The Laborer of Marriage Mansion

Hello~ Hello, I am Qinghan! With a nervous and hesitant mood, "The Workers of Marriage Mansion" is finally officially launched. Actually, I'm not sure if anyone will have the patience to read this book, I don't know if anyone will understand all the foreshadowing and expectations buried between the lines, but one thing is certain! This book is the result of about five years of hard work. The people I met and the things I experienced all entered the world of this book through artistic treatment and novelistic writing style. In 21 years, I tried to put this book online once, but the content was exhausted and I had to suspend it and re-plan it. Later I discovered that when I meet someone or experience something, I will suddenly have a sudden burst of inspiration in my mind, and I will think of all the main stories and hidden plots about this character in a very short period of time. It seems that this is not the author's idea, but the vicissitudes of life. The memory of the past life finally woke up from the dream when I met "you" this time. Some memories are warm, some are cruel, and some things are full of regrets but cannot be repeated. When I reach a certain chapter, I have to find the diaries, photos, chat records, etc. About the memories of that year to find the details of those years. One day, I suddenly understand that the value of memories is that they are memories and become a highlight in this life. Some memories become stories. This is probably the original intention of this book. Some thinking becomes growth. That's probably the gist of this book. If you are willing to click on this book, I will sincerely sing a song for you first, "The World Never Stops" by singer Bai Lu. I shuttled through the world I wrote through song cycles again and again, and every detail gradually became clear, and finally it became a three-dimensional world, containing all the memories that I couldn't bear to forget, and the only love that I have. How lucky, I was parked in your eyes from the beginning, and finally met you after all the changes. If a certain character is familiar to you, and a certain plot arouses your memories or resonance, perhaps, this is really you in my eyes, and it is really our exclusive memory. Welcome to reading - "The Workers in the Marriage House"

The author's writing is delicate and smooth, and the story has ups and downs. It's worth reading.

But I still remember the clarity of my mind that moved slightly when I heard the sound of the wind on the porch that year; I still remember that the stars were bright that year, and my heartbeat trembled, indicating the courage that all my heart felt; I still remember the support and strength given by his presence during that time; and the regret that I wanted to keep, but once again failed to keep, and the courage and sincerity that may never be shown again. It's hard to be sad after a long separation in this world. When all my expectations were gone and there was no response, I finally learned to be calm and accepting. The wind and snow in Kunlun Realm will definitely be able to properly place all the past. If the fourth fate comes, I will not say a word about it.

