Days of Letting Go of Youth

The age of sixteen or seventeen should be the most beautiful youth for everyone, but my youth was full of despair, ups and downs, the dangers of the world, the greed of people, the murder of my mother... How should I make a choice in the face of a life of despair? Where should my youth go? This novel and its characters are purely fictitious. Any similarity is purely coincidental and should not be imitated.