If I Had to Do It Again, I Would Still Choose You

At the age of thirty-two, Cen Zhi died in a car accident. When she woke up, she went back to the summer when she was eighteen years old. The ceiling fan in the classroom was squeaking, and the cicadas outside the window were noisy. Eighteen-year-old Pei Xu was sitting by the window, and the sunlight fell on his eyelashes, as clean as a dream that would never wake up. He smiled at her, showing his little tiger teeth, and said, "Good morning, Cen Zhi." Cen Zhi clenched his fists. She remembered this smile. I also remember that on a rainy night five years later, this man came out of the hotel smelling of alcohol and said to her—— "Let's stop here." This time, she didn't want to love him anymore. But Pei Xu refused to let her go. He carried her across a flooded road on a rainy night. He squatted with her in front of a convenience store at three o'clock in the morning. He was so feverish that he started talking nonsense and even grabbed her hand and shouted, "Don't leave." Eighteen-year-old Pei Xu really loves her. She had seen what he looked like later - cold, tired, impatient, looking at her like she was looking at something expired. But the young man in front of him only had eyes for her. She thought that maybe if she had to do it again, the ending would be different. Maybe this time, he will always love her. ——Until she saw another woman standing next to him on the streets of Beijing, smiling exactly like she did when she was eighteen. It turns out that some things cannot be changed even if you try again. It turns out that the phrase "I will always protect you" has a shelf life from the beginning. If fate gave you a chance to come back again, would you choose to escape or fly into the flame again?