Tragic Romance Novels and the Beauty of Bad Endings 虐文小说＋be美学

1. 1 反 The Villainess Kills with Her Beauty 反派她以美貌杀人 Shattered Starlight夜空碎光Ancient Romance355k WordsCompleted (The heroine is a true villain. If you prefer morally upright characters, read with caution.) She was the villain of a book, but she never knew it. But what did that matter? Her beloved was dead. How could those responsible for his death be allowed to live? She toyed with the world in the palm of her hand, laying schemes within schemes and concealing deadly intent at every turn. Her gentle nature and ethereal beauty were both weapons, and no one could stand in the way of her revenge. The person 6.8kReads9.4Score772Shelves

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   💧Salted fish🐟Arrived in the book shortage💫No more panic in the book shortage🤪 💧Ning Qingyun lost her Bai Yueguang. After revenge, she let Zhao Rui live well and stabilize the world, and went to find her Zhou Sheng☹️ 💧Xu Si saw his Jiang Qiao in the dream. In the dream, she did not have advanced gastric cancer, she was still his deskmate, teacher, and white-eyed wolf😫 💧Shen Xun finally waited until her Cheng Li came back, but everyone else knew that everything was just her imagination😭

2. 2 藏 Hidden in Midsummer 藏于盛夏 Autumn Chill秋日凉Modern Romance308k WordsCompleted A heads-up before you start ❗️: One of the side couples is a gay couple, so please skip this if that bothers you. [The print edition under the same title is now available] [Healing × Love that grows over time × Angsty school romance] Sweet, gentle, well-behaved student × rebellious, handsome bad boy That midsummer seemed hotter than any before. The girl in the graduation photo smiled sweetly, with a boy in a white shirt grinning boldly behind her. They met in midsummer, and parted in midsummer t 84.8kReads9.6Score14.8kShelves
3. 3 他 He Is in the South of the Clouds 他在云之南 Jing Xing景行Modern Romance209k WordsCompleted When they first met, he was shrouded in shadow, reeking of blood and violence. He asked her, “Who are you? Where are you from? What are you doing here?” It was a long time before she thought of the true answer: “I'm Shen Xun. I came from the far north to the south of the clouds, to meet the love of my life.” He was her Morpheus, giving her a poppy-like dream of love, bewitching and intoxicating. He captured her soul, clouded her mind, and made her addicted. Like a pawn crossing a river, she went 24.9kReads9.7Score4.9kShelves
4. 4 渣 The Scumbag Can't Have Me, Quick Transmigration 渣男对我求而不得【快穿】 Shui Mu Qing水木青Ancient Romance315k WordsCompleted After a car accident leaves her in a vegetative state, Lin Ruo is forced to bind herself to the Scumbag System and begins a masochistic quest to cling to the scumbag’s coattails. First World The scumbag emperor destroys her family and leaves her to die in a sea of flames in order to seize military power. After she dies, the emperor undergoes a dramatic change in personality and spends more than a decade consumed by regret. Lin Ruo rolls her eyes in disdain. [Scumbag Experience: 10%] Second World 5.4kReads9.1Score472Shelves
5. 5 窥 Seeing Through 窥破 Yi Jiang一姜Modern Romance201k WordsCompleted [The print edition of Farewell Ceremony is now available on all major platforms.] [Reclusive, cold, troubled girl × possessive, hot-tempered young rogue] Wan Li pressed her fingerprints ten times, and from then on, lost her heart. “Tsk, it's not like you're signing a contract. Don't be nervous.” The young man raised an eyebrow slightly, a smile tugging at his lips. Everyone said Ji Lanzhuo was a dissolute playboy no one could control. Wan Li wasn't afraid. She threw herself in headfirst and fell 2.2kReads9.3Score317Shelves

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   These are all be aesthetics, they are all worth watching, and the ending is hard to wrap your head around.

