No, Why Is It so Difficult for Me to Die?

I'm Looking for a Book Where the Main Character Is Bent on Committing Suicide/begging to Die/wanting to Die!

It's time to test all old book friends! I have fallen in love with this genre recently, but it feels like it is so niche. It is similar to a book like "Wei Junzi Sees Death as Homecoming", where the protagonist wants to die but is unable to do so! The more the merrier! Thank you! Beg