The Male Protagonist Who Has Symptoms of Self-Mutilation and Suicide, Closes Himself Off and Has No Worries

1 小 After the Young Master Was Reborn, He Just Wanted to Die Frightened Bird into Dream485k WordsCompleted 29.2kReads9.0Score2.9kShelves

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[Crying][Crying]✨"Happy twentieth birthday, Enoch Wen."🎈The day he was diagnosed with terminal leukemia, his family was happily planning an eighteenth birthday party for his younger brother. After hearing the news that he had confirmed that he had terminal leukemia, his parents, brothers, and everyone thought that he was just faking it, that he had bad intentions, and wanted to ruin his younger brother's birthday party. Enoch Wen, who had always been defensive in the past, didn't say a word this time. The night before his brother's birthday was also Wen Enuo's twentieth birthday. Wen Enuo returned to the seaside town where he had lived for eleven years. When the New Year's bell rang, he jumped from the cliff and fell into the dark sea. 🍂—It's nice to be alone, but he never wants to come again.

10 谁 Whose Dog-Licking Male Partner Was Hugged and Kissed by the Male Protagonist? Night Play Dream377k WordsCompleted 95.1kReads9.5Score16.1kShelves

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The first book was super sad. In the first book, the protagonist experienced thousands of small worlds, and finally returned to the original world, only to find that his parents and friends had become a bug and disappeared completely, and then became completely closed. In short, it was very sad. The writing in the second book was also very good, and it was also super sad.

10 分 I Called You After We Broke Up Moss Flower Silk82k WordsOngoing 1.4kReads—Score278Shelves

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Good looking woo woo woo

11 漂 The Beautiful Baby Is so Good at Fishing, It's Time to Die! Cai Cai Wants to Make a Fortune546k WordsCompleted 45.1kReads9.5Score8.8kShelves

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It's really sad and beautiful.

11 把 After Bringing Home My Amnesiac Nemesis Xp Supremacy313k WordsOngoing 7.8kReads5.8Score1.4kShelves

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[Send heart][Send heart][Send heart]

14 鲸 Whale Falls into Abyss Dragon Blows Bubbles39k WordsCompleted 40kReads8.1Score7.5kShelves

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"My name is Yu An... The well-known Yu... Ping An An An..." The male protagonist had a bad life since he was a child. No one loved him when his family died. Later he met a grandmother who was kind to him, but she died when he was five years old. At that time, he rushed into the rain and walked aimlessly and accidentally picked up a little boy. From then on, he made every effort to send him to school and was kind to him. He left all the tenderness to him, and the two depended on each other. Later, because he expressed his love for the younger brother he picked up, the younger brother felt that such feelings were disgusting, so he personally sent the older brother who loved him to JTS. He was violated and tortured every day for two years and 27 days, with countless wounds on his body. Burns and needle holes, not a piece of skin, is good... Later, he was afraid of forgetting these atrocities, and wrote a bloody letter on the bed board... After he got out, he suffered from severe somatization and severe self-mutilation. Death was a happy thing for him... He thought he would escape after getting out, but it turned out not... He couldn't escape at all... Little fish, little fish, swim quickly, freedom in all directions...

15 够 Wild Enough! When Little Crazy Batch Meets Big Crazy Batch, There Is No Way to Escape. It's Two Liang238k WordsCompleted 4.6kReads9.0Score611Shelves

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The protagonist suffers from depression and bipolar disorder, and has a particularly severe tendency to self-harm.

16 小 Kitten Breeding Manual Moss Flower Silk228k WordsCompleted 7.3kReads9.0Score1.1kShelves

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This book is in line with Shou's crush on Gung for 8 years. Gong is a dubbing actor in the circle. He committed suicide and self-mutilation before he knew his ex. I feel so sad when I read it. Shou has no worries and is about to commit suicide again. Gong found out about it. Gong is really gentle. [It's a pity that it's a serial]

20 琢 Zhuo Yun Wooden Masonry236k WordsCompleted 1.1kReads8.6Score224Shelves

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The protagonist was diagnosed with severe depression when he was 14 years old. He committed suicide many times and had many scars on his wrists. His suicide was also discovered several times. The illness was described very realistically. He posted a video on a social platform. The picture showed a small scar on the protagonist's wrist. The text was as follows: [What are freedom and love? I may never have it in my life. The butterfly stayed on my fingertips, and I admired its beauty. A butterfly's life is short, but it is beautiful and free. However, it is a scavenger, and its unbearableness radiates from the soul. But its external beauty made me forget its unbearableness for a moment. I am a bird bound by the innate rules of the world. I open my arms and want to fly freely into the sky, but reality will always hit me hard. The ridicule of language and psychological distortion make me close myself and become a bird locked in a cage for people to play with. From the time he and I met and fell in love, our fate was so unfair that I didn't quite understand it. I am twenty-two years old this year, and my life has been a mess. At the age of thirteen, I began to think about what the meaning of life is. Before I met him, I had been living in a state of confusion. After meeting him, I discovered why there are people in the world who are handsome and have good grades and have an enlightened family. Compared with him, I am like mud under the ground. That winter when my tears burned me to death, I compromised with my dad and left the country. Would he hate me for leaving without saying goodbye, hate me for walking away? Obviously a few months ago we were still telling each other our true feelings. I can't go back and there's no way I can go back. I didn't even have time to say to him, "I love you," before leaving. When I left him, I once wanted to leave him. I had no reason to live, I couldn't contact him, I hated my cowardice, my incompetence, and I hated myself. I was a dry land, but his presence made me rejuvenated. He pulled me out of the abyss countless times, but I had nothing to give him. The heartbeat of youth is pure and passionate, but I don't know how long this heartbeat can last. Maybe it's just young and frivolous. Will he already have a wife and children when I see him again? But he loves me so much, he won't. I don't know either. I wanted to curse him for being the only one, but that would be too selfish. Never mind. As long as he is safe. I don't know if you can watch this video. Today is your birthday, happy birthday. I miss you so much.