6. 6 你 You Broke Your Promise 你失信了 Shi Qingyao十清杳Modern Romance138k WordsCompleted The acclaimed signature work You Broke Your Promise by popular author Shi Qingyao, now with 40,000 new words of never-before-published content! Sensitive girl Xiang Yu VS golden boy Song Huaishi. I had to play out the whole secret-crush story, so I loved him year after year. It was an ordinary day. Just as she closed her eyes, Xiang Yu suddenly thought of Song Huaishi: Song Huaishi, neat in his clothes and radiating warmth. Song Huaishi at seventeen. Still in his school uniform, he leaned lazily 64.3kReads9.5Score12.1kShelves
7. 7 也 Perhaps There Was Once Light in the Deep Sea 也许深海曾有光 Ding Huaijin丁怀瑾Modern Romance75k WordsCompleted After an earthquake, young Jiang Ning began living with Song Ao, her younger brother by neither blood nor marriage, who had autism. In Song Ao’s world, Jiang Ning became his only splash of color. Years later, Jiang Ning was surprised to discover that her new boss was Shen Fang, the school heartthrob she had harbored innocent feelings for in her youth. At the same time, though, she sensed that her relationship with Song Ao was gradually changing, blurring the line between family love and romance. 517Reads9.3Score120Shelves
8. 8 最 The Royal Family Is Truly Heartless 最是皇室无情人 Xia Xiaoli夏小礼Ancient Romance50k WordsCompleted For generations, the Mu family had loyally served the country. In the end, their entire clan was sentenced to execution. The official presiding over the execution was her husband, the most brilliant and extraordinary of the Great Jing Kingdom's Third Princes. Then she awoke to the truth: The man she loved was a member of the royal family, the most heartless people in the world... 853Reads7.0Score116Shelves
9. 9 江 The Realm Is Yours, I Return to My Homeland 江山归你，我归故国 Poetic Affections韫情诗意Ancient Romance512k WordsCompleted Synopsis: [Love at first sight + love unrequited + possessive forced marriage + tragic beauty + devoted to one another, both leads are sexually inexperienced] She is a beloved and honored princess, and he is a mighty general with countless victories to his name. She thought their lives would never cross, but after one breathtaking glimpse, he falls for her at first sight and uses his military power to force her to marry him. As a princess of the realm, she knows she has no freedom to choose whom 326Reads8.4Score—Shelves
10. 10 燕 Where the Swallows Return, We Must Not Meet Again 燕归处，莫相逢 Mi Yuwangtu靡御忘荼Ancient Romance52k WordsCompleted Her name was Jun Mo. She had spent her life on horseback and on the battlefield, battle-hardened, bold, and arrogant. He was the person she loved most, and her only weakness. She feared he might get hurt if she so much as held him in her palm, and feared he might melt if she kept him in her mouth. But a weakness is itself a poisoned blade. At first, the pain is not fatal. In the end, the fatal wound no longer hurts. No one knew that later, amid the bitter winter snow, some people were only acti 459Reads8.7Score—Shelves
11. 11 一 One Man, One Minister 一人臣 All of You, Get Out of My Sight都给朕退下Ancient Romance88k WordsCompleted In everyone’s eyes, Ji Ya was a brutal, debauched empress. To the great general Mo Lengzun, she was also a scheming, selfish, and sinister villain! But none of them knew she was terminally ill and had little time left... Everything she did was for the people of Donghao. Even as she died, everyone still hated her... 323Reads8.8Score—Shelves

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    An ancient short story, Be, abuse. The heroine is an emperor. After learning that she is seriously ill, she begins to plan step by step. Step by step, the male protagonist becomes disgusted with her, hates her, rebels against her, and kills her. Just to hand over the country to his hands smoothly. She is not sentimental and simply takes a fancy to the male protagonist's world-wide ambition and talent. In the end, she sacrificed her head so that the male protagonist could successfully ascend to the throne of God...

12. 12 以 I Offer My Devotion to the Passing Years 以我深情祭岁月 Er Qiao二乔Modern Romance324k WordsCompleted [The physical book with the same title is now available] “I hesitated once. I turned back to face the slightest glimmer of hope, yet no one cared.” “Later, a thick fog rolled in. You said you loved me so much, but why was your love thinner than the fog, so faint I could barely see it?” Shen Nian 71.6kReads9.4Score6.4kShelves
13. 13 他 He Says He Can't Forget Me 他说对我念念不忘 Iron Bull Scatters Flowers铁牛散花Modern Romance342k WordsCompleted [Mature, capable detective × gorgeous flower shop owner] [Protective, fatherly type / reunion / mutual devotion / angsty romance / both leads are inexperienced / happy ending] Five years ago, Lin Mumu chose to leave without a word after her family went through a sudden upheaval. Gu Jie, her boyfriend, never stopped searching for her. Five years later, Captain Gu, now a detective, finally finds Lin Mumu at the B City Public Security Bureau. They have barely had time to savor the sweetness of thei 45Reads6.8Score—Shelves

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    This book is truly a masterpiece. There are no abusive words in the whole text, but... The abuse is very real.

