[A secret crush? She likes him liking her? A diary and a memoir]
I lived for five years in the loneliest place in the world...
A nearly ten-year "friendship defense campaign," with the "enemy" I guarded against so fiercely being myself...
I remember the curve of his smile, the rhythm of his fingers as he twirled his pen, and his profile as he gazed out the window, thinking no one was watching.
Most of all, I remember the second my heart stopped every time my best friend cheerfully said his name.
I thought that if I fled to the ends of the earth, to a place where it snowed, distance and time would sort everything out.
Until a wedding invitation crossed the ocean, and the past swallowed me like an avalanche.
This is a story about silence.
About the feelings left unspoken, the difficult balance between friendship and a racing heart, and the longest, quietest "war" one person ever fought in their youth.
Based on true experiences, dedicated to the youth we once cherished so carefully, yet that still shone so brightly.
