Give Me Angst, Wreck Me. If I Don’t Cry, I’ll Be Disappointed

102 只 I Only Have One Month Left to Live, and People All over the World Are Calling Me to Die. Dad Uncle QiUrban385k WordsCompleted 14Reads5.8Score—Shelves

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"No moment is wasted ୧⍢⃝୨" ①The protagonist, the cancer man, gets up again and continues. Although the world in the beginning is exaggerated and unrealistic, that is, most people misunderstood him and treated him badly, the logic makes sense. Anyway, it is very sad. It is not recommended to read it at night😭 ②The second and third books are all written by the same author, with similar styles. They are both stories about people falling in love in different time periods. They are acquaintances but cannot recognize each other. After all, they are just a dream. ③Zhuang Zhou Mengdie, this is the name of the two protagonists. They are both short-lived. They encountered the same situation in the saddest days, but they are lively and cheerful🦋, sweet. The heroine is simply the salvation of the hero🥰🥰

106 零 All Things Return to Dust This Author Has No Pen NameMystery668k WordsCompleted 56Reads8.8Score—Shelves

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What is the ultimate be? Is it an inescapable fate; or is the rekindled hope extinguished again? Did I finally forgive you, but you died in front of me; or am I willing to sacrifice everything for the people I care about and sink in eternity? Are those who love each other unable to say goodbye even before death; or are they willing to follow in your footsteps and endure a thousand years of silence together?

108 堕 Fallen into the Abyss, Unaware of the Pain of Parting Luo Li Nan WeiEastern Fantasy161k WordsCompleted 322Reads5.8Score—Shelves

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You will definitely cry if you are crazy about swordsmanship

109 吻 Kiss Her Memories Jun ShangyeModern Romance42k WordsOngoing —Reads5.8Score—Shelves

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It's a sadistic movie, I suggest you watch it with your girlfriend, there will be surprises

110 有 A Breeze Blows By Xiao JiModern Romance207k WordsCompleted 209Reads9.4Score—Shelves

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115 蝶 Butterfly Shadow Returns to Dust: I Was Sold into Prostitution by My Mother-In-Law, and My Ex-Husband Has Been Looking for Me for Ten Years Ah55k WordsCompleted 226Reads8.7Score—Shelves

