I Only Learned to Love You After Being Reborn

In her previous life, she was a tool the Shen family bought to bring good fortune through marriage. He imprisoned her, abused her, and treated her like a servant. Yet at the very last moment, she took a fatal knife blow meant for him. Before she died, she said only, “This time, I chose it myself.” He held her cold body in his arms and went gray overnight. After being reborn, he returned to that rainy night. She was on her knees in the courtyard, burning with fever, unconscious and close to death. This time, he rushed into the rain and lifted her into his arms. But when she woke, all she could do was tremble. She was afraid to accept the scarf he gave her, afraid to eat the strawberries he bought, and even a simple “thank you” took ages to make it past her throat. He knelt before her and begged, “Please.” She shrank into a corner and said, “Don’t touch me.” He cut his finger and swore he would never hurt her again. She looked at his blood and said, “You said that before, too.” Later, when she finally dared to look him in the eye, he was the first to tear up. “Shen Moyuan, why are you crying?” “...The wind is too strong.” But she clearly remembered that the windows hadn’t even been open that day. In her previous life, he wouldn’t let her eat. In this one, he knelt and begged her to take a bite. In her previous life, he broke her arm. In this one, he stood beside her while she painted, afraid the hand holding her brush might tremble. In her previous life, she never heard him say “I’m sorry” before she died. In this one, he told her “I love you” every day, as if trying to repay a debt that could never be settled. She was his sin, and he was her tribulation. In this life, he learned to be gentle, but she still hadn’t learned not to be afraid. “When she smiled, his eyes reddened. When she cried, he knelt and wiped away her tears. When she finally said, ‘I’m not afraid of you anymore,’ he cried like a child.” “I thought I was saving you. Only later did I realize that you were the one who saved me.”