After Denying It for Half My Life, I Finally Embraced My True Feelings for Men

Name: After Denying It for Half My Life, I Finally Embraced My True Feelings for Men
Author: Gong Meng's True Colors

否认半生，我终于忠于同性本心

by Gong Meng's True Colors (巩梦底色)

Status: Completed
Length: 138k Words
Genre: Two Male Leads
Updated: 5mo ago
Source: Fanqie

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Synopsis

Ever since he was a child, Lu Yan knew he was different from everyone else.

Tall and broad-shouldered, with a cold, tough demeanor, he had the air of a rugged man.

Yet his heart always leaned toward the same sex, a truth he could only hide away in the shadows.

His parents' expectations, society's judgment, and other people's gossip

left him no choice but to bow his head, suppress his nature, and pretend to fit in.

He rejected affection, severed his feelings, and pretended to be normal, shouldering all the loneliness and anguish alone.

For years, I kept up the act, denying the feelings I'd carried for half my life,

thinking that giving in would let me live in peace,

but over the long years, I kept losing to my instincts and obsessions.

Only later did I understand:

I didn't have to please the world or torment myself.

Staying true to my heart was the only salvation I would ever find.

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