That pot of white chamomile was something Lin Yu bought the day he moved to the seventeenth floor.
Its flower language is “strength in adversity.”
Gu Shenran thought the flowers looked sad. Lin Yu said that going through hardship gives you strength.
Later, Gu Shenran was promoted, and his business trips became more and more frequent. Lin Yu grew thinner, ate less and less, and began having nosebleeds.
He didn’t tell him.
He started picking fights, making a scene, saying the cruelest things, throwing away his ring and then picking it back up.
He wanted Gu Shenran to hate him. Hate was easier than longing, and less painful than waiting.
Gu Shenran really did leave.
A year later, he returned to the empty apartment.
Beneath the pillow lay a ring.
In the drawer was a diary.
The first page had three words:
“After I’m gone.”
The writing is very beautiful and makes my eyes sore.