Forty Years Later, I Say Goodbye to the Internal Friction That Has Haunted Me for Half My Life.

When I turned forty, I was trapped by layers of shackles from marriage, mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, and childcare. Years of accommodating family members resulted in endless internal friction, job hunting was blocked, and life was in embarrassment. For a time, I couldn't see the way forward. Settle your mind during cleaning, slowly let go of your obsessions, and no longer force others to change. Make a living by running a snack bar and heal the scars of the past with words. The best way to live in middle age is to stop consuming yourself, meditate and live only for yourself from now on.