The first time I felt that this character was established was when you said about her family of origin - "The family has never given unconditional love, and all the tenderness and care are pinned on the hope that she will fight for her relatives." This sentence explains everything about her. What she was deprived of was never food and clothing, but the right to be allowed to "disappoint". Her going to the dance studio was not a fall, it was the only choice she could make in that position. However, when her parents received the news, their reaction was not "Why are you so stupid", but "We are useless, so we forced you to give up your dignity." This made her feel more uncomfortable than scolding her. What she read from her parents' self-blame was: You have suffered, but this suffering is not yours to bear, it is our uselessness. So Shaoyang's character logic is not weakness, but a sense of indebtedness. The way she was loved taught her one thing - if others treat you well, you should repay it twice as much. This leaves her with a permanent feeling of "unworthiness" in intimate relationships. Whenever Luo Xu was nice to her, she would write a debt in her account book. Her sensitivity and internal friction are not born, they are trained: If you have been asked to be considerate of the family's difficulties since you were a child, you will be alert to all good intentions when you grow up, because good intentions are a harbinger of debt in your eyes. This explains why she insisted on entering the palace for Chen Yao. She had considered staying in the palace. But she quickly squashed that thought. It's not because she doesn't want stability, it's because she feels stability is stolen, and what is stolen must be returned. What does she pay for? Use it to repay Luo Xu's kindness by entering the palace for Chen Yao, use it to repay his kindness for rescuing her at the Hundred Flowers Festival, and use his whole life to repay the kindness of that salt and pepper cake. I read the part where you wrote that she asked the Lord God "how to deal with herself" in the Qingguang Realm for a long time. She wasn't asking about survival skills, she was asking: Do people like me deserve to stand tall? Luo Xu's answer to her is the most precious gift you can give her in your life - affirmation. It's not about affirming her ability, but affirming that she is "worthy". Tell her that the harsh criticism of others is not her fault, tell her that the books she has spent the night chewing on are her confidence, and tell her "you have the qualifications to stand up straight." And the last sentence she shouted in the Stars - "I don't want anything, I just want to stay by your side, even if it's just a drop of water without any consciousness." The weight of this sentence is that she finally admitted that she did not want those "things she should want". She spent her whole life fighting for her parents, clearing the grievances of her neighbors, and repaying kindness. She never said "what I want." She said she wanted to stay with him. She spent her whole life learning to "accept being loved calmly", and finally learned it at the moment of loss. Shaoyang is the perfect embodiment of the "only child in a typical East Asian family" you set. Her predicament is all-round, and each one is overwhelming: Original family - must live up to expectations, repay kindness, and live up to parents - self-repression, dare not enjoy, continuous internal strife Family stigma - father is wronged, neighbors suffer, must clear wrongs - risk one's life, Giving up stability Gender restrictions - women can only take few roads - they can only use dancing skills and beauty to approach the imperial power Luo Xu's kindness - the "sense of indebtedness" generated after being treated well - more firmly chooses to enter the palace to repay The most distressing thing about her is: when others treat her well, she will want to sacrifice more. The staff told her that the prince could not bear to let her enter the palace, but she became more determined to go for Chen Yao; Luo Xu took her to Moling and gave her the respect she had never had before, and her reaction was "even more repayment". This kind of character background makes her like a moth constantly flying into the fire. You have used enough details to pave the way for this logic. But when she was around Luo Xu, she began to "dare" - Dare to say a few more words, dare to express her opinions on the meaning of poetry, calligraphy and painting, and even dared to quietly enjoy the stability. The staff member said, "In Prince Xu's Mansion, you can be yourself." This sentence caused waves in her heart, which was enough to change her life. She went from being "arranged" to "actively choosing", which is a complete growth trajectory in the character arc. She suffered a lot of injustice in the Water God Palace, and Luo Xu used Star Shadow to save her at the Hundred Flowers Festival. Later, she tried her best to enter Xingyan Hall and studied with Shenjun. Those days were warmer than she had ever experienced before - Luo Xu remembered the salt and pepper crisps she brought casually, which were still warm when she went to the world to buy them back; when she was anxious about separation, he accurately caught her every emotional collapse. So when she heard that Luo Xu was in trouble, she decided to take his place without hesitation. "She is only happy because she can help Lord Luo Xu and can finally repay His kindness." This sentence is a footnote to Shaoyang's life. It is like this in heaven, and it is also like this in the mortal world - she has always been like this, if others treat her well, she will treat her the same, even at the risk of her own destiny and immortality. "The moment I recognize my heart, even if it is painful to fall in love with you, I will still choose to love you without hesitation." This is not a word of thanks after she was saved, but a moment when she was finally willing to be honest with herself when she lost that person. She has been denying this feeling all her life, saying that it is gratitude, respect and the kindness of knowing someone, because she knows too well that if she admits it, she will be doomed. But at the last moment, before he disappeared completely, she could finally tell the truth. It wasn't love that changed her. Love didn't change anything - it didn't stop her from succeeding, it didn't stop from his fall. But the moment she finally said these words, she was no longer the fairy who had to use "repaying kindness" to rationalize everything. If you dare to admit love, you have already won. It's not him who wins, it's herself who wins. Shaoyang. I have been thinking about what she regrets most - not the robbery, not entering the palace, not those unsent letters. It was she who was in the Qingguang Realm of Tianxuan Terrace. Every time Luo Xu handed over the Star Dew Cup, she only said "Thank you, God." She had a thousand chances to say one more word, but she didn't. She swallowed back all the words she "wanted to say" and turned into the sentence "I don't want anything, I just want to stay by your side" in this world. She finally said this, but the person who could hear her was no longer there.