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Thoughts after reading: In the misplaced time difference, it is difficult to reconcile who fulfills whose wishes. After reading this "Butterfly Shadow Returns to Dust", I sat for a long time late at night, speechless. It's not that I have nothing to say, it's that I have so much to say that I don't know where to start. This is not a "pleasant" story. It is sticky, heavy, and depressing, like clothes that never dry during the rainy season in the south of the Yangtze River. But it is this stickiness, this heaviness, this breathless sense of fate that makes it so thick as the "ceiling of abuse literature in the Republic of China." It's not torturing you, it's gouging you out - gouging you out slowly and painfully, making you feel pain but unable to cry out. --- 1. About "misplacement" - the cruelest form of love. The most cruel thing about this story is "misplacement". It's not that I don't love, it's that the time for love is never right. When she married him at the age of fifteen, he was not loved; when she finally fell in love with him, she disappeared. He searched for her for ten years and found her, but she couldn't recognize it. She gave birth to a child for him, but he did not know until his death that it was his own flesh and blood. She said, "When you come back, I have a surprise for you." He never received this surprise after waiting his whole life. This kind of dislocation is much crueler than simple "not loving" or "betrayal". Because betrayal can be hated, but love can be forgotten. But the misplacement makes you unable to even hate or forget. You can only torture yourself black and blue in countless "what ifs". --- 2. About Lin Die'er - a woman who was torn apart by fate but never truly surrendered. Die'er's identity changed six times in her life. The daughter of a famous family, the young wife of the Zhang family, the prisoner of the deep house, the prostitute of the brothel, the Japanese spy, and the dead soul who blocked the gun for others. There are three names: Lin Dieer, Yang Huizhen, and Qianye Xinzi. But the only words that belong to her are those three words - Lin Die'er. I always remember the fifteen-year-old girl lying on the edge of the boat chasing fish. She is squeamish, she is willful, she will despise a man who "looks like a door god", and will say words like "a disgusting man". She was so alive and unburdened at that time. What happened to her later? Betrayed by her mother-in-law, imprisoned by evil men, forced to be separated from her parents and children, and sold into prostitution. Each time, fate pushed her deeper into the abyss. But she never really fell. In the other courtyard, she gritted her teeth and survived, just to keep her child alive. In Yihongyuan, she relied on her talents to become a shepherd and clung to her dignity. In the Yang Mansion, she transformed into a spy, burying all her love for her children deep in her heart, and living in another way. The words she said that made me most distressed were what she thought before she died - "If there is a next life, how much will she miss the beautiful face that ruined her life in this life, and just want an ordinary appearance." She has been "loved" by too many people, but none of this love is what she wants. Zhang Zhiming's love is too heavy; Xiao Qihao's "love" is possession and destruction; Yang Yanchen's love can only be hidden behind the identity of "brother". She was burdened with too many emotions that did not belong to her, but she never really had a peaceful time that was not disturbed by fate. --- 3. About Zhang Zhiming - Affection is the cruelest torture. Many people say that Zhang Zhiming is the "ceiling for affectionate male protagonists". But I think being affectionate is a kind of torture for him. He has only loved one person in his life. From the first meeting by the river, to the ten-year search, to farewell at the dock, to being buried together in the same cave. In his own way, he held on to this love until the last moment of his life. But this deep love brought him not happiness, but endless searching, waiting, doubt and despair. He didn't know until his death that the child named Yi'an he held was his own flesh and blood. He didn't know until his death that when Die'er said "Sir, you got the wrong person", he was saying "I love you" in his heart. He didn't know until his death that the "surprise" was their second child. At the last moment of his life, he leaned on the bedpost of the wedding room and drank the wine from the flask in one gulp. He saw the phantom of Dieer, and he said to her, "You are here." He asked in his heart: "How about you remembering me for the rest of your life in the next life?" This question made his heart break. --- 4. About Yang Yanchen - the person who hides love the deepest and most painfully. Yang Yanchen is one of the characters in this story that makes me most uncomfortable. He is the eldest son of the Yang family and the spy leader who walks on the tip of a knife. He has been instilled in him the belief that "the justice of his family and country is above all else" since he was a child, and he is not allowed to be emotional. However, he fell in love with Die'er. He hid this feeling too deeply. So deep that when Die'er called him "Brother", he could only listen. It was so deep that when Zhang Zhiming knelt in front of Yang Mansion, he could only stand in front of the second floor window, his fingers clenched until they turned white. It got so bad that when Die'er spoke for Zhang Zhiming, he could only say, "There are too many heartless women in the world." He used the cruelest words to cut off other people's thoughts and cut off his own. The last sentence he asked Die'er, "If there is a next life, how about we be an ordinary couple for the rest of our lives?" Reminded me of a sentence: "I can only guard you in the shadows, because my mission is destined that I cannot stand in the light." Die'er replied "Okay." This "good" may not be love, but it is heavier than love. It is gratitude, a debt, and another response after knowing that this kindness cannot be repaid. He buried Die'er next to the Yang family's ancestor's grave, and the tombstone was engraved with "Lin Die'er". He knew that this was her real name, and this was what she really wanted to be. --- 5. About Xiao Qihao - the tragedy and hatefulness of the villain Xiao Qihao is a villain, but he is not a stereotyped villain. He was jealous of everything Zhang Zhiming had, including Dieer. He used the most despicable means to destroy Zhang Zhiming's family business and take away Die'er. But he didn't know that the person he snatched would always have another person in his heart. He believed until his death that Yi'an was his biological flesh and blood. He poured all his guilt and obsession into this child to make up for the sins he had committed. In a sense, he is also a tragic product of this era - an illegitimate child, a dependent person, a person who loves in the wrong way and ultimately destroys himself and others. --- 6. About those moments that are hard to let go of. There are many moments in this story that I can't let go of. For example, when Zhang Zhiming protected Die'er in the courtyard, he squatted down, gently brushed her red and swollen cheeks with his trembling fingers, and asked in a hoarse voice, "Does it hurt?" That is a man who cannot say beautiful words and can use all his tenderness. For example, Dieer curled up in his arms before leaving and said, "When you come back, I have a surprise for you." She was waiting with joy to give this gift away, but she didn't know that the two of them never waited for the day when this sentence would come true. For example, when they reunited ten years later, Die'er said in blunt Japanese, "Sir, you recognized the wrong person." After turning the corner, she squatted at the base of the wall, covering her mouth and crying silently. As much as she wanted to recognize him, she couldn't. For example, Qiaoer knelt in front of Dieer and cried, "He can't live without you." Qiaoer knew that the person she loved had someone else in mind, but she was willing to be the one running with him, just to stay by his side. Her love is humble yet great. For example, before Zhang Zhiming died, he put the silver butterfly hairpin to his lips and kissed it, and asked in his heart: "In the next life, it will be you who will remember me for the rest of my life, okay?" He did not wait for an answer, but there was a smile on his lips, as if he had finally waited. For example, Yang Yanchen buried her next to the Yang family's ancestor's grave, and only three words were engraved on the tombstone - "Lin Die'er". He knew that she was not Qianye Xinzi or Yang Huizhen, she was just Lin Dieer. For example, at the end of Die'er's life, what flashed in her mind was not Yang Yanchen or Xiao Qihao, but that year in the misty rain in the south of the Yangtze River, she was lying on the edge of the boat chasing fish. A man in a green shirt stood in the pavilion on the shore, looking at her blankly. --- 7. Written at the end The title of this article contains the words "Butterflies into Dust and Smoke". Only after reading it did I realize how accurate these four words are - she is like a butterfly, which once fluttered in the world, but eventually fell into the dust and smoke, with no return date. Maybe, in a certain parallel time and space, there is no war, no chaos, no misunderstandings and misses. She would give birth to the child safely and hand over the "surprise" to him. He would hold her hand to see the house in the south of the city, where gardenias were planted in the yard. The swing swayed gently, and the children chased butterflies under the trees. "Love in this world cannot last forever", but I want to believe that at the end of the story, on the other side of death, they finally waited. Those who are separated in the dust and smoke will eventually meet again.

116 预 Predict All Timelines, I Love Killing Gods in My Dreams Old-Age Rice ScoopSci-Fi & Apocalypse211k WordsOngoing 34Reads5.8Score—Shelves

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Come and try it

117 爱 I Love You Forever, My Heart Is Moved Xi MeierModern Romance33k WordsCompleted —Reads5.8Score—Shelves

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118 星 Interstellar Guest Gu XuyingSci-Fi & Apocalypse151k WordsOngoing 150Reads5.8Score—Shelves

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119 小 Tadpole Looking for Daddy That Green Shirt Fades AwayAncient Romance451k WordsCompleted —Reads5.8Score—Shelves

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Abuse article, the heroine of the original world is abused

120 救 Help! the Crazy Villain I Raised Drew a Knife to Kill Me Lae RiverAncient Romance373k WordsCompleted 481Reads5.8Score109Shelves

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You want to cry, right? Cry for me. The male protagonist is controlled by the law of heaven to a certain extent. He kills the female protagonist and she escapes. The male protagonist thinks that the female protagonist really wants to die.