14. 14 病 Before the Withered Tree 病树前头 Chang'an Yan Luo长安颜洛Modern Romance34k WordsCompleted People experience joy and sorrow, parting and reunion; the moon waxes and wanes. Few things in this world are ever perfect. How many different kinds of people will you encounter in your life? Lan is the most important person to Lin Ruofu, yet Lan says she's merely a passerby in her life. I just threw this blurb together, so please don't let it put you off. Give the story a chance. 6Reads—Score—Shelves

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    "Zhou Nan's Huang Liang Yi Meng" The female protagonist commits suicide. Because the male protagonist's father indirectly caused it, the male protagonist is disheartened and breaks up with the family. However, his sister is left in the handsome man's house because he does not want her to lose the dignity of a daughter and wants her to live a good life. However, the male protagonist's sister is now a commoner and later went back because of some things. But the male protagonist does not know that he has traveled all over the world to look for her. This This is a double blow. The male protagonist once wanted to commit suicide, but he made many friends in the process of looking for his sister. When he was about to say goodbye to them and go to other places, he ran into Japanese soldiers. Almost the entire village was massacred. The male protagonist pulled a cart to bury everyone by himself, and then fell to the ground tired. He said that my life is like tasting Chinese medicine, bitter and astringent. "In Front of the Sick Tree" has two female protagonists from the Republic of China. One is named Lu Yulan and the other is Lin Ruofu. Lin was named by Lu Chong, hoping that she would be an upright and kind person, but Lu is the daughter of a warlord and lives with guilt all day long. One day, she almost set herself on fire in her room. She didn't call anyone, but Lin found out about it. Lu was a member of the Jinchuan people. After the war broke out, he sent Lin abroad and his father to recuperate. He planned a way out for everyone, but he didn't think about himself. He joined the revolution and was betrayed to death by a traitor. Lu left a letter to Lin. One part of it said: "I will live in peace and prosperity first, and then enjoy rich food and clothing. Only you, my Aruo, will be miserable in your life. I only hope that you will be carefree, free from illness and pain in the following days." "There is also an actor whom Lu helped, but there was a brother in his troupe who was studying in Shanghai and getting married. The actor's name was Zhao Jiuan, who was also chosen by Lu. He hoped that he would be safe for a long time in troubled times, but at that time Lu I didn't know they went to Shanghai, but when I found out, it was too late. During the war, I went to Shanghai South Station and the man was killed. Zhao Jiuan survived. He didn't dare to go back. He didn't know how to explain to his brother, so he dragged his useless hand and made his brother think that both of them were dead. Then he found a time to throw a grenade into the Japanese military parade. However, after throwing the grenade, Zhao Jiuan was shot on the spot, but only three Japanese soldiers were injured. What Zhao Jiuan did is a prototype.

15. 15 许 I Promise You a Love as Deep as the Sea 许你深情深似海 The Years Since We Parted此去经年Two Male Leads51k WordsCompleted Luo Ji was a ray of light in Shen Yi’s dark childhood. But after Shen Ge ruthlessly stole that light away, it became the arrow that wounded him most deeply. One misunderstanding, three years of torment, and everyone took their turn trampling him until he was utterly ruined. When Luo Ji finally learned the truth, he held his battered heart close and stopped believing in love. Shen Yi: “Once you’re dead, I won’t love you anymore.” 429Reads8.4Score104Shelves

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    They are all cruel. The third one is really sad. After Shou finally compromised for a while, the relationship with Gong eased a bit, and then committed suicide in front of Gong. It was really sad.

