After I Toppled the Grand Tutor, He Begged Me Not to Die

I was once fortunate enough to meet someone.

After everyone turned against me and my family was destroyed, he taught me how to navigate the world, protected my innocence, and helped me stand on my own. But when he realized the shameful thoughts I harbored, he defied all objections and took me as his disciple, then used the rules of propriety to erect an impassable chasm between us.

Later, she was reborn.

Back at fourteen, living in the same era as her former self, she slaps her love-blinded self, kicks her Voldemort of a mother, remarries her delicate, soft-hearted father, props up her crumbling family, devours the scoundrel who tried to wipe out her family, and changes the dynasty...

She also beats everyone to calling that man her teacher.

But the Grand Tutor, a man at the pinnacle of power who strictly follows the rules of propriety, comes to regret it...

Male lead's perspective:

I once saved a lovely flower that had fallen into the mire. I exhausted every scheme and left no stone unturned, but I still couldn't dispel the hatred in her heart. She sowed chaos in the court, brought calamity to the nation, and committed all manner of evil. When the palace eunuch presented her with the three gifts of death, she chose poisoned wine. Her insides were ravaged, and blood poured from every orifice. She cared most about her dignity, yet departed in the most undignified way.

Later, I was fortunate enough to live again. At last, I saved her, yet still couldn't keep her by my side.

Only when she disappeared did I realize that from the moment we first met, she had been plotting her escape...

I couldn't save her, and I couldn't save myself.