I Fought Hard, and Then What?

"I fought hard. Then what?" Lin Zhaoning has been the girl who stood straightest since she was a freshman in high school during military training. She became the girl who couldn't sleep in the early morning of her senior year of high school, staring at the ceiling and waiting for dawn. In her freshman year of high school, she was at the bottom of her class and felt it didn't matter. When she was in the second grade of high school, she chose "Bi Sheng Di" and wrote a line on the title page of her textbook - "Let's go first." She started to get up early, answer questions, and chase the teacher to ask questions. He climbed from the top 400 in his grade to the top ten in his class. In her senior year of high school, insomnia first caught her. I can't sleep at noon and have a headache at night. I lay there until early in the morning and was still thinking about mathematical formulas in my mind. There was something wrong with my mother's health, and my father said on the phone, "Don't be distracted." She didn't stop. But the college entrance examination did not give her a counterattack script. She was a few points away from the first line and went to an ordinary second line. It took her a long time to figure it out: Efforts may not necessarily pay off, But those early mornings, those late self-study nights spent with friends, The insistence that she never broke her promise, No need to take an exam to prove it. This is the youth of an ordinary person—— There is no golden finger, no happy ending, There is only clumsy persistence and final relief.