16. 16 怎 How Could I Love Him? My Heart Shattered to Pieces 怎会爱他，心碎成渣 Flowing Wind流风Two Male Leads50k WordsCompleted Blurb: Three years after their breakup, he runs into his ex-boyfriend at a bar, and, as if that weren't enough, the vice squad shows up too!? Is life even worth living anymore? Wen Shi flips the table, only to be devoured again and again by his former sugar daddy. “Why is your hand crippled?” his ex-boyfriend asks later, staring at his oversized paw. “Ancient history. Let's not bring it up!” “What about me?” “We're even. I hope we never see each other again!” 51Reads6.2Score—Shelves
17. 17 鸩 A Cup of Poisoned Wine, and Drunk with You 鸩酒一杯与君醉 Flowing Wind流风Two Male Leads60k WordsCompleted Blurb: When they first met, he was a subject, and he risked his life to take a sword meant for the other man. Later, that man became emperor, wiped out his entire family, stripped away his pride, and forcibly kept him by his side. He waited, full of hope, for his elder brother to return victorious, but all he received was a cold corpse. In the end, he drank poison in front of everyone, smiling like a spring breeze. “Your Majesty, I offer my life as the price of regicide. May you live for all ete 1.4kReads8.0Score164Shelves
18. 18 宫 The Willow by the Palace Wall 宫墙柳 Dream Doll梦娃Ancient Romance166k WordsCompleted Why must the imperial consorts compete for the emperor’s favor? A smash-hit, heart-wrenching historical romance that burst onto the scene in 2019! Recommended by countless tearful readers, this unconventional palace-intrigue novel will stay with you long after you finish. In the lightest of styles, it captures everyone’s deepest regrets. In May of the year I turned fourteen, with the pagoda trees in fragrant bloom, I sat in Yong’an Palace, propping up my head as I dozed. The man’s laughter held 55.5kReads9.7Score8.2kShelves

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    I really recommend the first book, there is no intrigue, only sisters, very plain, like living an ordinary life, watching people around me leave one by one, and get married one by one. Fortunately, Xiao Liu'er's heart was only moved for three days. Unfortunately, Xiao Liu'er was only moved by three days at her best age. She is not Jiao Jiao'er, she is Xiao Liu'er. Everyone around her is concerned, and she is good to everyone, but she is not worried.

19. 19 伴 Accompanied by Smoke 伴烟 Laba Coconut腊八椰子Ancient Romance106k WordsCompleted [Naive, Wild Girl x Gentle Scholar + Happy Ending] She loved him, so she ran to him with all the courage she could muster. Liu Yunzhi treated her wonderfully, caring for her and asking after her, soothing her to sleep at night, reading to her whenever he had time, stroking her slightly rounded belly, and discussing baby names with her. She lost herself in it, deceiving herself as she sank into the gentle web he had woven, dreaming that they would be the only two in each other’s lives forever. Bu 2.2kReads9.3Score219Shelves

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    Regardless of whether it is the past life or this life, if you die, I will naturally not live alone. You leaving me alone is the biggest punishment for me. Such words make me envious. I still remember that he said, "I have a girlfriend. She is 18. If she were still here, she would be 21 like me." In the end, he couldn't love her. It is normal in the world to love without being able to get it. It is nothing. Having a crush on someone makes you unqualifiedly jealous. The truth and beauty of youth are mixed with greenness and sourness.

20. 20 何 Summer of He 何夏 Chi Yufu池玉扶Modern Romance208k WordsCompleted A short story about the bittersweet taste of young love. Xia Ge never knew what it felt like to have a crush until she met He Yi. Then she discovered that love could be so unreasonable. Every accidental glance was proof that Xia Ge’s heart was fluttering. She gave him a love poem made from foxtail grass. I’m sorry. I fell for you in secret without asking your permission. Xia Ge had seen him give roses to another girl. She had also seen him kiss a girl beneath an umbrella on a night of pouri 494Reads8.4Score—Shelves
21. 21 暗 The Sad Little Thing Called Unrequited Love 暗恋这件难过的小事 Meng Zhiwan孟栀晚Modern Romance122k WordsCompleted Lin Xu has a crush on the popular boy Ye Feng, and she remembers countless little details about him. Every day, Lin Xu times her departure down to the second, getting dressed and putting on her shoes in a hurry, all for the chance to catch a fleeting glimpse of his back. The music playing during the long break outside her classroom is Xu Song’s “Moon over Luzhou.” Lin Xu knows it’s the favorite song of Ye Feng, the school radio station’s announcer. Lin Xu has even stayed up all night organizing 70.9kReads9.7Score12.8kShelves

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    "The songs of summer nights and the songs of winter solstice are all passing over the water, wrinkled by a layer of ripples, like tears falling from the sky, and returning to the sky. Some words people casually say fall into the corner, unable to be blown away by the wind, unable to be burned away by the sun, and they sleep alone."

