The Choices I Made at Eighteen

The beginning was rather bland, with a bit of a silly, loud laugh, but the more I read on, the less I felt my tears were worth. I felt that the author's original intention wasn't to have the main characters all die, but the plot development was more like she had created a world where even the author had to abide by the rules, so everything inevitably headed towards destruction. After finishing it, I felt empty inside. So, author, when will you finally finish it?