Longing for My Heart

In high school, Ye Shunian fell for Bai Xuran, a golden boy whose world seemed far above hers.

Sensitive and insecure, she was a nobody at Nancheng No. 1 High School, let alone in his eyes. She kept reminding herself that he was just a passing figure in her life.

Perhaps fate was on her side. That summer between her second and third years of high school, she and the golden boy crossed paths.

Little by little, Ye Shunian became hopelessly lost in their relationship.

Then, a month before the college entrance exam, she saw the birthday present she’d scrimped and saved to buy him lying quietly in the trash, in the private room at the arcade Bai Xuran often visited, a room that belonged to him alone.

The next day, his mother came to see her. Only then did Ye Shunian learn that the wealthy had all sorts of rules.

The night before the final week of exam prep, she ended their relationship. That night, she couldn’t make out the boy’s face. He asked her just one thing: “Why?”

Ye Shunian only left him with a curt “I’m bored,” then hurried home. During that final week of preparation, he never bothered her.

Five years later, Ye Shunian thought that she and Bai Xuran would never cross paths again. But that night, just as she thought she must be seeing things, he pinned her against the door. He was no longer the proud boy he’d once been. In the dark, twenty-four-year-old Bai Xuran wept, his eyes red as he pleaded:

“Please don’t leave me again, A Nian.”

The next day, Ye Shunian saw that her ex-boyfriend had become her new roommate. “...”

Could someone tell her why her ex kept coming up with new ways to flirt with her every day? And why he was so afraid, time and time again, that she’d leave him behind?