22. 22 暮 Mu Sinan 暮思南 Fish of the Cabbage白菜的鱼Modern Romance264k WordsCompleted Blurb drafted on 2022.10.6. [At last, dawn arrives, and she lies buried in the earth as it breaks.] On her barren, cracked land, he planted sunflowers for her with his own hands. She had been in the dark for so long that she had forgotten what it felt like to be bathed in light. Then one day, she finally found the sun. It shone on her for so long that she foolishly began to think she could make it her own. But she forgot: the sun and she belonged to different worlds. When she was eighteen, s 1.5kReads9.3Score325Shelves
23. 23 从 I Missed You in Your World 从你的世界错过 Bai Zhuojun白濯君Modern Romance507k WordsCompleted Xia Qianya has blood cancer and doesn't have long to live, so Sheng Tingmo takes all his resentment out on An Yuexi. If An Yuexi hadn't driven Qianya away through underhanded means four years ago, Qianya would already be his wife. She stole the happiness that should have belonged to Qianya, leaving her to die with regrets, so Sheng Tingmo hates her! So he embarked on a series of acts of revenge: bankrupting her family, sending her father to prison, and tormenting her both physically and emotiona 76Reads8.2Score—Shelves
24. 24 弱 After My Intellectually Disabled Big Brother Took My Place in the Marriage, His IQ Soared to 208, and I Became the CEO's Wife 弱智大哥替婚后，智商狂飙208，我直接当总裁夫人 Quan Xin荃昕11k WordsCompleted After my intellectually disabled older brother married in my place, his IQ skyrocketed to 208, and I became the CEO's wife 4Reads—Score—Shelves
25. 25 跟 After I Divorced Her, My Ex-Wife Went Crazy with Regret 跟我离婚后，前妻后悔疯了 Quan Xin荃昕10k WordsCompleted After Divorcing Me, My Ex-Wife Went Crazy with Regret 729Reads—Score—Shelves
26. 26 许 May I Grant You Eternal Life? 许你长生，好不好 Meow Meow, the Short One喵喵大人寸不高Ancient Romance339k WordsCompleted I lived for more than two hundred years. When he was young, I helped him and saved his life. I lived through his hardships, his sorrow, and his despair alongside him. Back then, I thought of him only as a poor soul who shared my suffering. But in return, he made sure I never had a moment's peace. He lied to me, hid things from me, deceived me, and hurt me. He suspected me, stalked me, violated me against my will, and forced me to marry him. He even harmed the most important people in my life. I 3Reads—Score—Shelves

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    This novel is definitely underrated. The further you read, the more sad it gets. You can't even find sugar among the shards of glass.

27. 27 与 Parting from You in This Life 与君生别离 Quite Possibly a Monster很可能是妖怪Ancient Romance17k WordsCompleted Parting from You in This Life 27Reads—Score—Shelves

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    For those who want to cry, these are two ancient proverbs that are abusive. Those who love reading ancient proverbs must try these two articles [Chigua]

28. 28 帝 The Emperor's Lament 帝王之殇 Quite Possibly a Monster很可能是妖怪Ancient Romance12k WordsCompleted The Emperor's Tragedy 432Reads—Score—Shelves
29. 29 蚀 A Love That Cuts to the Bone 蚀骨危情 Qi Lao You淇老游Modern Romance753k WordsCompleted Xia Weiming died, and Shen Xiujin personally sent Jian Tong to a women’s prison. During her three years behind bars, Shen Xiujin’s order to “take good care of her” changed Jian Tong beyond recognition. She was even “persuaded to donate a kidney” while in prison. Before she went in, Jian Tong said, “I didn’t kill her.” Shen Xiujin remained unmoved. After her release, Jian Tong said, “I killed Xia Weiming. I’m guilty.” Shen Xiujin’s face turned livid. “Shut up! Don’t let me hear you say that again 96.4kReads9.2Score6.6kShelves