21 我 After I Was Exposed by Yang Ma, the Whole Internet Became Depressed Dream Is to Be a ChartererUrban251k WordsCompleted 40.8kReads8.8Score3.8kShelves

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I went, the ending was something I didn't expect. Because most of these novels get better and better later on, but I think this ending is normal. This world has no attachment to him. Death is the real relief for him

22 亲 If You Kiss, You Will Know That You Are Kissing! the Pretty Little Face Turned Red Than Ink Paper and Inkstone278k WordsCompleted 14.5kReads9.4Score2.6kShelves

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The first club is afraid of having low self-esteem and has that tendency to close himself off. The second book Qian Qian is really brave. He has a tendency to be depressed, but his husband saves him~ The third book is sweeter. The fourth book is written by me~

26 万 The Whole Internet Went Viral After Thousands of People Complained About Showing His Face Lemon and Coke448k WordsCompleted 16.7kReads8.3Score1.6kShelves

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🌿🌿A year ago, Xu Mian was rumored to be involved in match-fixing and was boycotted by the entire network, and retired early. His mother was seriously ill and his right hand was partially disabled. He was like a rat crossing the street and was yelled at and beaten by everyone in the e-sports circle for a whole year. Torn between life and death, he struggled to survive: "We have to see him win the championship once." Ling Yanzhou: Xu Mian, the former captain, was silent for a year after being betrayed by his trusted teammates. Now he has reorganized the team and made a comeback, eyeing the PCL Autumn Championship title. When he met Xu Mian again, Ling Yanzhou drank something he shouldn't have... Xu Mian knew that he was dirty, but he still coveted this glimmer of light, until the truth was revealed: "You really make me sick!" Xu Mian was not sad, and even felt relieved. The second before the river water submerged above his head, he luckily muttered to himself: "Fortunately, he has never been in love..." "Fortunately, he hates me to the bone..."

27 清 Qing Leng Beta, Was Forced to Love by Crazy Batch A Kiss the Hot Wind341k WordsCompleted 57.3kReads9.3Score7.5kShelves

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Suffering from depression + avoidant personality

28 滴 Drop! Luxury Experience Card Carrot Terminator416k WordsCompleted 19.3kReads9.5Score3.5kShelves

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These two books are really special and make me cry. After reading these two books, I almost feel autistic. You guys can read them. The scores are quite high.

29 清 The Cool Roommate Is Drunk and Begs for a Hug! the Evil Dog Is so Happy That He Curled His Lips Looking Around350k WordsCompleted 13.5kReads9.5Score2.4kShelves

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The feeling of unworthiness is at the top, being loved is a kind of pain [almost crying] [almost crying], Zisha really cried to death [crying]. ①My life is like spring and scenery ten thousand times. 💜🔥Two male protagonists redeem sweet pets 1v1, ✨cold and self-destructive, beautiful and sick, VS a mouth-disliked, upright and rebellious young man✨, everyone in A knows that Wen Ling is a flower on the high mountain, with cold silver hair, as ice-like as jade, and a ruthless look on her face and eyes when she smiles. The flower is actually dying. Her younger sister died in a car accident and her mother became mentally ill. Wen Ling has been living in the damp and has a serious tendency to self-destruct. 🌸Until one day, I became roommates with the gay and homophobic young master, and I had hope every day to win the SB fight. 🌺 "You are the same-frequency resonance star that I found in the lonely universe. You are the scorching sun that projects warmth when I am stuck in the darkness. You are the one who guides me to step on the moisture and thorns to spring. I feel your vitality, and then I have the courage and strength to live towards death, and flowers bloom from sick bones."

31 眼 The Blind Fake Young Master Is Tired of the World, and the Boss Begs for Favor Pass by on Horseback369k WordsCompleted 12.8kReads9.3Score2.3kShelves

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Genius fell, no nostalgia for this world, committed suicide many times, good-looking (♥∀♥), recommended! ! !

