When I Was a Young Boy, I Became a Star by Myself

After half a lifetime of ups and downs at the age of thirty, I returned to the starting point with clarity and regret. In my previous life, I was meek, cowardly, humble and reserved, and I hid my secret love for Lin Yiwen throughout my youth. I watched from afar as he rushed to show off his rebellious Su Yanning, retreating step by step amid rumors and comparisons, living a bleak and transparent life, blindly looking up to the light of others. Once again, I will give up all timidity, no longer chase anyone's figure, use all living beings as a reference, settle myself, and grow quietly. I met Yang Wenqiang, who was famous throughout the school. He was unruly, domineering, wanton and mischievous. He was harsh and indifferent to everyone, but he was particularly paranoid towards me. Collision and staring in the cafeteria are his clumsy and youthful hobbies. Unable to bear the trouble, I confronted him in public, which made him calm down his anger for the first time and leave the show as promised. He quietly dropped out of school and left, becoming the gentlest exception in my youth. Zhan Xu broke into my life. He was kind, cheerful, and highly sought after. He was always gentle with me, chatted with me in a funny way, took care of all the duties, and collected a variety of imported coffees and exquisite cups. I was moved by my long-term preference. We had a sweet time, but when others provoked him, his mind wavered. Seeing clearly the perfunctory and wavering, I became sober and decisive, and decisively left. I absorb the strengths of everyone, avoid shortcomings in the world, and accumulate confidence and temper my edge over the years. Those young people who once had their hearts set on others and had no self in their eyes eventually turned around and ended up with a life-long dilemma. The wind blows in the youth alley, and everything is passing by. I will eventually become a star by myself, live an open life, and will not stop for anyone.