Looking Out at the Break

This is a personal record about "rupture". From the alienation of childhood foster care, to the intrusion of violence into the body and mind, from the smoke of the family battlefield, to the eleven years of living with bipolar emotions... The author's life has been "broken" time and time again. But this book is not a display of pain. It is a sober record made by an observer on the ruins of his own life: about how damage occurs, how the system fails, and how an ordinary person preserves the last shred of sanity for survival in the long decadence. There is no grand redemption narrative in the book, only personal experiences: how to walk when no one is holding an umbrella, how to understand the true self under the diagnostic label, and how to establish a "non-reconcilable but coexisting" relationship with the past after anger and sadness. What it ultimately wants to explore is: how should we understand our own lives when "living well" is already a feat.