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    Very pretty, really

30. 30 夫 Madam, President Yan Deserves to Die a Thousand Deaths! 夫人，颜总罪该万死啊！ Die Die Qing Cai蝶蝶青菜Modern Romance419k WordsCompleted Bai Wanxi killed someone. Yan Qingyun personally sent her to a psychiatric hospital. When she got out, all she had left was a disabled body. Yan Qingyun still wouldn’t leave her alone. “I want you to live as a prisoner and spend the rest of your life atoning to me.” “I’m a murderer. I’m guilty, and I’m willing to accept my punishment,” she said indifferently. He flew into a rage. “Bai Wanxi, I’ll make your filthy soul burn in hell.” She thought the psychiatric hospital was the eighteenth level o 678Reads8.4Score—Shelves

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    It's so cruel that no one dares to watch it. Everyone cried after watching it.

31. 31 零 All Things Return to Dust 零落归尘 This Author Has No Pen Name该作家没有笔名Mystery668k WordsCompleted [Fantasy Romance / Tearjerker / Fate / Light Ensemble Cast] This is not a power fantasy, nor does it follow the usual tropes. There is no harem and no mindless heroine. A long-form mystery, with a light ensemble cast in the early chapters and the main plot taking center stage later. The setup takes its time, and the main story is heartbreaking, so reader discretion is advised. When sorrow congeals into an eternal night, and fate is ground to dust by the passage of time, can you still pick up th 52Reads8.8Score—Shelves

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    No routine, no brains, no harem, be aesthetics, everything is just for the final be! A strong sense of fate, as sweet as it is in the early stage, it will be as powerful as it is in the later stage! Super tear-jerking and super sad! [Crying] If the price of meeting you is to fall into eternal silence, then I am willing to wither along with this vast time and space. If you are destined to be unable to keep your faith and rely on each other in this life, then I am willing to perish with you and spend thousands of years of death together.

32. 32 烬 Ashen Bones, Passionate Embrace 烬骨合欢 Yu Yuan钰芫Ancient Romance150k WordsCompleted I still remember the years when we were children, laughing and talking without end, close as we played in the courtyard with its swings. We shared sour plums, and leaned together by the pine-framed window through many a spring. Now each of us has grown old in a different corner of the world, yet still searches for warmth on the page. Sometimes I turn to the verses on red leaves, and we look at each other, recalling old tearstains. The first ten years of Jiang Wanqing’s life were blissfully happy 141Reads—Score—Shelves

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    When the Dongzhu on the phoenix crown fell off, the white-headed chant played by Hujia was heard from the border.

33. 33 霸 Possessive Love Addiction: Mr. Fu's Prisoner in the Palm of His Hand 霸爱成瘾，傅总的掌心囚 Brush in Hand, Blushing Gently执笔染轻颜Modern Romance6.1M WordsOngoing After a car accident, she was declared the culprit, and Fu Yanchen personally sent her to prison. Three years behind bars left her timid and insecure, but Fu Yanchen still wouldn't let her go. He kept her imprisoned by his side and subjected her to endless torment. Eventually, she vanished without a trace. Only then did the man panic. 11kReads7.5Score527Shelves

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    ; Abuse. . . .

34. 34 蝶 Butterfly Shadows Return to Dust: My Husband's Enemy Seizes Me by Force 蝶影归尘：丈夫的的仇人对我强娶豪夺 Ni Ah Ni Ge Ni氼啊氼个氼15k WordsCompleted Butterfly Shadows Return to Dust: My Husband's Enemy Forces Me into Marriage 25Reads—Score—Shelves

