Stars, Troubled Times

Because I have to go to work, I can only update two pieces now. Alas, when will it become 100,000 popular?

Every time I question myself, I question whether I should continue Oh, it's so painful, I don't want to admit defeat But I'm also afraid that all my hard work will be in vain.

Sometimes I'm really unconvinced Obviously some of the books are mediocre But they still signed the contract Oh, is the gap between people really that big?

I actually have a talent for writing romance novels

Sometimes, I really want to scold the editor I really want to scold them

Sometimes, small wishes can't be realized but others can easily realize them It's really uncomfortable Maybe this is life Or, it's a characteristic.

There are only 20 collections. Oh my god, please, brothers, sisters, younger brothers and sisters, come and collect them😄

If there really is a heaven above the clouds Does anyone live there What do they usually eat Do they want to play games Do they want to go to work Do they want to take a vacation Do they want to find a girlfriend The most important thing is, what do they look like?

I'm very troubled, I don't know whether I should write carefully Because I still can't sign the contract after I write it carefully It's very shocking And it makes me feel that such detailed writing is of no use I always feel that in the end all my hard work is in vain. The market can never keep up with the changes in the world I feel like I have been eliminated and despised by others I feel that I have chosen this industry by mistake and missed Douyin Being laughed at and despised by many people Oh, it feels so uncomfortable

There is always an upper limit to a person's ability Without the talents of those powerful people As an ordinary person Life is very difficult I have lost a lot of things I have missed a lot of things I don't know if I can live a good life in the remaining years Point It's so difficult Life, for ordinary poor people It's really painful Sometimes I feel I might as well just die It's not interesting I've been disappointed too many times Been beaten too many times Also failed countless times

Sometimes I feel troubled Looking at those popular books When I first started reading, I thought they were quite interesting But after a while, it became boring I feel the same way even if it is a book by a popular platinum author It's not that he wrote poorly Maybe I'm tired from reading Or maybe, this book is not what I want Anyway, just read it After watching it, I stopped watching Maybe the master is also good at writing, and sometimes he has no ideas It is also possible that I am a bit different, different from most people I have different ideas A bit nostalgic I don't like those unconventional things I feel like something is good, so I want to write this kind of thing But unfortunately, it's not that I feel good, others will feel good too

After so many years I feel that writing a book requires feeling When the feeling comes, you can write well But it is impossible to feel good every day There is no way to maintain a very high quality of writing Just like the weather Not every day is sunny Just like the mood Not every day I will be happy There will always be disappointments and discomfort Mediocre times

Maybe the things I write are out of date Readers of Qidian have read too many books They are no longer interested in books like mine, and are tired of them But I am nostalgic and retro I don't like writing trendy things Since people suggest me to write short stories Then I will write short stories I guess he is an editor, assistant or something I can write more carefully and save writing so many words every day I feel tired

Although no one has read this book But I still want to say sorry This book is going to be finished I am going to write a short story I am going to write a short story about my experience I feel so sad I just want to write about my experience It can be considered as leaving something in this world.

There is a saying that is good Reading thousands of books is not as good as traveling thousands of miles Walking more means experiencing more It is much more useful than just reading books.

Many people once mocked me as mud Saying that I am mud that cannot hold up the wall They also said that I had no ability They just looked down on me anyway Those women did the same They looked down on me too They also said that I was mentally ill Looking at me as if I were a fool No one knew me How uncomfortable my heart is I already have a bad headache I still have to suffer from these anger The starting point is similar They also look down on me Many people say they look down on people like me I have had enough of your supercilious looks Don't give me a chance Once I have a chance I will kill you

Many people ridiculed me and said that I had no future in writing novels They said I was wasting my time To be honest, I was very angry What was even more angry was that I couldn't sign a contract here I could only be ridiculed by these people and could not fight back.

Back then, those people at China South Locomotive & Rolling Stock Locomotive & Rolling Stock Corporation mocked me like this Saying I had no money Saying I didn't understand anything Saying I hadn't read a few books Saying I didn't understand, that's not possible Yes, I know how No one taught me There is too much knowledge in the book, and I can't remember it You all know everything, right You are awesome, right? Why haven't I seen you build high-speed rail before? What if I don't understand these things? Do I need to know so many things? I'm not a chief engineer Why should I know so many things? This world is not just about technical knowledge There are many other things What I know, you don't understand But have you seen me and said that you don't understand this, don't you understand that? You know more than me in some aspects Can you use it to ridicule me and belittle me Just like writing a novel There are indeed many things I don't understand The problem is that I need to know so many things I don't have that much time to study anything, the Twenty-Four Histories, etc. What popular science books, professional books? I have to work, I have to go to work How can we have so much time to study those bullshit books? Only people who don't have to go to work and have enough food and clothing can be stable, read books and read various information with confidence So, you people, don't show off what you are good at and know You are just a bunch of nerds

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