Lili Who Can't Find Her Heart

I have never been able to find my heart, and I was very confused... I thought that time would fill the heart that I couldn't find, and make me calm down slowly, but it still doesn't seem to be the case. Going in circles, back and forth, where to go, what to do? There is nowhere to escape, and I cannot face it bravely. I keep waiting for someone to appear and save me, but I also know that it is unrealistic...