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    Title: "Butterfly Shadow Returns to Dust"|I am Xiao Qihao, the only person I have ever loved in my life hates me until my death [almost crying][crying][almost crying] They say I am the most hateful person in this book. I admit it. I, Xiao Qihao, have done too many unforgivable things in my life - I destroyed my eldest brother's family business, took away his wife, and imprisoned her in another courtyard while she was pregnant. I said I loved her, but my hands were hurting her. I know you are all scolding me. But I still want to tell you my story. I hate Zhang Zhiming. I have hated him since I was sensible. Zhang Zhiming is also the son of the Zhang family. He is the eldest son. He was held in the palm of his mother's hand since he was a child. He studied the books of sages and engaged in serious business. He was respected as "young master" wherever he went. And what about me? I am the illegitimate son of my father, and I don't even deserve the surname "Zhang". My mother's surname is Xiao. I grew up living under the influence of others and being criticized by others. It's not that I don't have the ability. I am both civilized and martial, in terms of scheming, means, and brains, how can I not compare to him, Zhang Zhiming? But just because I am an illegitimate child, I will always be inferior to him. He was nice to me - do you know how hateful that kind of kindness is? He gave me business as a charity. He was polite to me out of mercy. I would rather he hate me than act like a brother and be nice to me. I thought the person I hated the most in my life was Zhang Zhiming. Until I met her. The first time I met Lin Die'er, I went crazy. She is my eldest brother's wife. A daughter of a famous family, with picturesque features and proud appearance. When I first saw her in Zhang's Mansion, she was sitting by the pond in a daze. She didn't know how good-looking she was - there was a kind of innocence in her brows and eyes, and there was also a stubbornness that refused to bow down after being hurt. I knew at that moment that I wanted her. It's not that I want to, it's that I have to. It's the kind of necessity that if you don't get it, your life will be meaningless. I began to secretly spy on everything about her. When she goes to the rouge shop, when she comes back, when she sits alone by the pond in a daze - I know everything. I am like a mouse hiding in the dark, greedily collecting every frame of her. The more I watched, the more jealous I became. Zhang Zhiming why? Why should he have her? Isn't he destined to be well? He could have her openly, he could stand by her side, he could comfort her when she was angry, he could hold her in his arms when she cried. And what about me? I would avoid even looking at her from a distance. And I can clearly see that she doesn't love him. She made sarcastic remarks to him, made trouble with him at every turn, and even forced him to take a concubine. If she really loved him, how could she push him into the arms of another woman? So I thought, since she doesn't love him, why can't she be replaced by me? Once this idea takes root, it can never be uprooted. I swear, I must snatch her away from Zhang Zhiming. No matter what means are used, no matter how long it takes. At that time, I will love her in every possible way and let her know what is truly cherished. She will definitely fall in love with me. I used the most despicable means to get her, but I could never win her heart. I bribed Zhang Zhiming's partners and ruined his business. The Zhang family collapsed and Zhang's mother was desperate. I bought her with only a sum of money. She was imprisoned by me in another courtyard. I told myself that it didn't matter, as long as she was by my side, and she didn't love Zhang Zhiming anyway. But I was wrong. The night I forced her, she gritted her teeth and didn't cry. She opened her eyes on the bed and stared at the ceiling without falling a single tear. I suddenly panicked - I would rather she cry, I would rather she make a fuss, I would rather she lose her temper with me like she did with Zhang Zhiming. But she didn't. She just looked at me with that empty, dead look in her eyes. That was the first time I felt scared. Later, she became pregnant. I thought the child was mine. I thought that after having the child, she would accept her fate and slowly accept me. I devoted everything I had to being kind to her, making the other house exquisite and warm, collecting her favorite snacks and jewelry, and staying by her side every day. I even began to think that when the child was born, I would ask her to forgive her and let us live a good life as a family of three. She really wasn't resisting anymore. She became docile and allowed me to hold her and kiss her. Sometimes I even think she is about to fall in love with me. But what I didn't know was that the reason why she stopped resisting was just to keep the child in her belly. The child she wanted to protect at all costs. Sleeping until midnight, she called another man's name in my arms, "Zhiming..." Those two words were so soft, as soft as whispering in sleep. But I heard it. She was in my arms, sleeping on my bed, with my child in her belly - but she was dreaming about another man. It's not hate, it's not resentment, it's the kind of dependence that is engraved in her bones that even she herself refuses to admit. My whole body froze there, as if someone had stabbed me. It turned