The Choices I Made at Eighteen

The beginning of the story was very dull and a bit funny, but as it went on, I felt that my tears were worthless. I felt that the author's original idea was not to destroy the protagonist, but the development of the plot is more like she has built a world. In this world, even the author must abide by the rules, so everything inevitably leads to destruction. After reading this, I feel empty in my heart. So, author, when will you finish it?