Beautiful, Strong but Miserable, Establish a Character, Pretend to Be Very Successful, the Key Point Must Be Strong

I would like to read a book similar to "The Stealing Pen: Pretending to Be Inscrutable but Beautiful, Powerful and Tragic". Beauty and strength coexist, and it is best to suffer from physical pain. This is simply too satisfying. I openly admit that I am pretending and don't like that kind of coquettishness. I hope it is c