Middle Age: Not in Control of My Own Life

At forty, Chen Jingshan seems to have it all in the eyes of outsiders. He has spent over a decade building his career, owns a stable company with tens of millions in business, navigates the worlds of government and industry, conducts himself with poise at the negotiating table, and knows people all over the city. He still can’t forget his first love, the girl he fell for as a teenager, while a gentle, clingy lover on the side stays close by. He calls the shots in business, and his life seems splendid, with everything in order. But no one knows that beneath his polished exterior lies a middle-aged life full of cracks and wounds. People say that by forty, one should have no more doubts. Yet Chen Jingshan’s fortieth year is filled with confusion and things beyond his control. Everyone envies him for having it all. Only he knows he has nothing. In the adult world, people put on a good show for others and hide their suffering deep inside.