At Thirty Years Old, Should I Live or Die?

I am thirty years old. Looking back on my thirty years of life, I often think about the meaning of life. I have thought about death, and I have thought about living. Now I tell myself that in the future, I will live however I like! You only live once in this world. Anyone who stands in my way will die. Don't give me orders! I make my own money and spend it as I like! I don't have a home after turning 30, so I eat, drink, have fun and travel around the world! Ha ha! This novel and its characters are purely fictitious. Any similarity is purely coincidental and should not be imitated.