I’m trapped amid layer upon layer of obstacles. I want to make a grand show of what I can do, but I’m constantly held back. This court is just like a workplace, and I’ve been a spectacular failure as its “boss.” I can only hope that someday I’ll break through these barriers and truly lead the Qing onto a new path. But when will that day finally come? Sigh, all I can do is keep enduring this helplessness.
