At the Peak of Despair

A classic among nihilists. I should examine nihilism and existentialism from a dialectical perspective. Any thoughts and books are other people's opinions and thoughts. To experience and feel and then summarize your own views on life, soul and the world, which is a philosophy that truly belongs to you.

"At the peak of despair, no one has the right to sleep." At this moment, I started writing a book review again. I had not read a book for a long time before this, which sounds normal, haha. He clearly wrote about his feelings about the world. Everyone wants to know who makes us despair, who makes us free, who makes us exist, and who is worthy. When we know that we are very small in the world and our own world is very large, we will be confused. Am I a huge or a small existence? What is the meaning of my existence? I won't say much here, because everyone has their own answer. It is not given to you by others, but what you truly recognize in your heart. Let's talk about something unrelated. I saw another light go out today, and I still felt a little sad. It seems that everyone is the same. Regardless of whether they have experienced despair or not, they still feel sad for the misfortunes that others have encountered, and they will also write some sincere words. Maybe tomorrow, or maybe the day after tomorrow, you will have forgotten this incident, but the emotions at that time were real, and the words left at that time are still hot and gentle. This was a big force for many people, including myself at the time. I don't know what kind of existence I am in the world, but what kind of existence I am in myself, I know one thing. I take everything slowly, not in a hurry. I like to listen to music. I like to go to quiet places to sit in a daze. I also like to chat with friends in crowded and lively places. I will be confused about the future. When I feel desperate, I will live seriously after self-examination. Sometimes I will arrogantly say to life: "This is it, haha." In this way, I am a great person in my own world. I will plant flowers and trees, water and bask in the sun. When they grow up, they will cheer for me and applaud me. How could it not be awesome? Everyone is a huge existence in their own world. "May death appear in the light of absurdity; may pain be limited and secret; may fanaticism be impure; may life be rational; may the dialectics of life be logical but not monstrous; may despair be subtle and limited; may eternity be but a word; may the experience of nothingness be an illusion; may fate be a joke!"

I personally think it's pretty good. The author identifies himself as desperate, and some book friends in the comment area also believe that the author suffers from "depression." However, I think that as long as you read it carefully, you will definitely get a completely opposite result. Articles such as: Are you willing to be a happy madman? Is this world worth regretting? These sentences prove that the author does not view the world from an absolutely pessimistic perspective. What the author really wants to express should be a corresponding emotion. I personally think it should be a kind of isolation, or living with one's own ideas. There is no need to care about others deliberately, and you will not harm your own interests because of others. Maybe you don't understand this, so I think I can use myself as an example. I am a sophomore in high school. From elementary school to junior high school, my grades were always at the bottom of my grade. Later, when I was in the second grade of junior high school, I went to study in other provinces. Maybe because the area was relatively remote, I often ranked among the best here. However, I performed abnormally during the high school entrance examination. Just when I almost thought I had to go to a technical school, I found out that I had been admitted to high school. Maybe it's because of these experiences of rising and falling that I often think about things alone. At that time, I often felt hopeless, which according to this book should be doubtful. Do you doubt what you can do in the future? Do you doubt whether you are of any use to this country? Do you doubt whether you have any value in this world? Do you doubt whether there is any point in living now? Every time I think about it, if I don't jump now, it will be over. But I'm afraid of pain. I also want to play various games. The main thing is that I still want to be alive now. Later, he was often bullied by his classmates because of his personality problems. At that time, I was thinking that good people are not rewarded, but bad people can always enjoy themselves. But the education I received since childhood prevented me from being a "bad person". Later, I slowly thought more and more and began to worry about my future. I want to be a soldier. But does the country need me? Or am I needed by the country? I have wanted to be an archaeologist since I was a child, not because of the influence of some novels and movies. It's because I have loved historical stories since I was a child, but my grades were not good. My current performance is just barely enough to get through one book, but I can't get up and down. Maybe things will get better in my senior year of high school, but so what? Society doesn't seem to need people like me. When I thought of this, I understood that I would find a job worth three thousand or four thousand in the future. Live alone. Because I need this, I like quiet and I like to be alone. They always say that it is wrong to live in isolation, but it is better to let a hundred flowers bloom. But I need it! Maybe I will die tomorrow, maybe I can live to be 100 years old. It sounds like a long time, but it's too little. It took me 16 years of living to discover what I really need. The above are all my personal thoughts, which are somewhat consistent with the author of this book. We all seem to like to be alone and quiet. Life is always our own. In this book full of loneliness and despair, we should yearn for positivity more. To sum up: The role of this book for me is to confirm the path I want to take next. Everyone may have different feelings when reading this book. They may see it positively or negatively. It's just that I think more about living for myself. Some of the things that make you despair may just be doubts anyway. I can't be as open-minded as Zhuangzi, so sometimes I believe in my heart for myself. Don't regret it.

The description of pain in the writing is very profound, pointing directly to the deepest loneliness in people's hearts. The world is nothingness without any meaning of existence. It is very pessimistic, and even pessimism is nothingness, and everything the author does is denied. But I hold the completely opposite opinion. There is no need to put shackles on people like this. The book is indeed very good, but I choose light and believe in hope and meaning. Living may not mean much, but we have to create value, meaning and spirit ourselves.

The subjective feelings are expressed too accurately

Flame, infinity, thoughts, pain, depression, meaning, world, self, struggle, living, suicide, pessimism... Most of the points are worth pondering. I have never studied philosophy and cannot speak any professional terms. However, from the perspective of an "innocent" person like me who lives an "ordinary" life, I think what I can learn from the book is, first of all, absolute recognition and love for myself—————— "If I had to choose between myself and the world, I would give up the world without hesitation." Secondly, it is the structural understanding of self-growth path. That is, "forget the past (bad) and focus on the present and the future." —————— "If I were asked to evaluate the world, I would just say whether the world is worthy of my evaluation." The last thing is to keep maintaining a positive attitude and climb upward. "Pick me up and throw me into the flames" and "send your inner roar to the world" are not a kind of blooming of life. If we can't change the so-called horrible vocabulary at present, my friend, then let's let ourselves live more brilliantly.

Not bad, quite depressing😹

Quick thinking is the greatest benefit of this book

The language is precise and beautiful, most of it is good, some of it is just sentimental.

I looked at a few pictures but didn't understand [rolls eyes]

Let me run, let me burn

Yes, I have a complete enlightenment

Sage is beauty, I hope everyone can see through their own heart

I found answers to many questions I didn't understand.

Grant me the madness of despair, and grant me the calmness and rationality to judge my own soul. There is no salvation here!