32 用 Singing with All Your Strength, the Whole Network Collapsed and Cried, Begging Me Not to Die Elderly Rice SpoonUrban442k WordsCompleted 17.4kReads9.3Score1.7kShelves

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[Crying] [Crying] [Almost crying] "I made a deal with the gods. I will use the remaining sixty years of my life in exchange for you to live until the flowers bloom on your birthday." 💖Wen He's birthday has also become his memorial day. He warmed many people with his songs, except himself, 🥰 "This world is already cold enough, there must be something to warm the heart."

33 穿 After Dressing Like a Million People, I Went Crazy with My Beauty. Frost Pavilion370k WordsCompleted 32.6kReads9.2Score4.8kShelves

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If you haven't seen it, you've lost a million dollars.

33 【 Silent Fire Ning SixiModern Romance150k WordsCompleted 3.4kReads8.4Score418Shelves

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I just watched it, it fits perfectly! !

35 重 Rebirth: Thousands of People Think That the Real Young Master Is Waiting for Death Mingtang Chunxiao1.4M WordsCompleted 18.7kReads8.9Score1.8kShelves

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It's really a pity that I missed this book. I burst into tears when I read it, but I felt so sad😭

36 疯 Crazy Comment: Once the Hearing Aid Is Removed, It Is Difficult to Guess Whether the Little Stutterer Will Live or Die. Sticky Rice and Pineapple Rice360k WordsCompleted 34.4kReads9.5Score5.9kShelves

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This is originally an EA romance. After E marked A, A couldn't accept it. It felt a bit like forced love. Later, there was a period where A would rather survive the estrus period than accept E's pheromones. That time A took about 50 inhibitors and took a lot of inhibitors. It's the kind that you can't eat until you die, you eat it to the point of death, swallowing it by the handful. Very unloving of myself. A was born as an orphan and had some psychological problems, so he would engage in behaviors such as self-mutilation. And not being able to feel emotions. It's a bit sadistic, but highly recommended.

37 A AKM, Team Xiao, He Fought and Fought for It! Love Eating Potatoes299k WordsCompleted 6.9kReads8.9Score1.5kShelves

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1️⃣☘️ He was judged as a "murderer" by his neighbors and classmates. Fortunately, an old man raised him, but unfortunately he still left him. Once they met, he deliberately cheated, and was abducted home. From then on, he fought side by side with him... 2️⃣☘️ On the surface, he has a gentle and sunny personality, but behind the scenes, he needs to rely on self-mutilation and taking medicine to control him. Fortunately, his online dating partner noticed something was wrong and retired to accompany him for treatment after winning the championship.

39 逃 After My Escape Failed, I Was Ruined [Quick Wear] Fu Shi'an378k WordsOngoing 1kReads9.2Score105Shelves

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There was a bit of a routine in the early stage, but in the later stage, the protagonist started to act a little abnormal when he was imprisoned, and finally died of suicide.

41 娱 The Sickly Beauty in the Entertainment Industry Became Famous After Marrying the Male Lead Tianyuezhou367k WordsCompleted 23kReads9.4Score3.2kShelves

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It's sour and sweet, the knife is inserted a little too close, and it makes my heart sour when I show it to my child... [I'm about to cry]

42 病 After the Sick and Heartless Son Returned to China, the Actor Took Revenge Wildly Nya Valley429k WordsCompleted 12.3kReads—Score1.9kShelves

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I have depression and anxiety, as well as some other mental problems. I have confused memory, stomach problems, and bad lungs. I even had my legs broken and was miserable [crying][crying][crying][crying]

43 硝 The Smoke Is Not Gone Yet, but the Love Is Very Strong Qiu Yiqiu377k WordsCompleted 4.6kReads9.3Score797Shelves

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The first one has traumatic stress, the second one has bipolar disorder [crying]

44 漂 The Beautiful Baby Is Not Understanding, Mr. Huo Is Coaxing Her with Red Eyes Huiyu Xianzhi329k WordsCompleted 4.4kReads8.9Score761Shelves

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[Crying] [crying] Wen Xun suffers from Asperger's syndrome. He stayed with Huo Ziqian for three years, but was ridiculed and ignored by him. After his death, he decided to let go. After Huo Yunyan, who had been secretly in love with Wen Xun for three years, rescued him, he took the opportunity to express his feelings and coaxed him step by step, making Wen Xun open his heart and only pretend to be himself.

45 神 Shenyan Idol, He Just Wants to Survive Crane FeathersModern Romance2.7M WordsOngoing 37.2kReads9.3Score3.5kShelves

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The first two are about the entertainment industry, and the last two are about e-sports.

48 【 Not Redemption Gu Shaotang from BaodaoHistorical1.8M WordsCompleted 5.4kReads6.2Score497Shelves

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The male protagonist was very miserable in the early stage. He was tortured by his mother. His mother really beat him. It was also very miserable when he recognized his biological father in the later period. However, the male protagonist is slowly getting better. He is loved by the emperor's father. It is a story about father and son, and about brothers. There is no CP at the moment. Don't worry, it is not an ordinary routine [Bird Food Master] [Bird Food Master] [Bird Food Master]