After I Died, They All Laughed

Few novels have left me with such complex feelings for the protagonist. It's so complicated that I want to throw my phone down, and it's so complicated that I sit up and sigh in the middle of the night. Chapter 1, I hate her. A bullied girl dies. I was floating at my own funeral, watching my parents kneeling on the ground crying, and watching the bullies pretending to wipe away their tears. I thought this was a standard sad beginning, and then it would be a cool plot of ghost revenge. As a result, in the third chapter, I was slapped all over. Lin Wei is not innocent. She once watched a boy being pushed off a cliff and squatting behind a bush, holding his knees and doing nothing. Then the murderer girl walked up to her and said with a smile: "Lin Wei, welcome to join us." She transferred schools and ran away, thinking she could start over. But those two people also transferred schools and recognized her. Then she became the next target of bullying. My feeling at the time was: You deserve it. You've watched other people die and you didn't say anything. Now it's your turn, can't you stand it? Are you wronged? If you die, the whole world owes you? Chapter 3 was painful for me to read. I can't sympathize with Lin Wei, I think she doesn't deserve it. She is not a victim, she is an accomplice. Li Mo's brother died. Li Mo spent three years looking for the truth, but what was Lin Wei doing? Change schools, escape, pretend nothing happened. Chapter 4, I started to waver. When Li Mo played the video in the auditorium, Zhang Hao and Chen Xue were taken away by the police. I thought this was the end, with the bad guys subduing the law, the truth being revealed, and a perfect ending. But Lin Wei's diary was made public. She wrote everything she did in her diary. She helped Chen Xue deceive Li Xiang into the back mountain. When she saw Li Xiang fall, she turned around and ran away. She made no excuses for herself. What she wrote was: "I am cowardly. I am writing this letter, not a suicide note, but a letter asking for help." She wrote down all her troubles. Including the part where she deserves to be scolded. A dead man nailed himself to a cross. At that moment, I suddenly realized that Lin Wei was dead. She had no chance to make another choice. She didn't get a chance to stand up and say, "I should have stood up then." She could only write down the truth and then be judged by future generations. She handed over the ugliest side of herself, not to whitewash her innocence, but to make the truth complete. She could choose to remain silent forever. But she didn't. Chapter 5, I respect her. The ending is where I cried the hardest. Lin Wei's parents chose a cemetery for her. My mother stood on the open space, touched the soil, and said, "Wei Wei likes to bask in the sun." My nose felt sour when I saw this. Then Li Mo went to visit his brother's grave. He stood in front of the tombstone and said, "Brother, do you think I should forgive her?" The wind blew a petal and fell on the back of his hand. Finally, he apologized for his brother. I also apologized for myself. Then he went to the rooftop and said to the air: "Lin Wei, I know you are here." No one answered. But he felt it. "Goodbye, Lin Wei. May you be an ordinary person in the next life." This sentence broke my defense. Because in all the previous chapters, Lin Wei was saying "I'm not worthy". She doesn't deserve to live, she doesn't deserve to be forgiven, she doesn't deserve to be remembered. But Li Mo said, "I hope you will be an ordinary person in the next life" - this is a blessing and a farewell. He let it go. He also let go for his brother. Finally, I want to talk about why this book is good. It doesn't give you a clean hero, nor does it give you a pure villain. It gives you a real group of people. Real people are afraid, selfish, and choose to protect themselves at critical moments. Real people make mistakes, regret it, and try to make amends until it's too late. After the real person dies, the living person still has to clean up the mess for her. Lin Wei is hateful. But she's also real. She did what we all probably would do - hung her head in the face of fear and prayed she wasn't next. Then she became next. Then she died. Then she did something she had never dared do while alive: she told the truth. To be honest, is it that difficult? Have. So difficult that it costs your life. But this book tells me that no matter how high the cost, someone has to speak up. If you don't say it, there will be the next Lin Wei. If you don't say it, there will be another Li Xiang. If you don't say it, more people will laugh at the funeral. Five stars. Respect Lin Wei, respect Li Mo, and respect Li Xiang who will always stop at the age of fifteen. Here's to all those who finally decided not to be silent anymore. I wish there would be fewer silent people in this world. More ordinary people.

After staying up late to read it, my back felt cold, my eyes were sore, and my heart was filled with panic. It's been a long time since I've read such a powerful novel. Let's talk about the most exciting point first-perspective. The first person "I" is a dead person, and the story begins with his own funeral. Others write about the supernatural as horror, but this book writes about the supernatural as Lingchi. You see your parents kneeling on the ground crying until they faint, you see your bullies dressed in black pretending to be sad but unable to hide the smile on their lips, you see them exchanging glances, pretending to cry, drying tissues, and making red circles under their eyes with eye shadow... That kind of anger is silent, because you are dead and you can't do anything. The first page put me on the chair and couldn't get up. Let's talk about reversal. I thought this was a cool article about "revenge after the bullied person dies". I was wrong. When I read the third chapter, I was completely confused. It turns out that the protagonist Lin Wei is not a pure victim. She had been a bystander, a silent accomplice, the "bait" that lured the other boy to the edge of the cliff. She chose silence because she was afraid of being exposed. Then she herself became the one being bullied. Then she died. All villains? No, they are all human. Cowardly people, selfish people, people who hurt others to protect themselves, people who risk everything to atone for their sins. None is clean, none is completely black. This is the most uncomfortable part - when you watch it, you can't help but ask yourself: If I were fifteen years old, threatened, photographed, and isolated by the class, would I stand up? I have no idea. I really don't know. Then there is Li Mo. The character who broke my defenses the most in the whole book. He has no golden fingers and no superpowers. He is just an ordinary, thin and inarticulate boy. It took him three years, changing schools twice, going through garbage dumps, recovering deleted data, and piecing together the truth bit by bit in corners unknown to everyone. The only thing he did wrong was to say "You should call the police" when Lin Wei was alive, and then left. Just that one time. He missed that one time and remembered it for the rest of his life. Chapter 4 When he projected the video in the auditorium, my heart beat so fast that I almost couldn't breathe. He is not a hero, he just doesn't want to lose another person. Even if that person was the "accomplice" who killed his brother. A depth rarely seen in Tomato novels. There is no system, no rebirth, no slap in the face, no boss coming to the rescue. What are some? It is real campus bullying, real silence, real cowardice, real anger, and real price. It doesn't give you pleasure, it gives you pain. But after the pain is over, you will feel like you have been washed clean by something. When the white chrysanthemum was placed on the fence at the end, I really cried. "May you be an ordinary person in the next life." This sentence is too strong. The word "ordinary person" turns out to be so difficult. If you have ever pretended not to see anything in the crowd, if you have ever hated your own cowardice late at night, if you have ever felt that it is better not to tell the truth when it is too late - read this book. It will tell you: dead people cannot speak. But what the dead do, the living can never escape. Five stars, no point less. Tomato's best short story candidate of the year, I'll leave it here.