out that she had never forgotten him. It turns out that all I did was give her a sigh in her dream. That man didn't even have to be there to make me lose my shit. I stared at her sleeping face and suddenly felt that all my paranoia and possessiveness were like a joke. I leaned down, put my lips against her ear, and said: "It doesn't matter. It doesn't matter who you call in your dream. You can only lie next to me in this life." But only I knew that my heart was bleeding. Later I became addicted to opium and tried to numb myself with opium. I was sent to quit smoking by my mother, and during my absence, my mother sold her to Yihongyuan. When I came back, she was gone. I searched for her like crazy and searched the whole city, but I couldn't find even a scrap of her clothes. For the rest of my life, I was stuck in the obsession of finding her, living in a muddle. I could only hold the child I thought was Ping'er's child in the palm of my hand, name him Yi'an, and do my best to be good to him. I didn't know until my death that Yi An was her and Zhang Zhiming's biological flesh and blood. And the silver necklace she left for Yi'an was hidden in the swaddling clothes, and I had never found it. After hearing the news of her death, I locked myself in my room for three whole days. I searched for, waited for, and obsessed over for several years. I even began to imagine that when I found her, I would kneel in front of her and beg her for forgiveness. I don't expect her to love me, as long as she allows me to stay with her, even if I just look at her from a distance. But what I was waiting for was the news of her death. The woman I loved to the core and couldn't get enough of, the woman who ruined half my life and was ruined by me, is gone forever. She died on the battlefield, taking a bullet for another man. She used her own life to repay that man's kindness. But what about me? I don't even have the qualifications to be hated by her. I held the golden butterfly hairpin she had left behind in another courtyard. It was one of the two things she had with her when she was taken away. I sat there holding it for three days and three nights, thinking of what she once said to me. She said, "I'm just your trophy." No. No. Die'er, I love you because you are who you are. It's not Zhang Zhiming's wife, it's not someone's accessory, it's not some trophy. It's just Lin Die'er, just Lin Die'er. But I will never have the chance to tell you this. I have hated Zhang Zhiming all my life. But in the final analysis, what I hate is not him, but myself who can never compare to him. I'm jealous of his reputation, his family fortune, and his uprightness - but what I'm most jealous of is that he has you. I love Lin Dieer all my life. But my love is twisted, paranoid, and destructive. I love you, so I destroy you. I used the most despicable means to get your person, but I will never get your heart. This is the punishment given to me by fate. I admit it. Later I quit smoking and devoted all my thoughts to the war of resistance. The money I saved and the connections I made over the years were all turned into supplies shipped to the front line. I taught Yi'an how to read and write, taught him to be patriotic and good, and spent his whole life making up for the sins he committed back then. But I know that these are far from enough. What I owe her will never end in this lifetime. If... If people really have a next life. I won't do this again. I will stand in front of you cleanly and tell you in an upright way - Lin Die'er, my name is Xiao Qihao. I am not an illegitimate child, no one's shadow, and no one's substitute. I'm just a person who wants to love you well. Even if you still choose the man with the square face and thick eyebrows. Even if you never look at me again. As long as you are happy, that's enough. Written at the end: Why should you read this book? This is my story and her story. It is also the appearance of all living beings in that troubled world who cannot help themselves. If you want to know why a villain becomes a villain, if you want to know how twisted a person can be for love, if you want to know what happens when paranoia, jealousy and affection are intertwined - calm down and read slowly. This book will tell you the answer. "Butterfly's Shadow Returns to Dust" The wind and moon in the world cannot wait for us to stay together forever. The butterfly's shadow returns to dust, and there is no time to wait for its return.

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    Bewen is so cruel that it hurts my heart. .

37. 37 原 Forgive Me for Not Being Able to Stay by Your Side for Life 原谅我不能伴你一生 A Fish Belonging to a Little Sheep一只小羊的鱼Two Male Leads279k WordsCompleted When they were children, Fu Nianmo saved Li Qingyun, who was also just a child. With nothing but youthful passion, he managed to break into Li Qingyun's already shattered heart. “Xiao Mo, you're the best Xiao Mo in the whole world, one of a kind, and the person I love most.” “Protecting you has become instinct.” Fu Nianmo grew old and frail. “Brother Qingyun, I really love you so much.” “How could you bear to leave me?” “I was wrong. Please come back, okay?” “Brother Qingyun, are you angry w —Reads—Score—Shelves

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    A story about two male protagonists who were abused when they were young. They broke their promise twice and the last time became a tragedy.

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