Dawn 1Reads—Score—Shelves

    Reader note

    Policewoman and Drug Lord, Short Abuse Story

Other lists with Falling for Each Other